Your Wish Is My Command

Approval [Jinyoung]

I woke up crying, because I saw a really sad dream. The first thing I did was to open my laptop and start writing it down. I’m sorry if it brings you all to tears but I just had to write this one. [I never thought I was going to cry writing a scenario]


 PRESENT DAY:

The door to the hospital opened and a guy in his tux with a girl closely following behind in her white bridal dress, walked swiftly through the pool of people. He seemed to be in a hurry. She tried hard to keep up with him. She tried to get a hold of his arm but he gently slid it out of her grip. He kept looking at his watch nervously, pushing everybody aside that came in his way. Tears were forming in the corner of his eyes. He breathed heavily and lifted his hand to cover his mouth. He knew his world was going to shatter into pieces a few minutes from then. If he could wish for one thing, that was for time to stand still…


FLASHBACK:

“Oppa can you come fix my socks for me? They keep falling down!” you said as you tried to dry the wet paint off of your hands.

Jinyoung didn’t respond but instead continued to talk to the reporter.

“Oppa!” you called him again. He looked up at you. He seemed to be angry. His glare meant that you needed to be quiet at the moment. He was clearly having an important interview and you shouldn’t have been there at the first place.

You pouted and went back to drying your hands. Your vision got hazy for a second. You held on to the table that stood opposite you and shook your head. It wasn’t anything new to you. You were used to getting mild headaches. You shook your head and smiled to yourself. This is what you did to tell encourage yourself that death wasn’t as bad as it seemed. It was going to come sooner or later. For you it was going to be a little sooner than you’d ever expected it to be.

The interview finished. Jinyoung got up and followed the lady close behind. It was a last minute schedule that his manager had set up for him. He didn’t seem to be very excited about it. You thought it better to remain back stage and wait for him to come back.

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The interview went longer than you’d expected. He’d promised to take you out somewhere that day but you were losing your patience. You looked at the clock repeatedly. Time seemed to be moving extra slow that day.

“Oppa!” you mouthed the words as you heard his footsteps making its way back to the small room. He entered and looked at you. Instead of coming and hugging you like he always did, he rolled his eyes and walked into the bathroom. ‘Is he still mad at me?’ – You thought to yourself. You recalled what you’d done earlier and it didn’t seem to be something extremely off limits. Then why was he acting like that. You calmed yourself an waited because you knew as soon as he came out of the bathroom he was going to apologize and give you a quick peck on the cheek.

Jinyoung came out of the bathroom and began packing his stuff.

“Oppa!” you called out. He didn’t bother responding.

“Are you mad at me?” you asked. He didn’t even care to look at you.

“Say something,” you said sounding frustrated.

“It was an important interview ________. You didn’t need to do such silly stuff. She’s a reporter. She can add anything to the interview to make it more spicy for the audience.” He suddenly snapped back. You were surprised at his reaction. You thought he was going to apologize for being mean to you but instead he was mad at you.

You lowered your gaze, not being able to make eye contact with him. He went back to cleaning up the little room the two of you would soon have to leave. You buried your face into your lap and tried to clear your mind. Maybe you did act a little childish. Asking him to do stuff for you in front of the interviewer. Yep, that could be a little embarrassing for a guy. Especially a guy like Jinyoung, who cared a little too much about his image. You were a little upset too. He didn’t need to be that angry but nevertheless you knew you had to apologize.

You got up and walked close behind him. Took the cloths that he was about to stuff in the bag and began folding them. He glanced at you and then quickly looked away.

“I’m sorry,” you mumbled. He sighed and turned to pick up his important files.

“Will you not forgive me?” you asked. He pretended to ignore you once again and focused on scanning the room to see if anything was left.

You couldn’t take it anymore. You lifted your hand and grabbed his wrist.

“Not even, if I only have another month to live?” you asked. He turned around and looked at you. There were tears in your eyes. Inside, you were regretting what you’d said because you had promised him you would never bring up that topic again. Somehow the words had made their way to your lips.

Jinyoung pulled you into a tight hug. Minutes passed away and he didn’t let go of you. You could hear his soft sniffles. It hurt him, just like the first time when you gave him the news six months ago.

“Don’t say that, please..” he whispered.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean too..” he didn’t wait for you to finish. He pulled back, wiped the tears out of your eyes and then his own.

“Let’s go out and get some fresh air.”

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“I like the weather today. It’s neither too chilly, nor too sunny.” You tried to make small talk but Jinyoung seemed to be lost in his own thoughts. He didn’t seem to have recovered from the event earlier.

You didn’t like seeing him like this. You hadn’t seen him smile for the past six months. A little part of you regretted giving him the news. But then again, if you hadn’t told him you would have regretted just as much. He sort of became your strength. You wouldn’t have been able to cope with the news had he not been besides you. He kept hope alive and made you promise that you were never ever going to bring it up. In his mind, he’d created an alternate world where Leukemia could be treated. He truly believed that you were going to be fine, soon.

“Can you buy me some cotton candy?” you asked looking at the vendor walking around the park.

“It’s not good for you,” he made a brief statement before enveloping himself in his thoughts once again.

“Oppa, pleaseee!!” you whined and nudged him. Jinyoung suddenly went down on his knees. He lifted both your hands and took of the ring that you’d been wearing on your index finger. He carefully slipped it back into your ring finger.

“Marry me __________,” he said. Those three words ran like a sword through your heart.

“Whaaaa!” you gasped. “No, no no! I can’t do this.” You began taking the ring out of your finger.

“Please don’t ________.” He stopped you and held your hand. “Why can’t you do this?”

“I can’t! I just can’t.” you said and quickly turned around. He forced you to turn back around and face him.

“I want to spend each and every moment of my life with you.”

“And you know that’s not possible,” you snapped back.

Don’t say that!”

“It’s the truth Oppa. Accept it! and besides..” you trailed. Tears started forming in your eyes once again.

“Besides what?” Is there something else that you’re not telling me?” he asked. You shook your head and turned around to walk. You knew it wasn’t the right time to give him this news.

“__________,” he pulled you back. “Tell me!” Instead of saying anything you hugged him tightly. He stroked your hair and waited for you to say something. He knew it wasn’t going to be a good news. You’d stopped giving him good news a long time ago.

“Yuri loves you. She loves you a lot,” you finally said.

“What?” he pulled back. His eyes were wide open in surprise. Yuri was your best friend. You didn’t know she’d developed secret feelings for Jinyoung. When she realized that was the case she tried to distant herself from you two. You asked her repeatedly but she would never give an explanation. She, however had to come back into your life when you told her about your disease. Only a few days later she confessed her feelings for Jinyoung to you. You were mad, very mad but could you really blame her? Instead of telling her to leave, you took the moment as an opportunity. You knew you were going to die soon so it would be better to leave behind someone who would love Jinyoung as much as you did.

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“Want some ice cream?” Jinyoung asked slipping in bed besides you.

“Oh my God, look at that big bowl! Are you going to eat all of that?” you pouted.

“Of course not. Here!” he shoved a spoonful into your mouth without giving a warning. You giggled as you swallowed it down. Both you and him took a spoon each and slowly finished the big bowl. He placed the empty article on the night stand and turned to you.

“What?” you asked as he stared into your eyes. He ran his fingers around the dark circles under your eyes, then your cheek bones that had started showing due to weakness. You looked worn out. He leaned in and kissed you on your sweet lips. He slid his hands behind your back and pulled you closer to him.

In the back of your head a little voice kept poking you. It had been a weak since the episode in the park. Both you and him avoided it ever since. Jinyoung acted like, it never even happened. You knew time was running out. You had to bring it up once again before you were admitted into the hospital.

You pulled back and gasped for air.

“Sorry! I got carried away.” Jinyoung said scratching his head. A faint smile appeared on his face. Your heart skipped a beat. You were going to hate yourself for ruining it.

“Oppa! So what have you thought about Yuri?” you asked hesitatingly. Immediate distress appeared on his face. He narrowed his eyebrows and looked away.

“I thought we weren’t going to discuss that,” he said.

“Time’s running out.”

“No it’s not,” he clenched your hand.

“Oppa!” you said calmly. “Marry her.”

His eyes opened once again in surprise. “Are you out of your mind?” he yelled.

You curled up under the sheets. Jinyoung got out of the bed and stood up placing his hand on his forehead.

“__________, you have got to stop doing this to me.”

“You know it’s for the better oppa!”

“No it’s not.” He turned around and grabbed your hands. “I want to marry you and no one else!”

“What? For three weeks?” you snapped shrugging your hands out of his. “At least you have a future with her.”

Both you and him remained quiet. You knew well that he wasn’t going to listen to you but you had to convince him somehow.

“It’s for the better. The sooner you understand that the better.” A tear rolled out of your eyes. “I can’t promise if she’ll love you as much as I do but at least I’ll be satisfied that I’m leaving you with someone who will always take care of you. I can’t bear to see you like this. I want you to be happy. Please! Do this for me.” You buried your face in your hands and began sobbing. It was really hard for you to say all those words. In fact you had never imagined saying those words to him. You’d always planned your future with him. Getting married, having kids, going on vacations. But the Higher Being had different plans for you.

“It’s not easy for me either,” you murmured. You felt his arms around you. He embraced you and stroked your hair. You rested your head on his chest for a long time. So long that you didn’t know when you fell asleep.

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PRESENT DAY: 

 You lay on your hospital bed, playing with the ring on your ring finger. A faint smile appeared on your face as you thought about Yuri and Jinyoung getting married. You wished you could be there to see them but you were in your last stage. You couldn’t even move your body.  

The door to your room slammed open and Jinyoung walked in. You turned around to see who it was. A gasp escaped you as you saw him walk towards you in his tuxedo. You wanted to cry and hug him. You wanted to escape death and just run away with him.. You felt like time stood still as both you and him looked into eachother’s longing eyes. He wanted to get mad at you for leaving him alone in this world but more than that he wanted to hug and shower you with kisses. He wanted to hold on to you and never let go.

The door opened once again and Yuri walked in. She looked beautiful in the white dress. Her eyes were just as puffy as his.

“Don’t cry you guys. It’s your wedding day” you said with a meek smile. Your words only made them cry more. Jinyoung sat beside you and held your hand tightly. You couldn’t hold it in anymore. Tears flowed out of your eyes, like they were never going to stop.

“Oppa! Please hug me one last time,” you requested. The next second you found yourself wrapped around his arms. You looked at Yuri but the light began to fade in your eyes. You gasped for breath. Jinyoung pulled away and kept repeating your name.

“You’re going to be fine.Okay!” he stroked your hair. His voice seems distant now. You lifted your left hand to look at the ring one last time and then looked back at him. He couldn’t take it anymore. He knew he was losing you. Yuri placed a hand on his shoulder. He didn’t know what to do so he got up and hugged her.

“Stop her,” he kept whispering. A faint smile appeared on your face and the memories of you and him meeting for the first time, him kissing you in the rain, taking you to the movies, falling asleep in your arms started playing before your eyes. You could see the light. It was time for you to leave.

“Oppa! “ you whispered one last time before death took you into its arms.

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10 years later

“I’m sorry I couldn’t find white lilies,” Jinyoung said placing the red roses them on your grave.

“I’m sure she’ll forgive you.” Yuri said with an encouraging smile on her face. Jinyoung smiled for a brief second and then began walking. Yuri followed close behind. She looked at him with surprise as he held her hand. Jinyoung turned around one last time to look at your grave.

The light air brushed the flowers as if telling him that you approved it.

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