Your Wish Is My Command

And I will always love you [Luhan]

 Requested by imaginationsmile


“Here, take some. It’ll make you feel better,” you offered chicken soup to Luhan.

“Thanks babe,” he said taking it from you. You slipped besides him in bed.

***Aaa.. aaa..Aachooo*** Luhan sneezed.

“This is what happens, when you don’t listen to your girl friend and go out in the rain,” you teased him.

“Yeah, I really should start listening to you,” he said making a cute face.

“Aish, don’t make that face,” you patted his arm. Luhan smiled at you while gulping down the soup.

“So how long will you be gone, this time?” you asked.

“Aaaa, three weeks,” he replied.

“Three weeks? Oh my my,” you made a face.

“I know,” he sighed. You cuddled up besides him, putting his arms around you.

“You’ll get sick,” he warned.

“I don’t care,” you replied, placing your hands on his chest. He gave you a kiss on your temple and ran his fingers through your hair. You fell asleep instantly.

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“Oppa wake up,” you shook Luhan but he didn’t even budge. You shook him again, but still there was no response.

“Oppa, you’ll be late for your flight,” you said, a little bit louder this time. You had no choice but to drop water on his face. You went back into the bathroom to get some. Luhan opened his eyes to see what you were up too. He’d been up the whole time. He just wanted to mess around with you.

“Okay you asked for this,” you said holding a bottle of water on top of his face. Just as you were about to drop it on his face, Luhan opened his eyes and grabbed you. He pulled you towards him, making you fall on the bed.

“What? You were up the whole time?” you asked.

“Ye,” he replied, tickling you.

“Aii, oppa stop,” you began to laugh. You were very ticklish. He gave you a peck on the cheek and then on your neck.

“I’m going to miss you so much,” you sighed.

“Me too,” he replied getting out of bed. “I should get going. I don’t want to be late.”

“Don’t you want breakfast?” you asked.

“Aneyo, I’ll eat it there.” Luhan gave you a quick peck before leaving.

Now all you had to do was wait for him to return like you did most of the time. You just hoped that this time he’d return on time because three weeks from then was going to be your one year anniversary with him.  

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“Hey Luhan, oh my God! I didn’t know you were going too,” Suri walked up behind him. Luhan turned around immediately at the familiar voice.

“Suri,” he gasped. He was so surprised at seeing her after so long. Luhan had liked her before they debuted but never had enough courage to confess his feelings to her.

“So, you’re coming too,” he asked.

“Ye,” Suri went on explaining how she was a last minute addition to the show. Luhan listened with his mouth half open. There was something about her that enveloped all of his attention.

 “Well I’m glad that you’re coming. This trip will be a lot more fun now,” he said with a nervous smile.

“Ye,” she replied playing with the strands of her hair.

The trip indeed, was an interesting one. Luhan had met Suri after so long that he forgot about everything else. He ran around her all the time, trying to spend as much time with her possible. You called him every day but he didn’t pick up and when he did, he just talked for a few minutes. You didn’t care at all. All you needed was to hear his voice and that was enough for you. You loved him too much to pry over things like these. You always wondered why Luhan asked you out in the first place. You were definitely not as pretty or anywhere near perfect as the idol girls. Sometimes you felt that he deserved someone much better, someone who could at least be compatible with him.

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It was almost the end of the third week and you were anticipating Luhan’s return desperately. Two nights from then was going to be your first anniversary and you wanted it to be perfect. You couldn’t resist so you called him.

“Are you back yet?” you asked.

“Ye, came back last night,” he replied. He sounded tired.

“Oh okay. Do you want to come over tomorrow?” you asked.

“Uh, actually I’ll come over tonight. I need to talk about something.” He said with a serious tone.

“Yeah that’d be fine.” You replied as your heart jumped with excitement.

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‘Can you come to the park downstairs?’ - Luhan texted you.

You wore the prettiest dress that you could find in your closet. You were hoping he’d do something special, even though there was still two days left till your anniversary.

“It’s cold out here! Why are you wearing that?” Luhan asked you as you approached him.

“I didn’t know it was going to be this cold,” you said rubbing your arms for warmth. You were regretting wearing the dress. Instead of complimenting you, he was getting angry. He didn’t seem to be in a good mood. The two of you began walking. The sun was setting; the darkness slowly taking over.

“_________, I want to tell you something,” he said stopping by a tree.

“Ye,” you replied. You couldn’t tell if he was upset or nervous. You’d always found it hard to read his expressions. In some deep corner of your heart, you had a feeling you weren’t going to like what he was about to say but you shrugged it off.

“I think we should break up,” he said without looking at you.

“What?” you gasped as your heart sank. ‘What?’ – you repeated in your head. Why did he say that? It didn’t make sense.

“I’m sorry. I just want to be honest with you because I do care about you. Over this trip I met Suri.”

Oh so it was Suri’­ – things started making sense now.

“I had no idea I still had feelings for her until I saw her again. I am so sorry ________. I didn’t mean to hurt you but I don’t think I can take our relationship any further. I don’t want to lie to you and I don’t want to lie to myself either. My feelings have changed..” he trailed off.

You were dumbfounded. You were surprised at the sudden confession. As it slowly started sinking in, it wasn’t that surprising any more. You knew this was going to happen one day. You could see it coming. Suri was perfect in every way while you couldn’t stop counting all the flaws that you had. You wanted to be mad at him but could you really be mad at him? Instead you blamed yourself for not being the right girl for him. You felt weak as if someone had soaked all the energy out of you. You sat down on the bench.

“_________ ah, please say something!” Luhan said. You didn’t respond. You didn’t have anything to say. What did he want you to say anyways? Beg him to stay? Forgive him for hurting you? Or to tell him that you were going to be okay. You were not going to be okay at all. He had no idea what he’d done to you in a mere 30 seconds. “I didn’t want to hurt you that’s why I’m doing this now before it was too late.” Luhan added, seeing that you weren’t responding.

Too late?’ -yes it was, ‘one year’ too late. He probably didn’t even remember that you guy’s anniversary was coming. You were completely and madly in love with him. He obviously didn’t feel the same way. Luhan took off his jacket and wrapped it around your shivering body. A tear rolled down your cheek. He lifted his hand to wipe it but you lightly pushed it away.

“_________,” he said your name again but you still didn’t utter a single word. Your silence was killing him. You got up and took off the jacket that he had wrapped around you. You handed it back to him and began walking. He was a stranger to you now and you didn’t like accepting things from people you didn’t know.

“_________,” he called after you once again. You turned around, to look at him one last time.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered. That was the moment you decided that you never wanted to see him again. You were going to move on in life no matter how much it hurt you.

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Luhan turned on the lights in his room. Two arms grabbed him from behind. He jumped around.

“Suri?” he gasped.

“Ye, don’t panic silly,” she slid her arms behind his neck.

“How did you get in?” he asked.

She leaned in, stopping very close to his face. “Does it matter?”

Luhan pulled a smile, trying hard not to show that he was upset.

“So did you breakup with her?” she asked. He nodded back.

“I’m sorry about all of this.” She said with a sad face. She really did feel bad.

“Aneyo don’t say that,” Luhan said immediately, putting his hands on her mouth. “None of this is your fault.”

“Really?” she purred, slowly taking off her shirt. She gave Luhan a kiss on the neck and pulled him towards the bed…

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Tears finally began rolling out of your eyes as you reached home. You had held them in long enough. It was time to let them out now. You curled up under the sheets holding your hands close to your chest and wept all night.

Your eyes hurt when you woke up the next morning. You wished you never woke up because now the night before’s events were coming back slowly and you wanted to cry again. Too bad, your tears had dried up. You couldn’t even express the emptiness inside of you now. You tried to convince yourself that you were much stronger than this. You could easily move on. You figured that if you told this lie to yourself enough times, you might actually start believing it.

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A month later..

“Why’d you bring me here?” Suri asked sliding her arms into Luhan’s.

“I like walking in the parks.” He replied.

“Well I find it boring,” she pouted.

“Okay walk with me just this once,” he said.

“Oppa, don’t say it like that. You know I love hanging out with you.”

“I know,” Luhan chuckled while looking in the other direction. His eyes fell on you. You were at the park with your friend and his niece whom he was babysitting.

“Oppa?” Suri shook him.

“Huh,?”

“Where’s the bathroom? I really need to go.”

“Umm I think they have some, behind those stalls,” Luhan pointed towards the east.

“Ai gomawo, I’ll be back in a flash,” she said while running. Luhan turned back towards the direction you were in. You seemed happy. You were jumping with excitement as your friend got you and his niece a balloon. Soon another one of your friends came and joined. ‘She’s doing pretty well..’ Luhan thought to himself. As far as he knew you, he knew that you were very sensitive. He was thinking you’d still be sitting in your room sobbing but you were doing better than he’d expected. He was curious. He wanted to talk to you. More importantly, a little part of him was missing you. All the good times that the two of you had spent together were coming back to him. The way you’d wake him in the mornings. Make him breakfast. Bury your head in his chest every time you guys watched a scary movie. Bring him home cooked meals every time he craved them. Always argued about peeling the banana from the bottom and pouting when he wouldn’t listen to you. Falling asleep in his arms after a long day. Taking care of him when he fell sick. Blushing every time he complimented you. All these memories were coming back to him one by one as his eyes followed the movement of your body.

You didn’t notice him until he walked up to you. Your heart started racing but in the past one month you had trained yourself to be calm. Instead of breaking down you pulled a smile and waved at him.

“Hey Luhan,” you said cheerily.

“Hey,” he said with an inaudible voice.

Both of you stood in an awkward silence. You felt like you had clenched your heart tightly so it wouldn’t signal your brain to start crying again.

“How have you been?” Luhan asked after a long pause.

“Good,” you replied with the biggest smile on your face.

“Hmm that’s nice,” he said nodding his head.

“Oppaaaaa,” Suri called his name walking towards the two of you.

“________, what are you doing here?” she asked, sounding a little awkward.

“Ah, I’m just here with a bunch of friends,” you said putting your hands together.

“Oh that’s great but Luhan and I have to leave now,” she said pulling him. You were a little surprised because Luhan didn’t like being pushed around. He liked to have things in his control. He turned around and looked at you. You were looking right back at him. You turned around and looked at the bench where you and Luhan stood a month ago on a chilly night. His eyes followed your gaze. He looked towards the ground as if he understood what you were trying to say.

You went back to playing with the little girl but you broke down after making sure Luhan had left.

“_____ ah, why are you doing this to yourself?” Yeoung Jin asked you. “He clearly doesn’t deserve you. Look at him now. She is treating him the way he should be treated. You should be happy!”

“I can’t see him like this. It hurts me.” You said wiping your tears.

“Are you still in love with him?” he asked.

You nodded after a little while. Yeoung Jin sighed and hugged you. “You’ll be fine. I promise you okay!”

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Sleeping?’ – you read Luhan’s text. You were surprised that he still had your number.

No’

‘I’m at the park..’

‘It’s 2 in the morning,

‘I know’

You didn’t know how to respond. You were still thinking when your phone buzzed again.

Do you want to come..?’

‘I’m sleepy. Good night Lu han,’ ­– you made it clear that you wanted to be as far away from him as possible. But your heart wouldn’t let you sleep in peace. A little voice inside you kept bothering you.

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“You came?” Luhan said as you settled besides him.

“Ye,” you replied without looking at him.

“It’s cold again,” he tried to make a conversation. You nodded, holding your shawl more tightly. “Here take my jacket.” He took it off and wrapped it around you.

“So what are you doing out here?” you asked.

“To be honest! I have no idea.” He sighed. Then without warning, Luhan turned towards you and pressed his lips against yours. You kissed him back for a brief second but quickly pulled away.

“Go back home oppa, Suri must be waiting for you.” You began to get up but he pulled you back.

“Don’t go please.” He said desperately. For the first time since you’d known him, you saw him getting teary eyed.

“Oppa please don’t do this to me again.” A tear rolled down your cheek even though you’d tried so hard to keep it in.

“I’m sorry ________. I am so sooo sorry.” He shook his head.

“It doesn’t matter anymore,” you pulled your hand away.

“It does. At least to me. Please come back.” He got up and stood beside you.

“You played with my heart and I was okay with that but now, don’t do this to Suri,” you said turning around once again to leave.

“Why are you like this?” he pulled you again. You looked at him with questioning eyes.

“Why do you always think about others before you think about yourself? You should slap me, hit me. Do whatever you want to because what I did to you was wrong.”

He waited for you to say something but you couldn’t even look him straight in the eyes.

“_________, your silence is killing me. Say something!” he shook you. You didn’t know why but you felt like hugging him and that’s exactly what you did. He wrapped his arms around you tightly. The two of you stood there for a long time.

“I should go,” you said pulling away and turning around.

“But..” he began to say something.

“I don’t know what I want right now oppa,” you said with your back facing him. You began to walk again. You knew you still loved him and you had forgiven him but you weren’t sure if you wanted to go back.

A smile spread across Luhan’s face seeing you wrap his jacket around you tightly. You didn’t return it this time. He knew you were going to come back one day. Now, it was his time to wait…

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I feel like a pathetic writer for taking 4 hours to write this! Im not usually like this but I was so distracted today! !! :| anyways! I really loved this request so I really did put a lot of thought/ effort into this scenario! I really hope you guys like it :) <3

 Okay I know all the exo fans must have seen this a bajillion times [SO HAVE I] but I was listening to it repeatedly while writing this so YOU GUYS should listen to it too while you read ;) lol [ it helps set the mood]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JNH_-AULu-8

posted 6 years ago with 86 notes

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