Happy 21st birthday, you flawless, dimpled unicorn! Somehow you flew all the way up to the top of my bias list, and I often find myself being overwhelmed by intense ~yixing feels~ at random moments of the day, and you are to blame for leaving me in a gross ugly sobbing mess and for basically e v e r y t h i n g because of your sheer perfection so you need to stop ok. I swear you are made of rainbows, and butterflies and everything that is beautiful in this world. You’re so spacey too (like when you left your passport with your mum at the airport???) and you’re like the perfect son/grandson, and I love how you’re so cheeky sometimes. I hope you get to go back home again soon and see all your loved ones, and I can’t wait to see you at SMTown in Nov :* ♡♡♡
omfg lay i love you so much you don’t even know. thank you for being an awesome person! <3 happy layday
You know what that’s exactly what I thought while I was writing it but then I wasn’t sure so I never bothered changing it. I’ll go.back and Change it tomorrow since I already shut down my laptop and am on my phone.
Sorry can’t post a GIF :(
But thanks for telling me :)
Oh you have no idea how much Im dreading it. I just want to grab tumblr and run away with it. :| I really hope they don’t make any major changes because I like it just the way it is!
Hoping to see you soon too :) <3 <3 <3 Wo ai ni :)
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Here’s part 1 for the people who haven’t read it yet
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“_________ah, why did you leave the party so early?” your mother came and sat beside you. You didn’t bother turning around and looking at her. You knew she was going to get worried seeing your puffy eyes and then a thousand questions were going to follow, asking you what was wrong.
“I had a headache so I left,” you mumbled from under the sheets.
“Alright,” she said. You could hear disappointment in her voice.
“Umma,” you stopped her. “Is there something you want to tell me?”
“Aniyo.”
“Please, tell me,” you insisted. She sat beside you once again and sighed.
“Yixing’s father proposed today,” she said. You felt somebody had just dropped a bomb on you. This was it. Fate’s way of telling you that your little love story was never going to happen. It was also a punishment for you because you knew well that it was your fault.
“_______ah, say something,” she nudged you. She started to pull the sheet from your face but you clenched it tightly.
“That’s great,” you said trying to cheer her up.
“Ye,” she sighed. Something seemed missing. She didn’t sound too happy. You were going to wait and ask her the next morning. At the moment you just needed some time to yourself.
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You looked at the thousands of unanswered missed calls on your phone. You wanted to pick up the phone when he called but you knew it was only going to lead to disaster. It had been a month and you hadn’t seen him. You changed your bus routes. You stopped eating at the usual restaurants. You were doing anything and everything, to avoid him.
“Ummmaa I’m home,” you yelled through the corridor. “I didn’t bring bread because I think it’s going to start raining soon but I’ll be sure to pick…” you stood stunned in the living room as you saw Yixing, his father and your mother.
“Oh, I’m so sorry,” you choked on your own voice. “Umm, I’m going to go change.”
Your mother gave you a warm, comforting smile. It seemed like she had something to say. “Don’t change. Come sit down with us.”
“I brought Yixing here too today,” his father began speaking. “Because both your mom and I wanted to make this announcement.” You knew exactly what he was going to say. You dreaded it and you hated yourself for dreading it. “We are going to get married soon.” He said with such excitement holding your mother’s hand that for a second you felt jealous. You were jealous of their happiness.
“Well what do you guys think?” he asked bringing you back to reality.
“Huh,” you responded as Yixing shook your elbow. “That’s great! When?”
“Sometime next month. We were thinking, the second Saturday?” he asked. “Oh and I’d suggest that you and your mother start packing. You guys will soon be moving in.”
You hadn’t even thought about that. Living in the same house with a person who you loved and having to call him your step brother. You couldn’t do it. You just couldn’t. You excused yourself politely and left the living room.
“It’s getting chilly out here,” Yixing said opening the door to the tiny balcony.
“Please go away,” you said without looking at him.
“You don’t have to hide those tears from me,” he said, now standing right besides you. He slid his hand around your waist. You tried to struggle but he won. You were now wrapped around his arms tightly.
“I feel pathetic. I felt jealous when they were giving me the news. I was jealous of their happiness. Can you imagine this? I’m such a horrible person.” You said between your sniffles.
“Shhhhhh,” don’t say that he said and kissed you on your temple.
“I can’t do this. I just can’t.” you said. He rested his chin on your head. You could feel his tears running down your hair. You pulled back and looked at him.
“I’ve loved once and I’ve lost. I don’t want that to happen to me again,” he said while shaking his head. “I don’t want to lose you.”
You tried to slip your hands out of his trembling hands but he didn’t let go. He didn’t want too. He was trying his best to keep you from going.
“Don’t you see how happy they are? Do you really want to do this to them?” you asked.
“I don’t want to let go off you ______.”
“You have too. For them.”
“No!” he shook his head. “I’d given up on life but you showed me that I could keep moving on. You gave me hope. You made me fall for you. And now you’re telling me that you want to leave?”
“I know it’s my fault but I don’t want it to affect them. Besides I’m leaving for Canada after the wedding.”
“What” he gasped. “No, no no!” he repeated pulling you back into an embrace. “You can’t do that.”
“I have too.” You began to cry once again. “You and I both know it won’t work like this.”
He pulled back and joined his soft lips to yours. Your wet cheeks touched his. He slid his hand to the back of your head and pinned you against the wall.
“We shouldn’t do this,” you said between kisses.
“Please don’t stop me,” he replied.
“You’ll find someone better than me.”
“I’ll never find anyone like you.”
“Oppa..”
“Shhh,” he shussed you by reconnecting his lips to yours.
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“Seriously, I don’t understand the need for me to try on a wedding dress too. It’s your wedding not mine,” you whined as your mother pushed you into the dressing room. You were already annoyed at the fact that she’d invited Yixing. You could barely make eye contact with him after that night in the balcony. You wanted to make it pretty clear that there was nothing between you and him.
“Yixing, do you want to try something too?”
“Uh, no thank you,” he rejected politely. “Oh come on, try this one. I’m sure your father will love it.” He surrendered to your mother’s pleading and took the tuxedo from her.
You and him both got out of the dressing room at the same time, coincidently.
“Why are you wearing that?” you asked him and turned to face your mother. You were a little surprised as you saw Yixing’s dad standing beside her.
“Now don’t they look perfect?” he asked your mother.
“Perfect indeed,” she said with a big smile on her face.
Both you and him were confused.
“What do you mean?” you asked. Your mother stepped forward and cupped your face with her hands.
“Did you really think that you were ready to make such a big sacrifice at such a young age? How dare you think of my happiness before yours.”
“Umma what are you saying?” you interrupted.
“Shhhh,” she placed her finger on your lips. A tear rolled down her cheek. Your heart sank. You could bear anything in the world except see your mother cry. “Yixing’s father and I have already received the joys of being with someone we loved in our lives but you two,” she now looked at Yixing too. “It’s your first time and you guys are throwing it away like nothing had happened between you.”
“Umma how did you?” you asked really embarrassed.
“We saw you two in the balcony the other night.”
You were disgusted by your existence. You couldn’t do one small good deed for your own mother who had sacrificed so much for you. You hugged her. “I never meant for any of this to happen..” you said between sobs.
“I know honey, I know.” she stroked your hair. “I just want you to be happy.”
“We want both of you to be happy.” Yixing’s father added. “I’ve seen my son go through a lot and I certainly don’t want to be the reason for his misery.”
You pulled back and looked at Yixing. He seemed hurt too. He felt just as bad as you did.
“I’m so sorry appa,” he mumbled not being able to make eye contact.
“Don’t be,” he said pushing you towards him. “Look at the two of you. You guys make a perfect couple.” He wiped the tears out his eyes. “You guys deserve to be together.”
The more they said that, the more you hated yourself.
“________ah, don’t hate yourself for this.” Your mother said. You were surprised as to how she could read your thoughts.
“He loves you a lot.” She said while nodding. “Do it for me.”
You felt Yixing hold your hand and interlace his fingers into yours. You were still unsure of what to do. He, without any hesitation planted a kiss on your cheek.
You heard your mother and his father chuckle.
“They are so innocent and pure,” she said.
“Yes they are,” he replied.
A smile spread on your face. You tightened your grip on Yixing’s hand and looked up at him. He was looking right back at you with a reassuring smile.
You didn’t have to leave after all..
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Alrighty so I spared you guys this time and didn’t make it a sad ending even though I REALLY wanted too. I hope you guys like it :)
I know it’s pretty late and most of you are already a sleep but I just wanted to make sure I posted this before Tumblr died on all of us for a couple of hours.
<3 <3 <3 Thank you anon ! <3 <3 <3
Im having a REAL hard time writing the second one though! This is what I look like right now!

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<3 <3 <3 Thank you! :) I love how you’re always there to send me messages which cheer me up :)

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CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SENDING MESSAGES LIKE THAT! DO YOU KNOW HOW THIS WILL AFFECT HER? CLEARLY NOBODY WILL LISTEN TO YOU SINCE SHE IS GAINING INSTEAD OF LOOSING FOLLOWERS.
Please stop this. It’s not funny. I don’t even know her and I still feel so bad so imagine how she must be feeling. :’|Stop this PLEASE!
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You walked into the house, throwing your hand bag off to Narnia. You took off your shoes and left them in the corridor. You looked at your mother for a quick second but continued walking. Just then something hit you. She was smiling. She was smiling looking at something on her phone. Last time you saw her smiling was five years ago when your appa was still alive. You slowly walked up to her and sat beside her.
“Umma..”
“Huh?” she jumped up in surprise.
A smile spread on your face as she tried to hide her phone. You felt like your role had been reversed. Usually you were the one hiding your phone from her.
“Seriously?” you raised your eyebrows.
“When did you get home?” she asked.
“Just now..” you mumbled.
“How was work?”
“I’m quitting soon. I hate this job,” you said with frustration.
She nodded, pretending to listen but you knew well that in the back of her head she was thinking something else. Something far too important, hence the faint smile on her face.
“Umma,” you shook her.
“Aish, I’m listening,” she made a face.
“Just tell me what’s going on. You and I both know you won’t be able to hide it forever.”
Her smile disappeared for a second but she immediately recovered it.
“I think it’s time I tell you.”
“Time? What? What are you talking about?”
“Shhhhh..” she nodded her head and made you sit next to her on the couch.
“________, I’ve been seeing this guy for a while ..” she felt your hand slip out of her. You felt a slight twinge of pain. You’d always seen your umma with your appa. They had to be together, always. “Well sort of ishhh,” she corrected herself.
“What do you mean? For how long?” you asked after a while.
“Five months.”
Your mouth fell open. Five months and you didn’t have a single clue about it. Disappointment made its way to your face and you turned sideways to hide the forming tears. Both you and her sat in silence for a long time. You could see her playing with her fingers. She did that when she was nervous.
You raised your head slightly to look at her. The face that was shining brightly a half hour ago was dull. The life that you’d seen on it was gone once again. It suddenly hit you, how selfish you were being. Her happiness was above all. At the moment, her feelings were more important. It was her life and she deserved to be happy. She had lived in agony for the past five years. If life was giving her a second chance than you had no right to come in her way.
You slowly slid your hand on top of hers. She immediately looked at you. You turned to her and held her face.
“So when am I seeing him?” you asked and winked to avoid getting teary eyed. A smile spread on your mothers face and she embraced you.
“Soon.. very soon,” she whispered to you.
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“Tuck in your shirt properly,” your mother nagged you as the two of you waited for the door to open.
“Umma I’m not a teenager anymore. Stop doing that,” you pouted.
She smiled at you. “And did I mention that he also has a s…” before she could finish, the door opened and a guy much much younger than your mother stood on the opposite side.
You gave him a strange look. Your mother could not be seeing him. He was far too young for her. In fact he seemed to be around your age. He smiled at the two of you and moved aside so both you and her could enter.
“________ah, come in,” your mother pulled you. You remained your eye contact with him. He seemed to be getting a little uncomfortable with the way you were looking at him.
“Annyeonghaseyo,” you heard a voice say from behind. You turned around, to find an older guy entering the living room. It finally dawned on you. Your mother was trying to tell you that he had a son.
You greeted him and all of you settled down. He seemed like a really nice guy, a little dominating but nice.
“Yixing, why don’t you show her around?” he asked his son, sensing the awkward atmosphere in the room.
‘Yixing’ got up immediately as if waiting for someone to tell him to leave. It seemed like somebody had sucked the life out of him. Still, there was something about him that was attracting you towards him. For a while, you forgot why you were at their house.
“Come on,” he mumbled walking past you. You got up and followed.
“There really isn’t anything to show,” he said after showing you the balcony and then stepping into his own room.
You took a deep breath and looked around. The room was plain with only a few fixed artifacts. You hesitated but then sat on his bed. You felt him cringe a little but he came and sat beside you too.
“Why the flat face?” you asked. He didn’t respond but continued to stare into space. You felt like you were bothering him. Maybe he was just as upset as you were when you first found out about your parents. You thought for a while and began again.
“Listen, I know it’s a little upsetting to see our parents move on in life but I think we should both take a step back and let them figure this out. We should be happy for them.”
Still no response. Maybe you were just annoying him. You thought it better to just get up and leave. You were at the door when he mumbled something.
“What?” you turned around and asked.
“I’m happy for them,” he said pulling a fake smile. You could still see how upset he was. You went back and sat beside him.
“It’ll be alright soon,” you tried to comfort him. You felt him slide a little. You didn’t realize that you’d been sitting a little too close to him. You looked at him from the corner of your eyes. There was a mysterious aura. You wanted to know what was going on inside his head.
“________, Yixing, dinner is ready,” you heard your mother’s voice.
“We should get used to that,” you said with a cheeky smile. He looked at you with a flat face once again. You could see that he was trying hard to smile but something inside of him was stopping him.
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“So do you like him?” you mom asked as the two of you settled on the couch. You were relieved that you were finally back home.
“He’s great,” you said but your thoughts were elsewhere. You were still thinking about Yixing.
“What do you think about Yixing?” she asked.
“Him? Why him?” you asked defensively.
“I might need your help with something.” You looked at her so she could finish. “Yixing’s father is very worried about him.”
“He should be. There is clearly something wrong with him” you rolled your eyes.
“________, I’m serious.”
“What is it?” you asked.
“He just got out of a two year relationship so he is really devastated.”
“Whaaaaaa,” you gasped. She nodded apologetically.
“He wants you to hang out with him some more. He feels that you can make him feel better especially since the two of you will soon be siblings.”
You wished she hadn’t said that. You had found him very charming and attractive the moment you saw him. How was this going to work out?
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You secretly wished he wouldn’t pick up his phone. One bell, two, three.. you were about to hang up when he suddenly picked up.
“Hello!”
“Uh Hi,” you choked. “Umm I don’t think you remember me but I came over to your house with my mother a few days ago.”
“Ye, I remember.”
“So I was wondering if you wanted to hang out or something?” you asked.
“Hang out?” he repeated in form of a question.
“It’s okay if you don’t want to. I mean I totally understand what..” you bit your tongue.
“Where do you want to go,” he asked.
“Sun set park?” you asked.
“Okay I’ll be there,” he said and hung up.
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You looked around for thirty minutes but there was no sign of Yixing. He stood you up. You weren’t surprised at all. His attitude was getting the best of him.
“Looking for someone?” he asked suddenly coming up behind you. You jumped around clenching your fist to calm your nerves.
“Did I scare you?” he asked stuffing his mouth with cotton candy. He seemed a lot better than last time. Something was clearly wrong with him.
“Did you get me some?” you asked.
“You can have this one,” he offered. You took some and shoved it in your mouth. The two of you began walking.
“So how’s everything?” you asked.
“Great,” he nodded. You didn’t know what else to say. You felt very awkward around him. You were going to give it another shot so you began to speak but he immediately cut you off.
“You don’t have to do this.”
“Do what?” you asked.
“This!” he said now turning to you. “Do you really think I wouldn’t know that my dad told you to do this?”
You felt embarrassed. You didn’t quite know how to answer his question so instead you looked at the ground.
“I’m sorry,” you mumbled.
“Don’t be.”
“No I’m sorry that she left you,” you said. You could feel him cringe a little but he recovered immediately. He didn’t utter a single word. You wanted to look at him but the situation wasn’t allowing you to do that.
“I’ve moved on,” he said but his voice chocked.
“You don’t have t lie to me,” you said. He settled on a bench and buried his face in his hands. “I loved her a lot,” he murmured after a while. You wanted to comfort him. In your heart, you felt extreme hatred for the girl who’d left him like this. He seemed to be so broken. You had this sudden urge to hug him and that’s exactly what you did.
“You’ll move on,” you whispered to him.
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Four months passed by in a breeze. Having lunch with Yixing became a routine for you now. You had no idea he worked in the office opposite yours. In fact you had started to love work once again. He seemed a lot happier to now. Sometimes when he felt generous, he would gift you with a faint smile. That’s all you needed. You just wanted him to be happy. A guy as charming as him deserved to be happy.
“Guess who?” someone asked placing their hands on your eyes.
“Are you really going to do this with me?” you said while giggling. He chuckled as he removed his hands and sat across from you.
“Are you coming to the party tonight?” he asked. You nodded.
“Great! I’ll introduce you to all of my friends.” You nodded once again staring at him. His sweet, honey like voice always melted in your eyes. The shine in his eyes, the faint smile on his lips and glowing skin always captivated you. Little did you know, what you were getting yourself into.
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“Having fun?” he asked handing you a glass of juice.
“ Ye,” you said trying to avoid his eyes. “Uh, I need to go use the bathroom.” You immediately excused yourself. Earlier that day, after lunch you’d come to a realization that staying around Yixing was going to ruin your life. You had no idea when you’d fallen for him. You’d fallen hard because every time you saw him your heart ached. You knew you couldn’t ever be with him.
You were taken aback when you found him in the room as you got out of the bathroom.
“Why are you avoiding me?” he asked.
“Avoiding? What are you talking about?” you tried to bring out your playful side. Your eyes wandered from one corner of the room to the other nervously. The very next second Yixing grabbed your hand and pinned you to the wall. He connected his lips to yours. For a brief second you had no idea what was happening. You were kissing him back. You suddenly pushed him back.
“We can’t do this..” you said as tears began rolling out of your eyes.
You waited for him to say something but he didn’t. You couldn’t stay there any longer. It was time for you to leave.
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So while I was writing this I realized that there was NO WAY POSSIBLE that I could write the whole scenario in one part. The plot is too sensitive therefore I couldn’t rush with it. I’ve taken the liberty to make a TWO PART scenario [I hope you don’t bash me for this anon] and to the other I hope you guys like this!
No I don’t follow her but I have read one of her stories and she is a pretty AMAZING writer [Since the story drove me to tears]. I saw that you sent a similar message to one of my friends and it just makes me sad. How can you/ or anyone else make assumptions about someone on tumblr? [If you have personal hate towards someone I suggest you keep it to yourself] because NO BODY deserves to be treated like this. If you are trying to create some sort of fight between scenario writers than Im sorry that’s not going to work either because we are all very supportive of each other. [I know most my followers write] . So next time please don’t send me messages like this because the won’t work for me and you’ll just mess up someone’s day. I can only imagine what she must be feeling right now and if you do want to send such messages then I’d suggest that you do it without going anon. At least people won’t laugh at your message while reading it :|
Have a good day.

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and daydreams92695 if you are reading this, PLEASE ignore whatever the anon said.
Just walking down the street you couldn’t be happier. The sun was out and you were wearing your favorite outfit. The best feeling you had in a long time. Things had been stressful lately with starting to become a trainee and working towards becoming a singer. It wasn’t going to be easy and you knew that. When you were about to turn the corner you were suddenly grabbed. The pair of hands grabbed your arm and covered your mouth. You struggled to get away, but you were just too weak. This person was obviously much stronger than you and had pulled you into and alley way. You tried to turn and look at your kidnapper.
“ANDWAE!!!” He yelled and turned you around. He put a blindfold over your eyes and began walking you back further into the alley. He wasn’t forcing you and you figured you should just not fight with him. It was useless. You heard a door open and you stepped over a threshold into a building. Right now you were just guessing your surroundings, but the floor was sort of soft, not like carpet. It was like wood, but bouncy. You were stopped and let go of.
“Where am I?” You went to take off the blindfold and when you did it was pitch black. No lights. Your eyes didn’t even adjust. You started to walk forward when your foot hit a box. You knelt down and blindly opened the box. You felt a water bottle and some other box. When you opened that one it had crackers in it. Not knowing what was happening and too scared to move to far away, you slowly ate three crackers and a few sips of water. You had no idea if you would get more food. Suddenly there were bright green words on the wall, which was further away then you thought.
“EAT” is all it said and then it was gone.
“Can I eat it all?” You yelled out.
“YES” flashed on the wall. You proceeded to eat all the crackers and drank all the water. In the bottom of the box of crackers you felt two small round things.
“EAT” flashed on the wall again.
“What are these?” you questioned.
“EAT” flashed again. You weren’t going to question so eat ate them. Your eyes started closing and soon you fell to sleep on the ground.
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You awoke to find yourself in some type of vehicle. You were only awake for enough time to see light around you when you fell back asleep.
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The next time you woke up you were in the same place as before. You stood up and suddenly a light illuminated you. There was a microphone stand in front of you. The word “SING” was displayed on the wall. You were so confused and scared now and you wanted answers.
“Where am I? Why am I here? What’s going on??” you started almost crying and whimpering when a pop scared you and a distorted voice came on.
“Do not be afraid.” The person’s english was broken.
“I am though. I don’t know what is going on. Why should I sing?”
“Just sing. Please? I haven’t hurt you this whole time have I?”
The voice waited for an answer.
“I guess your right. I will sing on one condition………..you sing first.” There was a long silence after you said that.
Oh baby stay with me nae gyeoteman isseo
Jwo nega nae jeonbuyeotdan marya-a-a, a-a-a, a-a-a
Stay in my heart
Your eyes widened as the voice sang from MBLAQ’s ‘Stay’.
Stay in my heart
You sang back the end. You then started singing on your own.
U make me cry (neon)
Naega saraganeun iyu
Jebal nal tteonajima
Just tell me why (why)
Nunmureul dakkajwo malhaejwo I’m so crazy (yeah)
Sorichyeo bulleo (bulleo) keuge oechyeo bulleo (bulleo)
Ige kkeuti aniya neomu apa aiya
Bokbatchyeo bulleo (bulleo) jebal nareul beorijima baby
The pop signaled the voice was going to speak again you stepped back from the mic. Then stepped forward again as you thought of something.
“Why am I here?” There was a long silence before the voice answered.
“Because……………………..I think I love you.” This took you by surprise.
“How can you love me? I’m not pretty, I have so many things wrong with me……….how?”
“I realized, when I watched you dancing and singing and goofing around, that you had the most perfect imperfections.”
You thought about what the voice said………….dancing and singing and goofing around……………you were at a loss. One by one the lights started illuminating. When the room was lit you looked around and knew exactly where you were. The stage you auditioned on. All the memories of that day came back and as you thought you didn’t even notice the figure sitting behind you. When you realized and looked back, you eyes almost fell from your head when you saw him.
“Chang Seon…………….” your voice was barely audible. He stood up with the stupidest smile on his face.
“Why?” you were cut off as he put his finger over your mouth.
“Because you are perfectly imperfect.”
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So totally random and weird *shakes head* I may submit a part two, but ya know IDK my BFF JILL!!! <33333 ENJOY!!!!!!!!
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“________ah, are you in here?” Mir poked his head inside your room. “There you are!” a smile spread on his face.
You rolled out of bed and looked up. “What are you doing here?”
“I came to check on you,” he replied.
“I’m fine,” you pouted and rolled your eyes.
“You left the front door open again,” he made a face.
“I’m still alive aren’t I? So what’s the big deal?” you raised your eyebrows.
“Okay okay! Let’s forget about that.” Mir pulled a smile and hugged you. “Let’s go out somewhere.”
You shook your head and pulled away.
“Come on, it’s the first day of spring. Don’t you want to enjoy the sunlight?”
“Aniyo,” you pouted and walked into the bathroom. You were hoping he’d be gone by the time you came out of the bathroom but he was still there. He held up a light orange and yellow dress.
“Wear this. It’ll look nice on you,” he winked.
“Oppa, I don’t want to go,” you tried to remain politely.
“Why not? You weren’t having a good day yesterday so I was hoping you’d be feeling better today.”
“I am feeling better. I just don’t want to go out anywhere.”
“________ is there something you’re not telling me?”
He asked with such sincerity that you just wanted to hug him and sob for the rest of the day. He was the closest person to you. You wanted to ball out all of your feelings to him but you didn’t want to disturb him. You knew well that guys couldn’t be sympathetic no matter how hard they tried. Nevertheless you didn’t want to disappoint him. He always tried to cheer you up and this was the least he could do for you.
“Ok, let’s go,” you sighed taking the dress from him.
“Yaaaaaayy,” he cheered. “I love you.”
You gave him a brief smile before walking into the bathroom once again to change.
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“So where are you taking me?” you asked. The two of you had been walking down unfamiliar paths for a long time.
“Just wait and watch,” he held your hand and dragged you.
“Seriously a park?” you said walking in the entrance.
“Yeah I know but I’m going to take you somewhere else,” he winked. Both you and him continued walking until you hit the woods. It was almost the end of the park. You were getting tired. It had been an hour since you left the house.
He walked you through a tunnel and there it was, the place he wanted to show you. Your jaw dropped as you stared at what was before you with utter amazement. It was a beautiful grassland surrounded by huge trees spreading their shadows over the smaller plants. The sun’s rays escaped through the tiny gap making the white flowers look even more beautiful.
“Come on,” Mir said with a smile on his face.
“Why did you never bring me here before?” you asked.
He didn’t respond. He kept pulling until you guys reached the middle. You could hear a waterfall in the background.
The two of you lay down on the ground with your faces facing each other.
“It’s a special place to me,” he whispered. “ I don’t bring any one here.”
A smile spread on your face. You lifted your hand, intending to touch his face. The smile that was on his face never changed. It was still there…
“______________ah, wake up!” Mir shook you.
“Huh!? Uhhh” you sat up, rubbing your eyes.
“How? I thought we were..? What’s happening,” you asked in extreme confusion.
“Are you okay?” he asked in utter confusion.
“You left your front door open again!” he made a face. As reality started sinking in, you realized that you’d been dreaming. That splendid path, that sunlight, those flowers none of it was real. It wasn’t the first time you’d had dreams like these. You had them occasionally and they left you sad afterwards because they were nowhere near reality. You looked at Mir with longing eyes as he got up to get a glass of water. He came back and sat beside you. He placed it close to your lips.
“Want some?” he asked. You nodded your head and just as you were about to take a sip he pulled it away and drank all of it. He looked at you with a cheeky smile and then began laughing.
“I hate you oppa,” you pulled a cushion from behind you and hit him with it.
“Ai, that hurt,” he said innocently.
“Why are you here?”
“I stopped by to get my jacket. You took it from me yesterday and never returned it,” he made a face.
“Aish, mianhe,” you pouted.
“It’s okay,” he patted your head. “I have to rush. I’ll see you later.”
Before leaving the room he looked back at you. He didn’t like it when you were upset. He wanted to hug you and kiss you and tell you how much he loved you but every time he said it, it didn’t mean anything to you.
“___________ah,” he called your name. You looked at him with a flat face.
“I love you,” he said and winked. A sudden shudder ran through you just like all the other times when he said those three words. You just wished they meant something. You wished that when you returned those three words to him he’d know that it meant something. He always played around. You never knew when he was serious and when not.
“I love you too,” you said forcing a fake smile on your face.
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Mir left and you curled up inside your bed once again. Day and night weren’t two different things for you. It all seemed the same to you. Just a year ago you were a happy girl. You laughed with everybody else and cried when they did. Then suddenly things changed. Nothing seemed to make you happy. You felt like a caged bird wanting to escape. You’d created a sort of shell around yourself. Very few could enter and Mir was one of them. He’d been there all along but he had never seemed to see the difference in you. Maybe you were just a really good actor and could easily cover up your depressed emotions. You knew well that if you told him that you liked him, what his reaction would be. He wouldn’t ever reject you. He was too nice to do that. But did you really want to do that? You could barely handle yourself, how could expect him to deal with you. You shrugged the thought out off your head and buried your face in the pillow. A tear rolled out of your eyes and before you knew it, you were crying, sobbing and then weeping.
You knew well you needed help but you were too afraid to tell someone. If this kept going on it was going to get more dangerous. You hoped that day never came but it was slowly creeping up.
Your eye sight was getting weak too now since crying yourself to sleep every night was a routine for you. Tonight was going to be just like that. You moved your hand around on the bed to find the remote. You turned on the TV and kept changing channels. Nothing good was on. Another reason for you to keep crying. Even fate wasn’t on your side. You felt like everything was negative around you. You always told yourself that maybe you weren’t good enough that’s why.
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“_______________ah, are you up yet?” Mir yelled from the living room. Last time you heard that voice, it was a dream. You didn’t bother opening your eyes. In fact you closed them even more tightly and pulled the pillow on your head.
“_________ah, wake up!” Mir came into the room. You felt the left side of the bed dip a little bit. Was it real? Was he really here? If he was, you were never showing him your face. You knew your eyes looked puffy from the night before’s crying.
“____________, wake up. Come on! I need to take you somewhere. It’s the first day of spring.”
“Go away oppa,” you mumbled but the pillow ate your voice.
“I can’t hear you,” he said trying to pull it off of you. It was real. It wasn’t a dream. He really was there. You clenched the pillow tightly. Mir suddenly released it. There was no movement for a while and the next second you felt a bucket of cold water being poured over you. You immediately jumped up. Mir saw your puffy, red eyes and drenched body. He began laughing.
“Look at you face,” he said between giggles. You felt like somebody had just put a heavy weight on your heart. Out of all the people in the world, he was laughing at you. You expected much better out of him. Without thinking you pushed him with all your strength and yelled , ”Get out.”
Mir stumbled but handled himself. He couldn’t understand what had happened in mere 30 seconds. His face turned serious. He sensed something was wrong. Really wrong.
“________, are you okay?” he asked.
“Nothing,” you said glaring at him. You couldn’t calm your nerves at all.
“_________ please tell me what’s wrong.” He came towards you. He began to grab you but you pushed him once again.
“I said go away,” you yelled. Mir didn’t stop. Instead he pulled you towards him, causing you to burry your head against his chest. You struggled but he kept his grip strong holding your head firmly and using his other hand to hold your back. You kept hitting him but he stood strong.
“Just let me go,” you mumbled finally giving up.
“Shhhhhh,” he patted your back and stroked your hair. “Everything will be alright.” He kept repeating. You couldn’t control yourself. More tears flowed out. You’d hit your breaking point. You sobbed for a long time and all that time Mir stood there trying to comfort you.
He finally loosened his grip guessing that it was okay to let go. He sat you down on the bed. You immediately scrunched up your legs against your chest. He sat too, facing you.
“Do you want to talk about it?” he asked. You shook your head.
“Okay,” he mumbled and just sat there watching you.
“Why are you doing this?” you asked turning your head sideways.
“Because I…” he trailed off. “I worry about you.”
“Don’t”
“I can’t.”
“Try.”
He couldn’t take it anymore. He was going to say it and this time actually show you that he meant it. He forced you to turn your face to him. You looked at him with questioning eyes.
“Don’t you understand? ___________ I love you,” this was the first time he’d said it looking straight into your eyes. He meant it. Instead of being happy, you got scared. You shook your head.
“Don’t say that.”
“Why not?”
“Because you don’t know what I’m going through.”
“Do you think I don’t know what you’re going through?” he snapped back. “It breaks my heart to see you suffer for no reason every day. _________ I’ve been in love with you for the longest time. I remember when you used to be that happy girl. You were so full of life. What happened to that? What happened?” Mir got teary eyed.
You were speechless. This is what your heart had been longing to hear. You felt a twinge of pain in your heart. You loved him too. But was it worth it to make him waste his life on someone like you. You pushed his hand gently.
“Oppa, you don’t want to do this. You don’t know how bad it is.”
“Then tell me how bad it is. I can help you _______. Trust me.”
You kept shaking your head. Mir pulled you into a hug once again. “Do you have any idea what I feel about you? Do you have any idea the pain I feel every time a tear drops from your eyes? It hurts ______. It really hurts. “
His words ran like a shudder through your body. You had no idea how madly in love he was with you.
“Say that you love me too,” he whispered giving you a deep kiss on your neck.
“I love you too,” you whispered back. You hadn’t felt more comfortable in the longest time. Your soul was hungry for love and that’s all he was offering you.
“Would you be willing to go see a therapist?” he asked hesitantly, still not letting go of you. You nodded your head and tightened your arms around him. You were scared but if he was there, you were willing to give it a shot.
A little part of you started to feel alive again and it was all because of him…
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For all the beautiful girls out there who suffer from depression. Please don’t do this to yourself. If you need help, TALK to someone. Keeping it inside is like slowly killing yourself. Don’t do that.
I hope you guys like this!
my mom said yes, but I have classes! [such a pathetic/ important reason to not go] :’|. I feel so helpless! But thanks :)
*hwaiting*

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<3 <3 <3 Awww thankyou <3 <3 <3 I’m glad you liked it :) I really had a hard time writing that one!

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