Requested by anon
You were playing with the beautiful ring on your finger as you waited for Seunghyun to come out of the bathroom. You guys had been engaged for two years now. Deep down you wanted him to ask you get married, but you didn’t want to push it. He was doing really good in his career right now and the last thing you wanted was to upset him. You hadn’t always been very open about your feeling because you always felt like you would bother him or he would get upset. You didn’t want to label those as insecurities but you knew that that was exactly what it was.
He came out of the bathroom and slid into the bed with you, wrapping you in his arms.
“What were you thinking about?” he asked kissing you on your forehead.
“Umm nothing,” you said shaking your head.
Seunghyun slowly slid his hand under your shirt and kissed you on the neck. You wrapped your arms around him too. He took off you shirt and sat up, taking his pants off.
“You brought protection right?” you asked.
He looked up at you with a blank face and scratched his head. “Umm, actually I was thinking of something different tonight!” he said.
You looked at him with questioning eyes. He came closer and held your hands.
“We have been going out for 3 years now and you’ve been my fiancée for two. I really want our relationship to move to the next level.”
You heart started beating faster. He was going to ask you to marry him. You’d been waiting for this moment for so long. But it didn’t make sense. What did this have to do with having unprotected sex.
“What do you mean?” you asked.
He began playing with your fingers as if hesitating to ask. “I was thinking, we could try having a baby?”
You were shocked. You pulled your hand away.
“What are you talking about?” you asked raising your voice.
“Why are you so surprised? Do you not trust me?” he questioned.
“I do trust you but this is not the way I want it to be…” you trailed off.
“What’s wrong in this? We’ve been together for so long. Frankly, I don’t see the difference.”
He was right. You guys practically lived like a married couple but it still didn’t seem right to you. You wanted everything to go in an order.
Seunghyun shook you. “What are you thinking?”
“I want us to be married first, that’s all. I’ve been wanting to say this for a long time but I was scared you’d push me away.”
You expected him to say something comforting but he didn’t.
“Married? Right now?” he asked looking surprised.
“Yeah,” you said meekly.
“So you don’t want to have kids but you want to get married?”
You scoffed. “Of course, isn’t that how things are supposed to work? First you get married and then you have kids. It’s not that I don’t want to have kids with you. Believe me I do but I want us to be married first. Raising kids is a big responsibility and I don’t think either of us are ready right now.”
You looked at him for an answer but he didn’t respond. Both of you were disappointed. You put on your shirt and left the room. You didn’t know when you had started crying. You buried your face in your lap and curled up on the couch.
An hour passed away and neither of you had moved from your position. A little part of you was waiting for him to come and hug you.
You felt someone sit beside you. Seunghyun forced his hand into your arms and pulled your face up. He wiped your tears and hugged you. “I’m sorry,” he whispered.
“I’m sorry too,” you sighed.
“I shouldn’t have forced you,” he said as he pulled back. “I can wait.”
You nodded.
“And as for the wedding. We will get married, soon. I promise!”
Your heart fluttered. He’d finally said it. You had waited for it for so long and the wait was finally over. You were glad that he understood you. You were smiling.
“What are you smiling about?” he asked running his finger on your cheek.
“About us getting married and having kids.”
He smiled while leaning in and pressed his lips against yours.
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