Your Wish Is My Command

Never going to know about it [Kris] Part 2

Part 1

The long awaited part 2. I hope you guys like it :) *fingercrossed*



“You seem so lost today? What happened? You weren’t like this before we went downtown this morning?” Eunsun asked Kris.

He didn’t respond. He stared into blank space thinking about what he had seen earlier at the bubble tea shop. He thought he had completely gotten over you but seeing you with your son made him jealous and a little angry. The last four years hadn’t been any pleasant for him. He’d been in two relationships and none of them had worked out. How could you be so happy in your life while he was so miserable? He wanted to confront you and demand answers for all the questions he had.

“Oppaaa!” Eunsun shook him.

“Huh!” he pulled his head out of his deep thoughts and looked at her. She pouted and shifted in bed.

“What?” he said in a sort of irritating tone.

“Nothing!” she mumbled.

“Fine!” he said giving up without even trying. That was his problem and he still hadn’t realized it.

Painful memories from the past started registering in his head again. He remembered how he would nag you about everything and you never yelled back. You apologized even when it wasn’t your fault. He took your niceness as your weakness.

“Eunsun ah, I’m sorry,” he mumbled realizing that he had messed up three relationships he certainly didn’t want that to happen again.

“Whatever,” she replied making it clear that she was still angry.

Kris sighed and closed his eyes. He still had a lot on his mind and he needed to clear all of that first.

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A month later..

Kris jogged down an unfamiliar path. He decided to take a different route that day because he felt like he needed a change. The weather was chilly but he didn’t stop for once.

Going downhill, a familiar image captured his gaze. It was you and your son. You were walking him to school. After recovering from stumbling he began to follow you.

You stopped in front of a small building a while later. “Finish your lunch today or I won’t give you any from tomorrow,” you warned Eunsuk before giving him a kiss on the cheek.

“But everybody’s Umma’s gives them chips and biscuits and you always give me bread and eggs. Other kids make fun of me,” he pouted.

“Well, then they won’t be healthy like my little Eunsuk,” you ran your fingers through his hair and forced an encouraging smile on your face. “Now smile!”

A faint smile appeared on his face and he hurried inside the school. You sighed and got up to return but bumped into someone.

“Oh I’m so sorry,” you apologized, tucking your hair behind your ear. You looked up only to find Kris standing in front of you. This was the first time you’d seen him in four years. You’d never prepared yourself, as to what you would do if you ever saw him. Your heart sank to your stomach and you immediately looked away. You began to walk but he blocked you.

“I need to talk!” he said with a stern voice.

“I don’t have time,” you replied without making eye contact. You began to walk once again but he followed close behind.

“Go away Kris,” you warned.

“No!” he said pulling you into a small alley.

“What are you doing? People are watching!”

“Nobody is watching,” he said slamming his palm on the wall behind you. The fear you had of him four years ago started coming back.  

“You left me without giving a warning and now you’re enjoying a happy life with someone else! ” he said grinding his teeth. “Those divorce papers, they..” he stopped  and looked away. After a while he looked back at you.“How dare you? Do you know what I think? I think everything in that letter was a lie. Maybe you were cheating on me? Maybe you were carrying someone else’s child and so ..”

“Shut up Kris, just shut up!” you cut him short and pushed him. The anger that you’d kept inside of you for so long was finally coming out. He was accusing you of cheating on him when all you had done was to leave him for his happiness.

He advanced towards you but you stopped him.

“Stop it!” you glared. He glared back, his eyes burning with rage. A tear rolled out of your eyes but you wiped it immediately. You shook your head in disappointment and began to walk.

You stopped at the corner of the alley. The voice inside was poking you. You wanted him to know the truth. It was high time you told him but was that really going to change anything? Nevertheless, you went along with your heart.

“I never remarried,” you mumbled and began to walk again. Kris looked up immediately, his eyes wide open with surprise. Your words didn’t quite make sense to him.

“Never remarried?” he mumbled in confusion. Then something hit him. He began to recall the walk in the park before you left him…

Flashback:

“Doesn’t that couple look cute?” you asked.

“Ye,” he replied

“What do you think about having a baby?” you asked.

“Aish, too much responsibility. I think if we should have a baby it should at least be 2 to 3 years from now. We shouldn’t rush with everything.”

His mouth fell half open. It just dawned on him that you were trying to tell him that you were pregnant with his child. He lifted his hands and buried his face in them. ‘That child is my baby’ he thought as a tear rolled out of his eyes. He looked back up at your fading image in the fog. You were gone and once again you’d left him devastated and confused. He regretted yelling at you and accusing you. How were you ever going to forgive him now?

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Kris paced back and forth in his room. He had to figure out a way to find you. There were still unanswered questions in his head. He was happy to find out that there was a living part of him in this world but deep down he was scared. Scared of what? He had no idea.

I should demand custody of my child. No, no! She will never agree. She has every right over our child. I was the irresponsible one. I pushed her away. But then again, she should have told me. I would have thought of something. I wasn’t just going to leave her. So should I go talk to her? Will she let me see him? Will she tell him that I’m his father? ……..More importantly will she take me back?’

“What’s wrong now?” Eunsun asked entering the room. Kris was still moving back and forth with wrinkles on his forehead.

“Not now! Eunsun!” he showed her the hand.

“What? I just asked you what was wrong. Stop yelling at me.”

“I’m not yelling at you.”

“Yes you clearly are.” She lifted her hands in frustration. “You know what I’m done with this.”

“Done with what?” Kris asked as she picked up her bag and shoes.

“I’m leaving.”

“What do you mean you’re leaving?” he grabbed her wrist.

She leaned in,” I’m done with you.” Kris’s hand slid away and before he could stop her, Eunsun was gone.

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You were running a little late. You had just gotten home from work and it was already time to pick up Eunsuk. You heard a faint knock on the door.

“Hold on! I’m coming.” You said running towards the door while trying to wear your shoes. As the door opened, opposite you stood Kris and your son. Your eyes widened with shock but was quickly replaced by anger.

“What are you doing here?” you asked Kris.

“Umma, he told me he is my dad. Is that true?” your son asked innocently while licking his ice cream.

“Eunsuk, go to your room!” you said sternly. He looked at you with his big eyes not understanding what was happening. You took his hand out of Kris’s and began to walk him.

“_________ listen to me.”

“Please go away Kris,” you said as calmly as possible. The last thing you wanted to do was to fight in front of Eunsuk.

Kris followed you to Eunsuk’s room.

“Stay here!” you instructed your son and closed his door. Kris followed you back to the living room.

“What?” you snapped turning around. “Why are you here?”

He knew he dare not say that he wanted you back because that was just going to make you more angry. In fact he himself was confused as to what he wanted at the moment.

“I wanted to see my son,” he replied after a while.

“Meet your son!” you raised your eyebrows.

“Yes, my son! The son you never bothered telling me about. I have every right over him and you can’t keep him away from me like this.”

“Oh go away please!” you snickered. Kris tried to calm himself. He knew that yelling at each other was not going to help.

“_________,” he said softly. “Why did you never tell me? Why didn’t you tell me about him?”

“Would that have changed anything?” you questioned.

“Yes, it would have. It would have changed everything.”

“How?…Are you telling me that you would have taken responsibility for him?”

“Yes! He is my son. Of course I would have.”

“Really? Do you ever realize how you behaved back then? And frankly speaking I don’t see any difference even now.”

“How do you know I wouldn’t have? No matter what, you can’t deny the fact that I loved you. I was going to take care of him and you.”

“Loved me?” you leaned in closer to him. “If you loved me you would have come looking for me.” You began to cry. “Did you, even try for once?”

He didn’t know what to say. In fact he asked himself the same question. Why didn’t he look for you?

“Just leave it Kris. What’s happened has happened. I’ve moved on and I am sure you have too… so why don’t we…”

“I never signed the divorce papers,” he cut you short, leaving you in a shock.

“Huhhhh,” you gasped.

“I had hope!” he said with a crying face. For a second you saw in him the Kris that you’d met for the first time. The Kris who loved you deeply.

Your expressions softened. “Please come back to me. Let’s be a family again.” He said holding your hand. “I’ll make it right this time. I won’t ever hurt you again. I’ll make it work for us. Give me another chance.”

You kept shaking your head as more tears rolled out of your eyes.

“I want to be with you and with my son. The past years have not been easy for me. If you say that I didn’t think about you for once that would be wrong. Because I did think about you. Had I known I had a son with you, I would have come running, after for you.”

You looked up at him and gently slid your hand out of his grip. “That’s the problem. You would have come looking for me if you knew you had a son otherwise you would never be standing in this living room today.”

You’d left him speechless. He didn’t know what to say anymore. The tiny tinge of hope that he’d had was also gone now. He stood before you with his eyes fixed towards the floor.

“Please, just leave! Eunsuk and I are perfectly happy in our lives,” you said. You knew that was a lie. You were miserable. You needed someone but the truth was, you’d never stopped loving Kris. You couldn’t move on because all those years you had hope. And now that he was standing in front of you, you were throwing it all away once again. Kris began to walk out of the apartment. You collapsed on the ground and buried your face into your hands. You wanted to cry for the rest of the night.

“Umma,” Eunsuk placed his hand on your shoulder. You had no idea when he’d left his room. You looked up at him. He lifted his tiny hands to wipe the tears out of your eyes. He looked like he was about to cry too. “Is he not my appa?” he asked you as a tear rolled out of his eyes and fell on your hands. You felt like somebody sucked all the energy out of you. His words shot straight through your heart. ‘How can I be so selfish? I didn’t even think about Eunsuk and his future,’ you thought to yourself.

“I am so sorry,” you said and embraced him. “I’m so so sorry.” The sound of you and him crying, filled the silent room. You began to hate yourself for what you’d done and you knew you couldn’t forgive yourself for that. Eunsuk meant everything to you then why did you not think about?

“Don’t cry!” you stroked his head. “Everything will be fine.”

You consoled him but there was nobody to console you. The emptiness inside you, was howling like a rage monster. Moments passed away and both you and Eunsuk continued to cry in each other’s arms. His was too young for all of this. He had no idea what was going on. All he knew was that his mother was crying.

You felt a pair of hands on your shoulders. You pulled away from Eunsuk and turned around. Kris was  right behind you, his eyes red and puffy. He’d never left. He’d been standing  at the door watching you break down.

Right away he pulled both you and Eunsuk into a hug.

“Please ________!” he whispered into your ear. You felt so weak and tired. The battle you’d been fighting with yourself was finally over. You’d given up. He’d won once again but maybe this time it was victory for both of you. You rested your head against his chest and closed your eyes. Kris kissed Eunsuk and then you, wiping your tears away.

He was going to start over and this time he was going to make it right…

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I was extremely nervous while writing this since so many people liked part 1 and were looking forward to the second part. I really hope you guys like this one just as much! :)

Thank you for reading!  Saranghae

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