Requested by anon
“Aahahahahhahahahaha, do it again. Do it again,” you said.
“Noooo,” he said making an innocent face.
“Pleasssssssseeeeeeeeeeee!”
“Okay,” he sighed. “Buing, buing”
“Ahahahahahhahahahaha.You are so cute,” you said pulling his cheeks.
“I don’t know why they’re making me do this! Like I thought we were suppose to act natural,” he said putting his arms around you.
“It’s because they want you guys to have more fans when you debut. You’re already so adorable and when you’ll do this, girls will go crazy over you.” You explained.
“And wouldn’t that make you jealous?” he asked with a smirk.
“Why would it. I know you’re mine. I don’t really need to worry about anything,” you said making a ‘state the obvious’ face.
“Ahhh, I love you so much,” he said kissing you on the cheek.
The two of you sat in silence in the dark. You guys loved doing this. Every Friday night he would come over and the two of you would sit under the window sill in the dark room and talk about almost everything and anything.
“So this is it huh,” you said.
“Yeah, I guess.” He sighed, “But I promise after the debut I will come back and get you. Maybe you can move in with me in Seoul.”
“I live an hour away Baekhyun. What’s the difference?” you asked.
“The fact that you’ll always be by my side,” he said.
His comforting words were always so reassuring. You rested your head on his shoulder and the two of you continued to sit in silence. You didn’t want to let go of him. You wanted the moment to last. You’d waited before and you were willing to do that in the future too. You loved him a lot and so did he.
As the sun rose, the two of you said your goodbyes. You fought back your tears in order to show him that you weren’t weak. He was gone and all you had to do was wait. Wait for him.
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3 months later
You had moved to Seoul, because of your new job and the first person you wanted to tell was Baekhyun. He didn’t pick up his calls or called you back. You were worried but you didn’t just want to show up at his training center. That could mess things up for him.
You were going back home one day with all your groceries when you saw him.
“Baekhyun Oppa,” you yelled from across the street, waving at him.
He turned around and looked at you. You ran towards him with all your groceries in your hand.
“Hey, where have you been?” you asked excitedly.
“What are you doing over here?”
“Ohh I.. I’ve been trying to call you for so long. You never pick up your calls. I got a job here, in Seoul! So I moved here.” You said. You were hoping he’d be excited and hug you but he didn’t.
“Listen, we can’t be seen talking over here okay,” he said while moving his head around. “Let’s go to a restaurant or something,” he said pulling you.
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“So, how’s life?” you asked smiling at him.
He had a flat, expressionless face. “Uhh, its great!”
“Hmm, so have you been enjoying your new gained fame?” you asked
“Yeah, I think we should order something!” he suggested.
There was clearly something wrong with him but you guys had met after so long that you didn’t want to bring it up. “Yeah sure, lets order.” You said pulling a smile.
He ate quietly without making any efforts to start a conversation.
“So, is that offer of yours still open?” you asked
“What offer?”
“Me moving in with you?”
He didn’t respond and went back to eating.
“The pay that I get from work isn’t enough for me to pay the rent for the apartment. I’m going to need a place to move into soon,” you added, hoping he would respond but he didn’t.
“Are you okay Baekhyun?” you asked placing your hand on top of his.
“Huh, aaa yeah! I’m fine. .. Listen I’ll tell you later how we will arrange this okay?” he said and went back to finishing his meal.
This by far had been the worst lunch you’d ever had with him. You felt so weak and heartbroken. Why was he acting like this? You didn’t know. You thought he was going to be really excited upon seeing you because that’s what he usually did but today was different. You were so close to him and yet you felt so far apart.
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Two weeks had passed and Baekhyun hadn’t contacted you. You didn’t even know where your relationship with him stood at this point. You wanted to confront him and talk about the whole situation.
One evening, you finally gathered enough courage to call him. As soon as you picked up the phone, it buzzed. It was a message from him. Your heart started beating faster. You opened it and read, ‘So the guys will come in tomorrow and move your stuff. Be ready’
That’s it. He gave you such a short notice. You were happy but you were confused at the same time.
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“Everything looks great!” you said putting your hand on your hips. “Ohh wait, forgot one more box,” you said picking it up.
“Alright so I’ll be in the next room if you need anything!” he said, leaving the room.
You expected him to stay with you. Talk to you, maybe cuddle with you, like old times but no. He was so quiet and distant. You didn’t know what to do.
He would leave for work early in the morning and come home late night. You guys only exchanged a few words in 2 weeks. Every time you wanted to talk, he would avoid the subject.
Today was like all the other nights, you fell asleep, waiting for him.
“________ ah, come one get up and go sleep in your room,” he shook you.
You looked at the clock, it was almost mid night.
You hesitated a bit but finally said, “Oppa, I know I shouldn’t be asking you this because I shouldn’t be interfering in your personal matters but you could at least try coming home a little early.” You were scared of what he might say.
“I got busy!” his reply was brief as usual. You had now lost control. This was too much. You didn’t deserve this. You finally bursted.
“What is wrong with you? I try so hard every day to talk to you but you, you have changed. You’re not the Baekhyun I used to know. The Baekhyun I knew loved talking to me. He took care of me. More importantly he loved me. He didn’t just treat me like any other object in the house. I don’t know what the company has done to you but you have changed so much.” Tears started rolling your of your eyes. “I do not deserve to be treated like this. We are living together then why does it feel like you are more far apart from me then you were in the past 3 months. If I am a burden on you then why don’t you just tell me so I can leave?” you asked.
“You don’t understand this okay,” he snapped back.
“What do I not understand?”
“Tell me where I went wrong?”he asked.
You were shocked upon hearing this question. You scoffed. “Are you asking me where you went wrong? Everywhere oppa, everywhere!”
“Is that how you really feel?”
“I’m afraid so,” you said and got up. You went back to your room and packed a few of your belongings that you were going to need immediately. You slowly walked out of the room. He was still sitting on the couch with his head bent down. You didn’t want to do this but there was nothing left to stay for. If the guy who you had waited for, for so long wasn’t stopping you then there obviously was no need to stay.
“Are you leaving?” he asked wiping his tears.
“Yeah,” you said as you closed the front door behind you.
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You had no idea where you were going to go at this time of the night. It was cold outside and you didn’t even have enough money to book a hotel room for yourself. You cursed the moment you had decided to leave. You could have just waited till the morning. You were blinded by the fog when suddenly a car hit you. Everything blacked out. You knew this was it. You were going to die.
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“How are you feeling?” Baekhyun asked as you opened your eyes. You could see that he’d been crying for a long time.
“Where am I?” you asked.
“In the hospital,” he said running his fingers through your hair. You looked away. Even though you’d had an accident, you clearly remembered everything that had happened the night before. Baekhyun’s tear fell on your arm. He quickly wiped it away.
“I am so sorry,” he whispered. You didn’t want to respond.
“I know I have hurt you a lot and its okay if you don’t forgive me but please listen to me?” he said shaking you.
“Is there anything left to listen to,” you asked.
“Yes..” he paused as if trying to gather the words he wanted to use. “I love you. I really really do but things are different now. Ever since I joined the company, they’ve changed me. The way I used to be is not what they wanted. They wanted me to be different for the fans. No matter how hard I fight it, I have to live with it. It’s a part of me now. One thing, however that hasn’t changed is my love for you. When you were leaving my heart ached. I cursed myself for treating you like this. I know I have hurt you a lot in the past few days but if you leave me like this I will never change. I will remain a cold hearted person. And the only person who can change me is you. I’m nothing without you. You have no idea how I spent the whole last night. I was devastated seeing you in this condition. I was such an idiot for making this mistake. It’s my fault that you’re in this hospital right now and I will never forgive myself for this.” he held your hand. “I need you in my life,_______. Please don’t go,” he said as a tear rolled down his cheek. You were crying too now. This is the best he had done in the past one month. You couldn’t say no. You loved him too much. He pulled you towards himself and hugged you.
“I promise I will change and I will never make you feel unloved ever again. Just don’t go away from my life please. I can’t live without you.”
“I won’t” you whispered.
You pulled away and looked at him. He looked so tired and worn out. He suddenly kissed you. It was a pleasant surprise you’d been longing for.
“I can’t believe what an idiot I was for letting you go.”
“You’re not an idiot” you said placing your hand on his cheek. “My Baekhyun can never be an idiot.”
He hugged you again and kissed you on your forehead. You had seen this look on his face before. It was the same one from three months ago. A part of him was back.
Now, the only thing you wished for was for him to be himself again. Be the Baekhyun you loved.
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I wrote this in three different sittings, so I hope it doesn’t look messed up.
I hope you like it anon :)