*hugs you back* - Thank you!
I’m just praying for their families right now. I hope they get through this soon.
Thank you lovey!
Thank you! - I am glad you liked it
Death is very tragic and can bring anyone to tears. I write about it everyday. I didn’t realize it has such a great impact till someone close to you dies.
This is all so tragic that it will take some time but I hope that everybody will be okay soon. My highschool family became a lot more closer because of this.
Sorry for the late reply. Thank you though.. I am praying for their family too and I just hope everyone who knew them [including myself] would stay strong. It’s not easy for anyone here.
–I’ll keep adding to the list as I find more fancams.

Happy Birthday to the most amazing person who I am madly in love with. I am not just in love with you but your voice, your personality, your charms, your witty style and everything else with it. No matter how people perceive your character, I know how you truly are. You may not show that you care much about others but you really do. You’re just too shy of showing it. I love your passion for singing and never backing down. After being through so much in your life you have finally made it this far and you deserve every part of it. I wish for even more success for you and for you to be happy always. Stay like this and please just never stop smiling. It is the most beautiful thing I have witnessed. I like that sparkle in your eyes which compliments yours smile well. Sometimes it seems as if you are forcing yourself to be happy. I wish you didn’t have to do that and what ever worries you have to just fade away with time.
Keep smiling so we [me and your fans] can smile with you. Looking forward to a lot of beautiful performances from you oppa. Happy Birthday once again. [ 생일 축하합니다 ]
P.S: I learnt how to play 7 years of love on the piano just for you. Hopefully I can show that off to the world one day.
Yep yep! I finished half of it last night and I am still working on it. Hopefully it will be up by midday :)
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As long as you are reading them I am happy :) . And the only reason we haven’t talked in forever is because I am a woozie and I’m being lazy like always. I am so sorry about that :(
I miss you just as much

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A smile embraced your lips as the familiar fragrance touched your nose. Minseok walked passed you once again while walking back to his cubicle. You breathed a heavy sigh clenching your fist tightly. It was high time you apologized to him about the little episode you had created a few days ago. After months of praying and hoping, you had finally gotten a chance to talk to him informally and then you ruined it by getting him in trouble.
His twinkling eyes and gummy smile had shot an arrow through your heart on the first day of work. There was only one problem though- he rarely ever smiled after that day. Something changed in his life and every day after that you wished it hadn’t. He never smiled again. You made every effort to talk to him but it was almost impossible since you had to report to him directly. Every time he called you in for something important, all you did was stare at him while he rambled on about all the assignments you had to finish. The annoying voice in your heart kept bugging you till you finally gave up and walked to his cubicle.
“I didn’t ask for you,” he said without taking his eyes off the screen.
“I know,” you said instantly. “Opps!” you bit your tongue. “I mean, I know you didn’t. But I need to apologize for last week.”
“There’s no need for that,” he replied sternly.
“No, I .. just want you to know.. that it wasn’t intentional. I really did save the file you sent me but .. then I ..didn’t know..” you stopped realizing that he wasn’t paying attention to a single word you were saying. He was busy typing a report on his computer. You sighed hoping he would notice your presence but all to no avail. With a heavy heart you walked back to your desk. You were a very emotional person so seeing him behave harshly with you was breaking you from the inside. Had you not cared about him that much everything would have been fine but too bad, your heart was madly in love with him.
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That night you decided to go to a club and drink to the point, your pain would go away. Deep down you knew it was impossible but desperate times called for desperate measures. And so you entered the club with a fake smile on your lips. You lunged for the bar, making yourself comfortable on the corner seat.
“One maderia please,” you ordered. After having your third one you rested your head against the counter. You thought you saw a familiar image but your eyes were too blurry to be sure. You closed your eyes and then opened them again still resting your head against the hard surface. It was Minseok, sitting three seats down just a little less drunk than you yourself were.
“Minseok sii,” you said his name under your breath. You began to walk towards him hesitantly. Love is a strange thing. It makes you do things you would never want to do. Not caring about your self-respect you tried to make an effort once again.
“Minseok sii,” you said his name again putting your hand on his shoulder. He looked up at you. Wrinkles formed on his forehead immediately.
“Call me Xiumin,” he said fixing his eyes on his glass again.
“Ah.. Mianhamnida Xiumin sii,” you corrected yourself. You took a deep breath and began once again. “Why can’t we be friends?”
“We are colleagues,” he replied firmly.
“But I want to be more than that,” you said sitting beside him. You were more drunk then you had thought you were therefore you had no idea what you were talking about. Xiumin ordered another drink still ignoring you.
“You don’t always have to be sad. Do you even know how beautiful your smile is?” you said. He turned to look at you after hearing your comment but he didn’t say anything. “The first time I saw you, I felt something in here,” you said pointing to your heart. “I don’t know what it is. But when you ignore me it hurts. I don’t know what’s bothering you but all I wish is for your pain to go away. I want you to be happy so I can be happy. I want to see that smile again. The smile that I saw 6 months ago… It was so beautiful that my ..” you stopped as a tear fell out of your eyes. You didn’t wipe it. More began to come out. Xiumin looked at you and wiped your tears. Your words had touched his heart. But he was a lot more hurt then you could imagine. He had lost the person he loved and there was no fixing it. He had had his 6th drink by the time you finished talking.
You looked at his hazy image. He was advancing towards you. Your heart began racing and then next minute his lips were pressed against yours. It felt more right than wrong. In fact it didn’t feel wrong at all. Everything was perfect about it even when you were far from in your right mind at the moment.
Time passed by quickly. You didn’t know when you and him got into a room. You didn’t care enough either as long as Xiumin was by your side embracing your body with his soft lips. The sound of music touched your ears making you more intoxicated. And there in that night your weak heart slipped- offering you completely to a man you loved a lot.
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When you woke up the next morning Xiumin wasn’t there but he had left his jacket on top of you. That was enough for you to think that he cared and the night before wasn’t a complete waste. A little part of you was regretting it but more than that you were happy that he was yours now.
You glanced at him from time to time at work that day but never got one back. You began to get nervous. He hadn’t looked at you all day. It was almost midday. People had started to leave for lunch. You got up too. Somebody put their hand on your shoulder to stop you.
“Want to have lunch together?” he asked. You didn’t even have to turn around to answer him. Your head shook in agreement unconsciously.
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Your hands shook nervously as you sipped your coffee. You didn’t want to look into his eyes while all he did was to look at you. He was thinking of the right words to utter.
“_________,” he said placing his hand on top of yours. “I am really sorry about last night.”
“Waaa..” you looked up in surprise. He failed to read the expression on your face and continued. “I don’t know what happened to me. I guess I was just..I was just.. just forgive me for that. I really hope we can be friends. I am not mad at you anymore so please stop apologizing.”
You looked at him disbelievingly. You had thought he had accepted you but it was quite the opposite. He was apologizing to you thinking he had made a mistake. It was nothing more than a mistake to him. You fought back your tears. He squeezed your hands tightly looking for an answer.
“_________ can we be friends?” he asked again.
“Huh!..ah ye,” you nodded still shaken by his confession.
“Come on lets go back then,” he said. He grabbed your hand dragging your shuffled state out of the restaurant.
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Xiumin made all the effort to make you happy after that day. He took you to movies, couple special nights, expensive dinners and soccer games but he only problem was that he wasn’t doing that out of love. He was only doing it because he felt bad.
You wanted him to love you just the way you loved him but that was next to impossible. You wanted to ask him why but you were too hesitant. He was always so serious it intimidated you. Even when he was by your side you felt like he was somewhere far away. The irony of the situation was that both of you were broken hearted but both of you were trying your best to make each other happy.
“I am so glad you came tonight,” you said to him while washing the dishes. Everybody had left but Xiumin had agreed to stay behind and help you clean.
“You really don’t have to help with this,” you said.
“I know I don’t have to. I want to,” he said taking drying the plate with a piece of cloth. You smiled watching him clean them so diligently. Your hair was falling on your face. You used your foam laden hand to push them back without realizing that half of it was on your face. Xiumin looked up at you. He began to laugh hysterically at how comical you looked.
“What?” you asked half smiling half confused.
“Your face.” He pulled you closer to wipe the foam off of you. You pulled away feeling uncomfortable with the tingles his touch sent through your body.
“Ah.. I should leave,” he said. You nodded back in agreement.
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You sat curled up in the corner of your dark room crying your wits out. You had been two weeks past your cycle so you decided to do a pregnancy test. It came out to be positive. You were pregnant with his child. Your head hurt from crying so long. There was no way you could tell him. He would want you to abort the child. Or he would agree to take care of it but you didn’t want that until he did he willingly. After a lot of thinking you finally came to a decision. Up till now you had always thought immaturely but for the first time in your life you made a mature decision- to sacrifice your happiness for his.
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Five months later:
Walking was harder for you in your 6th month compared to any other pregnant woman. You never really paid attention to your health since you were too busy with your new job. It didn’t pay enough but you had to do all you could to save up enough for your child. It was hard in the beginning but you had convinced yourself that life is not always fair.
You stood in line at a small grocery store waiting for your turn. It was hot and your back had started to hurt.
“Excuse me ma’am could you let me cut I have somewhere important to be,” the man from behind you said.
“I’m sorry but my back hurts. I have to get back home as soon as possible,” you replied. He leaned a little forward and soon realized that you had a baby bump.
“Oh I’m sorry. I didn’t know you were pregnant,” he said.
“Oh no! It’s alright,” you said turning around. Your jaw dropped seeing Xiumin standing right before your eyes. “Oh my!” you gasped taking a step back. He wouldn’t have been as surprised but seeing your worried face he sensed that something was suspicious.
“__________ I looked all over for you,” were the only words that could come out of his mouth at the moment. You pushed him aside and began to walk. “__________ are you hiding something from me?” he asked running after you.
“No!” you said. You waved for the taxi to stop. He got in right after you.
“Xiumin sii please leave,” you said keeping your calm.
“No I won’t,” he said holding firm.
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“_____________ I need answers,” he said while you unlocked your apartment door.
“Please leave,” you insisted once again.
“I won’t until you tell me,” he said suddenly pulling you and then holding you tightly. Your eyes started to blur from weakness and you fell into his arms.
When you woke up Xiumin was still sitting beside you. He had been watching over you the whole time. You looked away so you wouldn’t have to face his intense gaze. Neither of you said anything. The room was as silent as a graveyard.
“It’s my baby isn’t it,” he mumbled. You closed your eyes hoping he would take back the words he had said.
“Don’t worry about it,” you said getting out of bed. “I’m fine now so you can go.”
“You can’t just push me out. And why do you sound like it’s all my fault? In case you forgot you were the one who disappeared without giving any explanations. Had I not found you today I would have never known that you were carrying a part of me. How dare you _________? How dare..”
“I did it all for you!!” you yelled releasing your hand from his grip.
“What do you mean you did it for me? You ran away from me. Do you not understand that I care about you?”
“You don’t care about me. That’s the problem.”
“Who said I don’t?” he asked. “Who said I don’t care? __________ somewhere between those movie nights and those dinners and those.. after dinner walks I fell for you. I don’t know when for sure but I did.” He squeezed your hand. “You shouldn’t have left. You shouldn’t have.”
“I didn’t want to burden you,” you mumbled feeling tired once again.
“You would never be a burden on me. You made me smile again. How can I forget that?” he said. You remembered the night you last saw him. You remembered how hard he had laughed at your silliness. You were so preoccupied in your own feelings that you ignored his. You ignored all the signs.
“Look at yourself. You can’t even take care of yourself.” He pulled you into a hug and rubbed your back to comfort you. “___________ I want to be here with you. I wasn’t there for the first 6 months but now that I know I don’t ever want to leave you like this. Please don’t push me away,” he said.
You didn’t have any words to offer except your tears which slowly seeped through his shirt. He could feel them and it hurt him to see you like that. He knew it was his fault for never making you feel special. Both of you blamed yourself because neither of you wanted to hurt each other. If that wasn’t love than what was it?
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A little similar to the last one but I couldn’t do much about that since this is what the anons requested. I personally really like this one because I reflected a little part of my personality in this scenario. I hope you guys like it. I know Xiumin isn’t a lot of people’s bias but look past that and enjoy the story :)

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I understand a lot of you are just waiting for the episode to air but I can guarantee you, you won’t find all these cute moments on there so tell me if you want me to make a list or not.
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