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Gravity [Yongguk] Submission

Okeey before posting it, I write this thinking on a song, so you can hear it here 

Enjoy~~~

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You were playing the well-known melody that was always stuck in your head. You started singing the lyrics as you felt your heart breaking; your eyes were burning, letting you know that you were about to cry…all the memories that were stuck in your head started playing one by one, again and again in your head.

-flashback-

You were in the living room waiting for Yongguk to arrive from practice, you even made dinner for two, because you missed him that much. You were just counting the minutes for him to arrive,  when he finally made his appearance in front door. You reached him as fast as you could.

“Oppa! How was practice today? Did you have fun? You must be tired. I made dinner, so you can change and we can have dinner together!” you said, smiling as he walked by you, not paying attention to anything you just said. His face was so emotionless that you felt a little worried.

 “Oppa? Is something wrong?” you asked, walking a little faster until you reached him again. When you were about to touch his face, he pushed your hand off. His face showed how annoyed he was…annoyed by you.

“Can you just shut up for one minute?!” he shouted out with an angry tone.

“W-what?” you stuttered, shocked by his sudden anger.

“I just came home. All I want is a little peace, but you just keep appearing and making annoying sounds, I can’t stand it anymore!” He punched the wall behind you, scaring the hell out of you. Your eyes were about to give up and let the tears fall.

“I-I don’t get what you are saying…” Your voice was shaking and tears were starting to fall.

“OH, COME ON! DON’T START WITH THAT! See! That is what I hate the most about you, you always cry!”

Now you were mad. What did he just say? You thought.

“WHAT? So you hate me? Then why are you with me? Why don’t you just break up with me?  I AM TRYING TO MAKE THIS WORK, but every time that something goes bad with the guys, you always come and start freaking the hell out and screaming. Just tell me already that you don’t love me anymore!” you fumed. You were crying, you felt hurt, offended and mad.

Since 4 months ago, that was your routine, you never got to see him, but every time he came home, he would start screaming at you and break up with you. Then 2 weeks later he would come back. You always let him do whatever he pleased, but you were having enough, he was just playing with you.

“I DON’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE!” he shouted as he walked to the front door, ready to leave.

“Are you serious? WHERE ARE YOU GOING?”  Now you were the one who was screaming.

“YES! I AM SERIOUS! I DON’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE, I CAN’T STAND THIS ANYMORE, AND I AM GOING TO THE DORM WITH THE GUYS!” he yelled, taking his keys, ready to leave.

Just then, crying, you pushed yourself between the door and him.

“If you leave now…I won’t be here anymore, so be honest Yongguk… You don’t feel anything for me anymore?” your voice broke at the end, and you looked him right in the eyes, praying for him to stay.

“Move out of the way, _____,” he said, trying to move you out of the doorway, his face now appearing exhausted. The sadness in his eyes killed you.

“I am serious, Yongguk. If you leave now…” he pushed you out of the way, “this is the end…FOREVER…” you shouted the last word as he walked out of the house, closing the door behind him.

Your body gave up and you fell on your knees. That was the end, and he knew it. You started crying even harder when you realized it. You needed to take your things out of the place; you needed to move on. You wouldn’t be there forever. Your relationship with Yongguk was stuck and was sick, and you knew that.

You were still in front of the door, waiting for Yongguk to come back, but you realized that he wouldn’t, not for now. Getting up, you walked to your room. You glanced up at your clock; it marked 3 AM. You walked to your computer, and started looking in the pages, looking for the thing that proved that it was the end of it all.

-end of flashback-

You ended playing the song and cleaned your eyes, trying to stop your tears. Cleaning your hands on your pants, you got up off of the piano in the middle of the living room. You walked in front of the camera that was recording your song and stopped recording. You walked to the kitchen table, took your pen and started scribbling on a piece of paper. You left your little letter on the piano as you grabbed your backpack and your suitcase. You shut the lights off as you walked to the front door, looking one last time at the clock on the wall. It was 9 in the morning. You held your plane ticket in one hand and your suitcase in the other as you walked off the apartment.

I’ve always wondered why people make promises that they won’t be able to keep…until this moment I never knew the answer…

Things change, sometimes so quickly you don’t even notice it. I don’t know, happiness is, like, something you have to look after, be vigilant about…. The happiness that I felt at the start of this adventure…is no longer there, and I know that you feel the same…

So just let the memories stay and let them be our precious memories… People say that a memory… is something you reconstruct depending on small fragments of recollections in your mind. They say that to remember is the same as seeing an illusion… Innumerable small choices led me onto the road I’m on now. When I was right, and when I was wrong…

I was always me. You, him, anyone, everyone…We’re all right now…It’s all right now.

The sad times, the happy times, all of them are precious memories…So I pray. Please, let these forever be precious memories for you as well.

I was happy, very happy, truly happy

                          So thank you and good bye…

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