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Both you and Kris burst into the apartment half drunk.
“You should never drink on your own wedding,” Kris said as he stumbled.
You hit him on his shoulder. “You tricked me into drinking.“
He grabbed your hand and pulled you closer. “You’ll pay for this Oppa,” you said, squinting your eyes.
“Oh yeah? How so?” he said sliding his hands around your waist. You pulled away and began to run but he grabbed you once again and picked you up this time.
“Aish, what are you doing? Put me down!” you asked childishly.
“Aneyo,” he shook his head and walked towards the room. “Welcome to our room,” Kris announced. A smile spread on your face. He brought his face closer to yours and gave you a light peck on the lips. The next second, you found yourself in bed with Kris on top of you.
“I’ve waited long enough for this,” he whispered sliding the strap of your wedding dress off of your shoulders.
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You found yourself tightly wrapped in Kris’s arms the next morning.
“Oppa,” you whispered but he didn’t respond. You carefully slid out of bed and walked to the kitchen. You were familiar with most of the things in the house but it was still new to you. You didn’t live with him before you got married but you visited occasionally. You’d known Kris for three years. Two as a friend and then one year as his girl friend. He had finally proposed 3 months back. Everything happened so quickly that you were still trying to sink in most of it.
“Last night was amazing,” Kris said suddenly appearing from behind and holding you.
“Huh!” you jumped but calmed yourself immediately. You were smiling. He turned you around to face him.
“You’re still blushing after last night?” he asked with his classic sexy smile. You couldn’t look him in the eyes. His presence still made you nervous.
“Are you happy?” he asked. You looked at him, as if trying to tell him that of course you were happy. Was there a reason to not be? He understood you and leaned in to kiss you.
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“I’m just saying you could have talked a little. You just sat in the corner and stared at us,” Kris said with a slightly annoyed tone while entering the apartment.
“And I’m just saying that you could have introduced me to them. You just went on and on while I had to sit awkwardly. Besides I didn’t even know them or what they were talking about.”
“Oh yeah, well now they think you lack confidence.”
“So?”
“So, I don’t want people to think my wife is like that,” Kris said angrily this time.
“Okay calm down Kris. What’s the big deal?” you asked.
“It is a big deal! You do this every time we meet somebody new. Why can’t you be more like the life of the party and introduce yourself and look confident?”
“Kris you know that’s not how I am.”
“Well then CHANGE!” he said glaring at you.
You didn’t want to frustrate him more therefore you just nodded your head in agreement. Four months in your marriage and you guys were already having your first argument.
“Are you still mad?” you asked him while slipping in bed. He was busy reading his book.
“Kris!” you nudged him.
“Huhmmm,” he took his eyes off his book for a second and then went back to reading it. “No!”
You took a sigh of relief and went to bed.
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You thought that argument was something you and him were going to forget about but Kris’s behavior changed completely. He would nag you about the littlest of the things. He hated your job because it wasn’t good enough. He hated the fact that you didn’t wear branded cloths. He didn’t like it when you showed up at his practices uninvited. The list went on and on. It wasn’t like you weren’t trying. You were slowly changing yourself and it was very uncomfortable but if you had to please Kris then that is what you were going to do.
“What’s this?” Kris asked after taking the first bite of his meal.
“What’s wrong?”
“Did you taste it?”
You shook your head.
“Then taste it,” he made a face. You did as he said. It was a little salty. Kris suddenly pushed the plate to the side.
“I’m tired of this ________. I really am.”
You lost your patience too this time. “Stop it Kris, Just stop it,” you said standing up.
Kris stood up too.
“Why are you always like this? Can you not see that I’m trying so hard? ..but nothing ever seems to please you.” You said with a crying voice.
“Stop being so childish!”
“I’m not being childish,” you yelled.
“_________, lower your voice.”
“No I won’t” you snapped back. You quickly realized that you shouldn’t have said that. Kris walked towards you and slapped you across the face. You were horrified. Tears were flowing like a stream. Instead of apologizing Kris turned around and left.
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Your eyes burnt from crying for 3 hours straight. Kris still hadn’t come back. You wanted him to come back but a little part of you was scared of him.
You heard the door click open and you immediately closed your eyes. You could hear his heavy footsteps and with each one he took your heart sank a little more. He slipped in besides you and held your shoulder.
“____________ah, I’m sorry,” he said. That’s it. That’s all he could come up with after what he’d done. He forced you to turn around. He knew you weren’t sleeping. You looked at him. Not a single sign of guilt was visible on his face. He pulled you closer and kissed you on the cheek that he had slapped earlier. He didn’t just stop there. He continued towards your neck and began taking off your cloths. This was his way of apologizing to you. You weren’t the type who would state their own opinion on the table. This was your weak point and he knew that well. You submitted to his desire because once again you didn’t want to displease him.
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“Whaaaaaaa,” you looked at the little red sign on the stick. A smile broke on your face. This was the first time you’d received happiness in the past eight months. Tears of joy rolled down your cheeks. You were sure when Kris heard the news he’d jump with excitement too.
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“Doesn’t that couple look cute?” you asked looking at a pregnant girl with a guy walking besides her.
“Ye,” Kris replied not really interested in the conversation.
“What do you think about having a baby?” you asked smiling secretly.
“Aish, too much responsibility.” He snickered. “I think if we should have a baby it should at least be 2 to 3 years from now. we shouldn’t rush with everything.”
Your heart sank once again. You gasped in surprise and disappointment.
“What happened?” he asked.
“Nothing,” you said shaking your head. You had no idea how you were going to tell him. You couldn’t imagine what he was going to say. Get rid of the baby? Leave you? Accept it? You had no idea.
“Kris..” you began to say but he interrupted.
“____________, why did you bring me here? It’s so chilly outside.” He shrugged his shoulders with annoyance and turned around to walk back home. He left you there, devastated. You watched him from behind. This wasn’t the Kris you had fallen in love with. Or maybe you were wrong and he was always like this but love had had made you blind. It had almost been a year in to your marriage and no matter how hard you tried to tell yourself that you were happy, you weren’t. That was the plain truth.
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Kris came home the next day and it was quieter than usual.
“__________ ah, where are you?” but nobody was there to respond.
“_____________,” he said your name again but still no response.
He walked in the room. It was completely dark. He turned on the lights and sat on the bed. The sound of paper scrunching under him made him get up. He looked at it. It was your hand writing. He began reading:
“Dear Kris,
I love you and I always have. But I can’t live like this anymore. I’m sorry. I really am. You probably have no idea what I’m talking about but I promise I tried really hard everyday to be what you wanted me to be. I can’t live like that anymore. It’s too superficial for me. When you fell in love with me I thought you fell in love with whatever faults or qualities I had but I was wrong. It’s not your fault, it’s my fault because I fell in love with a person who wanted all of this and I can’t be like that. I’m sorry if I’ve hurt you but I don’t want to be hurt anymore either. It’s been long and painful and I just want to spare both of us. I noticed you weren’t happy with this marriage either. You were still managing it because I was your responsibility. I really do respect you for that. This decision was hard for me but I am leaving Kris! I’m leaving. I hope you find someone who will love you and be of your standards. I’m sorry if I’ve disappointed you. [I left the divorce papers in the top left drawer]
I will always love you…
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A tear rolled down Kris’s cheek and fell on the letter. He didn’t see this coming but even he knew that this marriage wasn’t going anywhere. Maybe this was for the best or was it really?
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4 years later…
Kris walked hand in hand with Eunsun down the street.
“Want some bubble tea?” he asked her.
“Of course I do,” she said waving her Parada handbag in the air.
Kris went to a nearby street store and ordered two bubble teas.
“Eunsuk stop or I won’t get you anything!” he heard a familiar voice from behind him. He turned around immediately. It was you getting angry at your little one. He felt a slight twinge in his heart. ‘Oh so she got married again..’ he wondered.
You held your son’s hand and began walking. Kris turned around to get his order.
“Mommy! Why don’t I have a daddy and everybody else does?” Eunsuk suddenly asked you. You were surprised at his sudden question. The memories of four years ago started coming back but you repressed them instantly. That is what you had been doing for so long. You, however could never forgive yourself for one thing and that was your son living without a father. A little part of you regretted not telling Kris. Maybe he would have come after you and stopped you but then you shrugged the feeling away. He wasn’t going to come. If he cared, he would have come looking for you regardless.
“Shhhh,” you glared at your son and began walking.
Kris turned around once again hoping to get a glimpse of you but you and his son were long gone and he was never going to know about it.
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Okay I am soooo sorry you guys, I didn’t mean to make it this sad but I was watching a sad movie while typing this and so here it is ^^ :’| I hope you guys like it :)