Your Wish Is My Command

Heart Ache [Kris]

Requested by anon 


[Made slight changes towards the end]




“Where’s my GeGe?” you yelled as you entered the room. Kris turned around and glanced at you for a brief second before indulging himself back into his work.

“He clearly isn’t here,” he mumbled.

“What’s up with you?” you asked proceeding towards him.

“Nothing. Let me work,” he said.

“Well you know I can’t let you do that,” you pushed him lightly, making yourself comfortable next to him. “What are you working on?”

“Lyrics.”

“Need my help?”

“Your help?” he asked raising his eyebrows.

“Yeah what’s wrong with that?”

Kris looked up at you and then just like usual just stared at you. You never understood what that meant. Every time he looked at you, he would look for a good minute. It would seem like he wanted to say something but he would never say it.

“Krisss,” you snapped your finger into his face. He shook his head and looked away.

“Why do you always do that?” you punched him lightly.

“Weren’t you looking for your brother?” he asked.

“Why do you ignore my questions?” you pouted.

“Stop using your aegyo. It won’t work on me,” he said and pretended to write.

“Where is everybody else?” you asked.

“Luhan and Xiumin are out for some coffee. Lay is sick and Tao is with his girl friend.”

“What?” You began laughing.

“Seriously _______ you need to get yourself checked. Why are you laughing like that?”

“Hold.. on..” you said taking little pauses between your undying laughter. “Woaahh…. Okay! So Tao and his girlfriend. They really are serious?”

“Aaa yeah,” he replied with a sarcastic expression.

“Woaaa to be honest,” you leaned in closer to him, “I didn’t think they were going to last more than a month but I guess they’re doing pretty good.”

“You’re so pessimistic _________,” he shook his head.

“No I’m not. I’m just being realistic,” you rocked your body back and forth holding on to your crossed legs. You looked like a little kid. Kris, although amused by you kept his focus on the lyrics. “I don’t understand why you guys take these relationships so seriously?” you tried to tease him. You knew he would have an argument to raise and arguments you loved. Especially with Kris.

“I don’t understand why you don’t,” he said giving up on his writing and putting the notebook to his side. All of his attention was focused on you. You knew you had trapped him.

“Because I believe women should be independent.”

“That makes no sense.”

“To you it doesn’t because you’re a guy. Have you ever asked a girl how she feels in a relationship? They are always bound to fulfill the guys’ wishes. I personally think its unfair.” You waved your hand in the air and lifted your head up high.

“But if you will never be in a relationship how will you move on to the next step of life?”

“Steps of life?” you scoffed. “Steps that are set by this society. We don’t need that. We don’t have to find the perfect guy or get married. At least I know I don’t. I have a long life to live and I can’t just bind myself to one guy. I have to explore. I want to be independent. I want to be able to do whatever I want to.”

“You can do all this while being in a relationship too.”

“Really Kris? Really?”

“Yes really. I don’t understand why you don’t believe that?” he asked. He seemed a little frustrated. He wanted to get his point across but you in no way were going to let him win.

“Because I know they are all fake. Nothing lasts forever.” You replied.

“Love does.”

“Oh Please Kris.,” you rolled your eyes.

“Have you ever tried falling in love?”

“Have you?” you asked.

He began to say the words he had been wanting to say for almost a year but something held him back.

“Exactly,” you nodded your head feeling like a victor. You had left him speechless.

“Exactly what?” he asked.

“Kris,” you leaned in closer to him and put your hand on his shoulder. “You should really find someone for yourself. It’s about time. Look at Tao. He is the youngest and even he is ahead of you.”

He didn’t have anything to say but to smile at you. You got up and messed his hair like your usual tradition before walking out the room. The smile on his face hadn’t disappeared. It was still there. In fact every time he thought about you, the same smile embraced his lips. He was madly in love with you while you on the other hand lived in a world of your own.

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“Aaigoo,” Kris mumbled as the thoughts of you occupied his head once again. He grabbed a cushion and pulled it over his head. He kept pressing it until he had trouble breathing and finally had to take it off. He got out of bed and shook his head but what about his heart. It still ached for you. He often questioned himself as to why he was madly in love with someone who acted nothing like girl. Who didn’t know how to dress properly. Who didn’t believe in love. And who would never ever realize how crazy he was about her.

You had somehow taken over his heart without him knowing. It wasn’t love at first sight. In fact the first time he saw you, he was rather disgusted by your mud laden shirt. You had just finished playing soccer with the guys before your Gege introduced you to the EXO M members. After that you hung out with them quiet often. There were times you showed them your girly side but that wasn’t enough for a sane guy to fall for you. Somehow Kris’s heart had managed to deceive him and day by day his feelings for you grew. He wanted to tell you how he felt but he knew you thought of him just as a friend. And then earlier that day you made it pretty clear to him that you were not looking for any sort of a relationship.

 “I can’t do this,” he sighed. Just then Tao walked in.

“Are you talking to yourself again?” he asked turning on the lights in the room.

“What? … no,” Kris shook his head.

“The guys are planning to go to the club. Wanna join?”

“No I’m good here.”

“Oh come on. It’ll be fun. At least you’ll talk to other people over there instead of talking to yourself.” Tao grabbed Kris’ arm and pushed him into the bathroom.

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The club always got the guys hyped up. Luhan and Xiumin jumped into the pool of girls while Tao and his girlfriend occupied a small corner to themselves. Kris stood by Lay and just moved his head from side to side. He wasn’t in the mood to dance that night.

“You didn’t have to come. You’re still not healthy to be out yet.”

“I’m fine. I needed to get some…,” Lay stopped halfway.

“What?” Kris turned to look at him. Lay lifted his hand to rub his eyes.

“What?” Kris asked again.

“Is that __________?” Lay asked pointing to you in the midst of the crowd. “I must be dreaming because it sure looks like she…”

“Is wearing a dress,” Kris completed for him. His jaw dropped at the sight of you dancing rather provocatively with a stranger. At least he thought it was a stranger.

“I don’t believe this,” Lay exclaimed shaking his head.

“I don’t either,” Kris said with a slight hint of anger. He wanted to confront you and so he began walking in your direction but Lay held his hand.

“Where are you going?” he asked.

“To talk to __________.”

“And ask her what?”

“And ask her why she is here.”

“Kris. Are you stupid? This is a club. She can be here whenever she wants to.”

“But not like this,” Kris shrugged his hand out of Lay’s grip and lunged towards you. He had a lot of things that you needed to clear up for him.

“Oh hi Kris” you said, a little bit surprised at his sudden appearance.

“Come with me!,” he said and without a warning grabbed your wrist.

“What are you doing?” you asked as he dragged you out of the club. He was too furious to reply to any of your questions. He stopped in a small, silent corner of the street.

“What’s going on _______?” he asked.

“What do you mean what’s going on? I was having fun at the club and you dragged me out of there. I think you should be answering that question.”

“You’re such a hypocrite,” Kris yelled in anger.

“Hypocrite?” you repeated in bewilderment.

“Yes hypocrite. Didn’t you say earlier today that you didn’t like doing all these things? You wanted to be independent. Then what is all this? Were you lying to me ___________? Is this how you treat people who care about you?”

“You’re hurting me,” you mumbled. Kris didn’t realize when he had held your hand again but he was holding it really tightly, to the point that your blood circulation was about to stop. He released it with a slight hint of guilt but his anger soon replaced it.

“I don’t understand you Kris. I was just having fun. I am allowed to have fun am I not?” you asked, a little bit hurt by his harsh choice of words.

“Fun? Is this your definition of fun? Dancing so close to guys you don’t even know? If you don’t like relationships why would you do such things?” He yelled.

“Why does it matter to you? I can do whatever I want to!,” you yelled back.

“No you can’t,” he pinned you against the wall. “You can’t do whatever you want to.”

“Why can’t I?”

“Because..,” he stopped and just like always scanned your face with his eyes.

“What is it with you? I am tired of this. If you want to say something why don’t you say it?”

“I can’t,” he said, pulling himself away from you.

“Why can’t you?”

“Because there is no use.”

“You have to tell me today,” you said pulling him around to face you.

“You really don’t get it do you?”

You didn’t know how to respond to his question but you were curious to what he had to say.

“I’m in love with you, you …,” he smacked his forehead. His words felt like a glass shatter, breaking the silence in the room. You couldn’t believe your ears. Could it really be true? He had left you in such an awkward position that you didn’t know what to say. You had tried to run away from love all your life and now the one person who you considered to be such a good friend was dragging you right into it. You knew you weren’t the right girl for him. All you were going to do was hurt him. You could never give him what he wanted. He deserved much better than you. He deserved someone who actually believed in love. Someone who was ready to be in a relationship and you were far from that.

“When..?” you shook your head. Tears began forming your eyes as the thought of loosing him started threatening you. “What.. do you mean? I don’t get this Kris.” Your questions made no sense. 

“This is not how I wanted to tell you.”

“Are you stupid?,“ you suddenly snapped. "Why would you say that? Why would you ruin our friendship like this?” you asked while crying.

“_______ I didn’t think it would….,” he sighed. “I am so sorry.”

“No..,” you whispered, shaking your head. Kris took a step towards you and you took one back.

“Don’t,” you lifted your hand to stop him.

“________, please listen to me,” he said.

“No!,” you cried and before he could do anything you began running away. All he could do was call after you but even he had lost all hope. That was not how he wanted to tell you about his feelings. He had scared you away forever. The little chance of you and him being together were gone forever.

Kris lifted his hand and clenched his heart tightly. He knew that it would never stop aching. He would have to learn to live with it forever…

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Ahhhhh even my heart ached writing this one. How could a girl reject such a flawless human being but I guess things like these do happen don’t they?

Anyways, I hope you guys like this :) 

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