Your Wish Is My Command

Trust me [Chanyeol]

Requested By Anon



You shuffled through your bag looking for your yellow pills when Chanyeol called your name.

 “It’s ready,” he cried from the kitchen.

“I’m coming,” you yelled back still looking for the pills. You cursed yourself for not buying a small bottle to put them in. The plastic bag somehow always got lost in the midst of everything else.

“________,” you felt Chanyeol’s hand on your shoulder. You jumped around obnoxiously waving your hands all around.

“Are you alright?” he asked opening his eyes wide.

“Ah yea,” you mumbled.

“What are you looking for?”

“Oh nothing,” you pulled him. “Let’s go eat. I can’t wait to try what you’ve cooked for me.”

“It’s nothing special,” he scratched his head, letting your drag him.

You put your nose close to the food, letting the delicious smell tease your saliva. “Oh this smells so goooodd.”

“Try it,” he said, pushing you down on your chair. He sat across you and leaned in, staring at you with his big brown eyes.

“If you look at me like that how will I eat?” you giggled. You took a sip of the soup and surprisingly Chanyeol had done a great job.

“This is actually really good,” you remarked.

“What do you mean actually,” he asked squinting his eyes in a teasing sort of way.

“Aniyo, I didn’t mean it like that,” you said pushing a bowl in front of him. “Come on take some.”

“Ah ye,” he said and bam there was no parting him from his food. You watched him chug down the entire bowl and then rub his tummy with satisfaction.

“You really liked it didn’t you?” you asked.

“Of course. I made it so I had to like it,” he winked at you. He got up to clean the table but you stopped him.

“You’re doing too much,” you held his hand and pushed it lightly.

“No let me do it. This is the least I could do after what I did last week.”

“Oppa,” you whined. “I thought we discussed we weren’t going to talk about it.”

“I know. I’m sorry,” he mumbled. He came closer to you and cupped your tiny face in his hands. He began to say something but stopped. You raised your eyebrows in sort of a questioning way. He shook his head and then immediately planted a kiss on your lips.

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  You tossed and turned in your bed for over an hour. Depressing thoughts and anxiety were killing you. Everything around you seemed dull. You closed your eyes tightly, hoping the thoughts would go away but you knew it was impossible. Human mind is a strong slate that can do very strange things to you.

“I can do this,” you whispered to yourself. “Just one more hour ________. Come on keep testing yourself. You’re strong.” You tried to motivate yourself but it seemed harder and harder with every passing minute. You pushed away the covers and sat up, breathing heavily as the sweat beads on your forehead began to trickle down your face. That was it. You had hit your breaking point. Your hands automatically reached for the drawer. You moved it around violently, in the dark, looking for the same yellow pills. After a few minutes of intense searching you finally turned on the lights, found the tablets and reached for the water. No matter how hard you tried, the pills were like a plague attached to your life. It had been over 6 months that you had been taking them. You were still debating if you should tell Chanyeol about it or not. The guilt on top of the depressive thoughts killed you every day. You two had promised each other to share every secret but this. This was different. You loved him. You didn’t want him to run away from you.

Your heavy breathing finally started to stabilize. You pushed your hair back and got back under the covers. Just then your bedroom door flew open and a hyper Chanyeol made an appearance.

“How is my princess?” he asked spreading his arms in the air.

“Oh my goodness,” you clenched your heart. “You scared me.”

“I’m sorry,” he laughed and jumped into the bed. You slid your hand back on the night stand and pushed the bag of pills inside the drawer. Chanyeol saw you but instead of saying anything he pretended like he didn’t see anything. Last time he had asked you about them, it did not end pretty. You guys fought for almost forever and then he tried to make up a week later by preparing lunch for you.

“I thought you’d be a sleep,” he said grabbing you like a doll and pulling you closer.

“Ah yea I was just having..,” you shook your head to give yourself some time to think of an excuse. “I was just really tired. My body hurts.”

“I bet it was because of starting your workout right?” he asked.

“Ye,” you mumbled.

“I told you, you don’t have to do anything. You are just fine.” He lifted you and turned you around.

“What are you doing?” you asked.

“About to give you a back massage.”

“Oh no. Oppa you don’t have to do that.”

“Shhhh,” he hummed and began running his firm but soothing hands on your back. You felt like you were in heaven. Your body began feeling lighter.

“Oh this is so good,” you moaned.

“See I told you, you would love it,” he muttered. “Now watch this. This will make you feel even better.” He slid his hands around your waist and then up to your shoulder, slowly hitting the pressure points.

“Where did you learn this from? This feels soooooo good,” you mumbled once again.

“Really? You like it?” he asked.

“Yes, I love it..”

“Okay then let’s do something you’ll love even more,” he said and turned you around to face him. You smiled as he removed the strands of hair from your face. You returned his kindness with a smile but you knew you had to reject his request. It would be dangerous for you. You had just taken the pills. The doctor had specifically warned you to not indulge in sexual activities after taking them. Too much excitement could lead to dangerous outcomes.

“Ahhh I’m still a little tired. How about some other night,” you replied.

“But the last time we did it was almost three months ago,” he said trying to keep his cool.

“I know. I’m sorry but I just..”

“You know what, that’s fine,” he said forcing himself to smile. “I will not argue with you about this.” He removed his slender body from on top of you and laid down next to you.

“It’s not like that,” you placed your hand over his chest and rubbed it.

“It’s alright. You don’t have to explain anything.”

It hurt you to see him try so hard to fake his feelings. He was obviously very disheartened but there was nothing you could do. You loved him too much to let him go.

“I love you,” you whispered placing your head on his arm. He used his other arm to press your body against his and then gave you a soft kiss on your temple. “I love you too.”

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  Your depressive state was kicking in once again when Chanyeol called you. He had invited you to go to  this formal dance that the company was throwing. Even though your relationship was a secret, bringing a date was totally fine. They wouldn’t suspect a thing. You tried to refuse but his constant begging made you give in. He had done so much for you in the recent days that saying no would seem cruel.

You picked out the black dress as he had requested and slipped it on. You looked at your image in the mirror. Your heart told you, you looked beautiful but your brain opposed them. You felt ugly and worthless. Shaking your head didn’t help. It was time to take your pills again. You took a deep breath and grabbed yourself a glass of water.

Chanyeol walked into the apartment but you didn’t hear him. He liked making surprising entrances. He didn’t know that the one tonight was going to change everything forever. You lifted your hand with the yellow pills in it when he walked in on you. Both you and him stared at each other for a moment. The moment seemed like forever.

“I thought you said you weren’t going to take them anymore.”

“You don’t understand,” you immediately defended yourself.

“I don’t understand? So how about you tell me what’s going on?” he said walking towards you. Your head felt dizzy. You took a step back and the next moment you felt like somebody grabbing you with both hands.

“Give them to me,” he said sternly.

“No,” you shook your head.

“_________ I won’t let you take them until I know what they are for.”

“They are important okay,” you yelled, pushing him back.

“What is wrong with you?” he asked fixing his shirt, completely surprised at your sudden reaction.

“There’s nothing wrong with me,” you said grinding your teeth. Chanyeol pulled you and forcefully took the pills out of your hand.

“No! give them back to me,” you cried angrily.

“Calm down _________,” he held both your arms.

“Give them back to me,” you yelled once again.

“Shut up,” he yelled too this time.

“Go away. Okay just go away. I don’t need you in my life,” you screamed out of frustration.

“What?” he gasped taking a step back. You felt stupid for blurting out such horrible words.

“No no no I didn’t mean it like that,” you took a step towards him. Your head felt dizzy once again and your stomach growled reminding you that you hadn’t eaten anything in almost 24 hours.

“Please listen to me,” you uttered as tears rolled out of your eyes. Chanyeol turned around and began walking out. “No please listen,” you tried to hold on to his sleeve but he violently shrugged you away.

“Oppa please,” you begged. He didn’t listen and walked out of the apartment, still clenching the pills in his hand. You pressed your hand against your forehead to mediate the pain but it kept kicking in. Each time more severe than the last. “Oppa!,” you whispered one last time before you landed on the floor…

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A tear rolled out of his eyes that once twinkled upon every thought of you. He viciously wiped them away and started walking even faster. The cold breezes were sneaking in through the tiny spaces between the buttons of his jacket. They ran a shudder through his shivering body. He lifted his hands to look at the rectangular pieces of solid. Those were the reason you were not in his life anymore. He wanted to throw them away but just then a thought occurred to him. You didn’t seem to be in your normal state when you yelled at him. Something seemed different about you. The way your lips quivered and your eyes moved from side to side, your immense strength. Something had to be up. Just then Chanyeol turned around and ran back towards your apartment.

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“_________,” he yelled your name from across the hallway. There was no response. “I am so sorry. I don’t know what happened to me and I know you didn’t know what you were saying either. Please talk to me and tell me what’s going on. I rea…” his words fell halfway when he discovered your motionless body on the floor.

“_________,” he lunged towards you. He shook your body repeatedly and put his head close to your heart. “__________ talk to me,” he cried once again. “Oh my God what’s happening?What’s happening?” he moved his head from side to side. He seemed disheveled, holding you close to his chest, and rocking his body back and forth. Tears came flooding out and his throat felt completely dry.

“Talk to me please,” he shook you again. “I didn’t mean to run away. I’m sorry. Please listen to me.”

He felt your faint breathing on his hand and some hope came back to him. You were still alive. He lifted you up and ran towards his car. There was no time to lose..

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“________ has been through a lot in the past 6 months. I am surprised she didn’t tell you about anything. You say you guys have been together for over a year now right?”

“Ye,” Chanyeol nodded his head.

“I don’t understand why she wouldn’t tell you. Did you guys have a healthy relationship?” the doctor asked.

“Yes absolutely. I didn’t think anything was wrong. What happened to her?” he asked.

“She had been seeing a psychologist for the past 6 months. She was diagnosed with clinical depression and therefore she had to see a therapist. She’s been taking these pills ever since. One of the side effects of the treatment is loss of appetite. She was admitted into the hospital, I believe, a month ago since she had completely stopped eating. The same thing happened today and now here she is once again.”

Chanyeol found himself completely dumbfounded. He didn’t know what to say. A lot of information had been thrown at him at once.

“I don’t understand. Everything was fine between us. Could it be my fault?” he pushed his hair back using his left hand.

“It can’t be your fault.. or anyone’s fault actually.” The doctor put a hand on his shoulder. “Let’s just hope she gets better and now that you know about this, maybe you can help her. This treatment will work if she learns to be happy everyday and I’m sure you can give her that.”

Chanyeol nodded his head, still completely shaken. He needed some time to take in what he had been bombarded with.

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You woke up to the sound of the hissing door as it opened. A familiar figure walked towards you and settled down on the little space available on the bed. He held your hand and lifted it to plant a kiss. The other hand then caressed your cheeks and the next moment you felt his lips pressed against your cheeks. The familiar fragrance brought a smile to your face. He hadn’t left after all. He was there.

“Everything will be just fine,” he whispered giving you another peck on your forehead.

“I’m sorry,” you mumbled.

“Shhhh,” he brought his finger to the top of your lips. He shook his head and then kissed your hands again. You tightened your grip on his hand and closed your eyes. A little part of your worries was gone now that you knew he was in this with you. He wasn’t going anywhere…

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I know I changed the depressive state a little bit but I figured I had to do it to fit it better with the plot. I hope you like it anon <3 

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