Requested by anon
You smile blandly thinking about how easily she had let the friendship between the two of you slip. No official statements or direct cutting remarks, just silences along with avoidance in eye contact were enough to say that she had chosen her over you. You told yourself it was your fault. You were the one who must have messed things up like all the other times. Why else would everyone hate you? Why else would every relationship you treasured just fall apart?
“No matter how hard life is, always look at the bright side of things, my love,” your mother used to say.
“I do mom,” you whispered to the silent, empty room as you lay in your bed. You truly missed her that day. A tear trickled down your face and fell on the pillow. ‘Oh I’m crying…’ you thought to yourself, forcing a smile on your face. “It’s not that hard _______. Things like these always happen.” You tried to make yourself feel better but only your heart knew what it felt. It ached because you were lonely. It ached because you were hurt…
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You knocked on the screen of your phone in annoyance. It was the third time since that morning it froze on you. The snow had come unannounced in the middle of April. It had started to pile up everywhere, making it hard for you to walk. You were already ten minutes late and your phone wouldn’t corporate with your situation either. You shoved it back into your coat pocket and increased your pace this time.
Your adjusted your rapid breathing upon reaching the door of SMENT. You had only opened it half way when you were pulled back viciously.
“Can’t you see me standing right behind you?” Luhan said angrily. Your head spun and you felt dizzy due to the sudden shaking of your body.
“I’m sorry,” was all you could say still trying to adjust yourself.
“Well next time, make sure you let me enter first,” he snarled.
“Yes Sir,” you nodded rapidly.
“____________!” you heard an angry voice from across the lobby. “Where have you been all morning?”
“Aaa.. I was trying to call..” you said taking out your phone and knocking on the screen once again.
“If you are not going to take this job seriously, I’m going to look for someone much better than. Do you get that?” the manager roared, pulling you with him. You had barely gained your senses and now this. You turned around to look at Luhan. He was looking at you. You wished he wasn’t. Because the condescending smile fixed on his face was doing nothing more than hurting you.
The manager handed you the plan for the next three weeks but what worried you was the party you had to organize for that night. 6 hours notice was not enough to get everything into place. You hurried out the building as soon as he released you. The clock was ticking faster than usual that day.
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“You got the cheapest flowers? Are you okay?” the manager yelled, taking you into a corner.
“There wasn’t enough money left,” you said timidly. He was ready to yell once again but something else caught his attention. You felt your blood flowing once again, when he let go off of your arm. You were about to move when the door behind you opened, pushing you forward. “Why were you standing right outside the men’s bathroom?” Luhan asked with annoyance. You looked up at his shiny silver hair and perfect features.
“Aaa.. the..” you blurted incoherent words.
“Look at yourself. Is this what someone wears to a party?” he questioned with harsh words. He began to walk away but something stopped him. As if what he had said wasn’t enough. He came near you stopping only inches away. He smiled looking at down at you. “I don’t like the way you look at me,” he whispered. The smile had disappeared. You could see hatred and disgust in his eyes. It didn’t surprise you at all. You had seen it before-many times. ‘Why?’ – you would always ask yourself but no answer would come. Luhan’s eyes fell on your wrist. He twitched wanting to take a second look but you pulled your sleeve down. You were scared of making a move. If you tried to walk away he would be mad. If you stayed he would come up with something else to insult you with. The world would never be happy with you. Luhan eased your problem by walking away himself.
As much as you didn’t want to, you were required to hang around until the party ended. You took a look at your shabby clothes and then compared yourself to all the other pretty girls at the party. They looked beautiful. They all had boyfriends and they all had friends. You were lonely and broken and had no one to talk to. You glanced at Luhan from time to time. His fingers danced on a pretty girls shoulder as they moved to the sounds of the beat. It bothered you to see them together but you scolded your heart for even going down that lane. Having secret feelings for someone had cost you a lot in the past. Your heart didn’t understand though. It had begun to like Luhan since the day you saw him. You however kept telling yourself the lie that it was far from true.
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That night you lay in bed, once again thinking about all the wrong things that life had done to you. Then you smiled, like always- telling yourself it wasn’t that bad. Things could be a lot worse. So what if you had no friends left and so what if your workplace wasn’t the best place to be it. You had to survive as long as you could. Life is such a beautiful gift, how could you just throw it away like that?
What you didn’t know was that, your heart had plans of its own- plans that would come unannounced…
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You arrived at work extra early the next day, just to be on the safe side. Some of the Exo members were already there. You had never talked to any of them before. You didn’t ever make an effort to either, because you assumed they would treat you exactly the way Luhan treated you.
You placed all your files on the bench outside their practice room and sat down. You sleep deprived eyes began to shut as you rested your head against the wall.
You woke up to the sound of doors opening and closing. You panicked looking at your watch. Thirty minutes had passed in just a few seconds. Hurriedly, you grabbed everything and ran to the manager’s room.
Luhan walked out of the practice room. Something caught his eye. He stopped, turned around and looked at the small brown diary on the bench.
“What is this doing over here?” he talked to himself also staring the object in surprise. He picked it up and went back into the practice room. He wouldn’t allow anyone in the world to read his personal journal. Then it hit him. He had seen you sitting on the bench a while ago. Luhan ran in the direction of you room. He banged the door open looking at you furiously. You trembled at the sight before you.
“If you ever.. ever.. ever..” he advanced towards you like a lion coming out of his den. “touch my things again you have no idea what I’ll do to you.”
“What do you mean?” you asked in a shaky voice.
“Don’t play innocent on me you little rat..”
“LUHAN!” you yelled. You could never imagine him saying such a word. He was a lot of things but he was never go to such extent.
“Don’t yell at me!” he said. His lips quivered with anger. Both you and he heard someone’s footsteps coming towards your room. It was the manager.
“I don’t want her here in this building anymore,” Luhan said to manager sternly.
“What do you mean?” the manager asked seeing the two of you together.
“I just don’t want her here,” Luhan said, this time a little louder. You looked at the two men in horror, trying your best to stop the tears from gushing out of your eyes.
“________ I’ll figure this out later. Will you please leave right now?” the manager said patiently, making way for you to go. You looked at him and then at Luhan. His anger hadn’t subsided. He was still mad- very mad. The worst part about the whole situation was that you didn’t even know what your crime was.
Your eyes burnt as you blinked, giving your tears the best chance to fall out of your eyes. You wiped it quickly, and picked up all your belongings. It was time that you left- forever…
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Luhan lay in his bed holding the journal. A lot had happened that day that needed to be added to his list of achievements. He stared at the unfamiliar hand writing on the first page. His heart sank and his pupils widened, as he flipped through the pages. It wasn’t his journal. He flipped back to the first page to see who it belonged to. His scrunched his nose as he saw your name scribbled on the first page.
“What have I done?” he whispered to himself. A long time passed and he still couldn’t register all that he had done. He picked up the journal once again and began flipping through the pages but this time much slowly, staring at the pages blankly. Then suddenly something caught his eyes. Words. Words that looked familiar.
‘He said that I looked at him weird. Now how can I compete with that when I don’t even know what it means? It’s not his fault for thinking me weird. I am different…’
He flipped to much earlier entries to make sense of what you may be talking about.
Aug 9th-
‘She doesn’t know I saved her from getting caught that night. I took the blame because I know she wouldn’t do such a thing. She is too innocent. How could she? And besides it’s just a onetime thing. I’ll get in next year. She deserved it more anyways.’
Sept 12th-
‘I see our friendship dying with everything but I feel like I am the only one who cares. She doesn’t and I know that but even in this I may be at fault. How can she ever be wrong? I am always the one to screw things up. She says she has found better friends and I am happy for her but it bothers me sometimes because I get lonely too. Don’t I deserve a nice friend too?’
Sept 13th –
‘Mom, I miss you today. Why are you so far away? Why did you have to leave so early?’
Sept 25th-
‘Am I really this worthless that everybody pushes me around? I keep trying to look at the bright side of things but it’s all just a lie. I see happy couples around me all the time. It reminds me of him. I wish I had told him how I felt… He would have been nicer to me .. at least nicer than L****.
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You stared at the blood dripping from the light cut you had given yourself. A tear fell from your eyes, adding itself to the trail of red liquid trickling down your wrist.
“It has come to this,” you mumbled to yourself.
‘You don’t have to do this…’ –the voice from inside told you.
“It’s not like anyone would care.”
‘They care! You just don’t know it yet…’
“It doesn’t matter anymore,” you replied, proceeding with a second violent touch of the knife with your skin. You were going to finish the job tonight, hoping to not see the next day light.
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Luhan skipped back to the most recent journal entry. It was longer than your usual ones. His heart was racing a little even when he was trying his best to calm himself.
Oct 1st-
‘For the first time today I let myself cry. I can’t take it anymore. It hurts too much. It hurts me to see him with other girls. He dances with them, he touches them in ways I can’t express. I don’t like him..or at least that’s what I tell my heart. But all these bottled up feelings have finally started to come out. He said that I looked at him weird. Now how can I compete with that when I don’t even know what it means? It’s not his fault for thinking me weird. I am stupid… I’m starting to become cynical. Things like these didn’t bother me. I used to smile. I used to laugh. Than what happened? Why am I always like this now? Why does it feel better when I… I’ve lost everybody I loved. My mother, my one and only friend..and now my heart is secretly falling for a man he seems me as nothing more but trash. Tell me.. am I so worthless? She never calls me back when I call her now. I want to tell someone how I feel but there’s no one. I don’t like the sun.. I don’t like the birds chirping, the flowers.. It breaks my heart to see them so happy when I smile to cover up my dry tears. I’ve pretended too long. I’m tired now.. Why can’t all of this be over already? Life is a gift but I don’t want it anymore…
“Oh no oh no! what have I done? How could I be so stupid?” Luhan panicked. His eyes fell on the calendar. It was Oct 2nd. Your last entry was from the night before…
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Someone shook you with trembling hands. He then pressed his ears against your chest. “You’re going to be alright okay?” he kept humming as he picked you up and that’s when you completely lost consciousness.
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“You’re going to be alright okay? You’re going to be alright okay?” your ears buzzed with the same phrase over and over and over. You closed your eyes as soon as you opened them. The light was too bright. It hurt your eyes.
You felt someone’s hand brush against yours. It was soft. His voice was even softer. “Open your eyes,” he was saying. You struggled for a long time but finally gathered enough courage to try once more. This time, the light was blocked by a familiar face over your head.
“Lu..han,” you whispered.
“Shhhh,” he said sitting beside you. He took your hand and ran his fingers on your bandaged wrist. You felt a tear drop on your hand. You knew it belonged to him but you didn’t dare look at him. What happened? How he came to save you? How did he know you were about to kill yourself? All these questions were revolving around in your head but you couldn’t ask him. You were mad at him for saving you but your heart was grateful. You hadn’t forgiven him but your heart had.
Luhan looked at you with loving eyes, wanting to ask you so many questions. Wanting to tell you that you wouldn’t have to be sad anymore. He was going to remain by your side, not out of pity but because he cared about you maybe even falling in love with you. But he knew his words would not fix anything. He had to show it and that’s all he was going to do from them on…
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Lots of mixed emotions running around in this scenario. I feel like those who have been in similar situations would be able to understand it more. People who are sad on the inside always cover up with a smile and keep denying that they are unhappy. They blame themselves for all the problems and sometimes even get annoyed at themselves for being so needy. [If you are one of those people please go out there and talk to anyone. Be it a stranger or not. If you suppress your feelings or keep them bottled up inside you, bad things can happen.]
The scenario is a little chunky and different from my usual scenarios because I’ve put lots of personal emotions into it. I apologize if I let you down with this or if this isn’t what you wanted anon but I also really hope that you like it. :)
Edit: [Will proofread soon]
Ahahahahahahhaha! [I can imagine Lay secretly writing scenarios in the middle of the night ;) ]

all because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they do
Can I please hug you? [I don’t like hugging people] but I swear if you were here right now I would hug you. I have been in sort of a similar situation lately but I’m trying to look at the bright side of things. Don’t take it too much on your heart. Things will get better- that’s what I keep telling myself. Don’t dwell over it too much. If you’re one of those people who take things to heart [I do that sometimes] than try to break out of that. It will only hold you back and bring you down. It has happened to me many times in the past few months but I’ve learnt to live with it and let fate decide whatever will happen to me and those other people :)
[I have been upset lately and they say that’s the best time for a writer to produce something .. so my next scenario will be out soon] - Keep a look out for it :) <3 <3
Saranghaeo [and if you ever need anyone to talk to. I’m at your service :) ]

oh oh. oh .. and I have something that might cheer you up.. [It always does the trick on me- so here you go]

[I found this on tumblr a long time ago and I have no idea who this belongs to so please let me know if you guys know who the owner of this gif is]
Awwww lovey! I don’t know how you guys manage to send me messages on my down days. This message totally made up for everything. I just want to say that you’re the sweetest. Anyone who would send someone a message like that ^ would probably have the most tender heart.
If I were your friend I would treat you like my sister <3 Now come to me okay?

Saranghaeo

“Something wrong? .. huh .. no no nothing is wrong? why would you think something is wrong?” you asked tripping over your own words. “Because of the way you’re talking…” Chanyeol replied looking at you suspiciously. He bent down further so he could reach your level. “Tell me what’s wrong?” he ran his fingers through your hair softly. “It’s really nothing,” you said with a forced smile. “Oh yeah?” he said picking you up and carrying you to the room. “Then why does your face say the opposite?"
"Because you keep making fun of me okay?” you said when he finally let you back on your feet.
“What do you mean?” he asked.
“I meannn.. that I don’t like it when you call me short…” you realized that you had said too much for this young relationship. You bit your tongue and turned around to avoid his questioning expressions.
“________ I’m so sorry.. I didn’t think you would … I mean I had no idea you felt this way,” Chanyeol said putting his hand on your shoulder.
“No no.. you’re fine. I think I over reacted,” you replied.
“You didn’t..” he said with a smile and bent down to kiss you. “If you ever have a problem just say it..okay?"
You nodded back with a smile as your lips rejoined his. He was the sweetest..

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I took me a while to continue this.. [I felt so awkward writing this one hahaha] - but it was lovely :)
Wow.. I didn’t realize but you guys and I just wrote 4 mini scenarios! [lol] - I like this..
When he recovered from his laughter, his eyes fell on your stiffened face. “Anything wrong?” he asked looking concerned. “NO!” you said sternly and before he could catch a hold of your hand, you got up and left the room. In that moment, Chen knew he had done something very wrong. He was in big trouble…
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“Are you mad at me?” he asked, slowly and hesitantly walking towards the couch. You sat curled up, your face buried in your hands. You didn’t bother to reply. He sat down besides you and tried to pull you closer. You struggled for a little but then finally let him embrace you. “I’m sorry,” he whispered. He didn’t stop there. He planted a soft kiss on your cheek, slowly making his way to your neck. “Does this make you feel better?” he asked. For some reason, you wanted to laugh. No matter how dry his personalities may seem at times, one thing you loved about him was the way he understood you. You smiled reassuringly and that’s when he pushed you back on the couch, sliding himself on top of you…

naughty chenchen…lol
[gif not mine]
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I totally see Chen as the unromantic type so this one was really cute. Thank you anon <3
’Why are you smiling at me like that?‘ -you wanted to ask ’but he would think it weird…’ you battled with your thoughts while Chanyeol looked at you lovingly, also secretly hoping you would notice. He had been dropping hints since day one but your low self esteem would always get the best of you. You would compare yourself to him and then immediately drop the idea. His mixed signals were too much for you to handle. “I have to leave,” you said out of frustration and got up. “Don’t,” he reacted rather quickly and pulled you back. You fell into his arms and for a second, you felt as if time had stopped. He looked at you and you at him. You hoped he would say something because if he didn’t you were going to leave and this time you didn’t know if you would return. “Don’t leave,” he finally said, holding you very close to him. ’What..' your mind whispered. What did he mean to say. Those two words weren’t enough. He had to say more. But he didn’t. He didn’t have to. The way he held you said enough. He wanted you and maybe…words weren’t needed for that.
[gif not mine]
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Aaahhh this one reminded me of a [sortofkindofmaybesituation] so i got carried away with it. Lovely! <3
You felt the air around you thickening. Your lips quivered and your hands shook at his sudden confession. You finally began to say,”Then why was…why…were you…Xiu..” your incoherent words, left hanging as he pulled you into a passionate kiss. Nothing more was needed to be said.

[gif not mine]
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[This was so adorable, I think I squealed :’) ]
You stared at the phone in awe. Had he really sent you those three words? Silence was creeping up on you. Your clenched the sheets firmly to control your heart from racing. It was really happening. It was real- so real that it seemed completely unreal. “Kris…!” you whispered his name and then closed your eyes to let it sink in. He was yours. He was finally yours…

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[Your scenario was beautiful anon <3 <3 <3]
Okay so I’m working on my next [really long Luhan- long awaited] scenario and I need a break.
Since I have so many lovely followers I thought of doing something fun. I hope you guys are up for this [otherwise this will be really awkward]. Anon or not send in short scenarios in my ask [There is obviously a word limit]. If you guys leave it hanging I will reply by finishing it but if it’s a complete scenario than I’ll reply with a gif.
Example:
[Idol’s name] was unsure of whether to hold your hand or not. He looked over into the golden blue sky and took a deep breath. He was finally going to to tell you how he felt. “________” he said your name. “I have to tell you something.."
- You can choose any idol you like
- If enough people send in an ask I will either chose myself [or do a voting] and the winner [best scenario] will get to REQUEST ONE SCENARIO [even though the ask box is close right now] So if ya’ll are really want me to write something send in your asks…
Saranghae :)

Yep it sure took me a long time to write but blame my university schedule for it! I hate I hate I hate it! I hope next week I’ll be able to write more though!
I am glad you liked it <3 <3
