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A day with EXO [Baekhyun] - Submission

Best friends with Baekhyun



If I had a day to be with my bias, it would be Baekhyun. We would meet up at a cafe and order sandwiches & drinks to go. We’d hop in my car and drive out into one of the Pacific Northwest’s forests where we would start our picnic hike. 

Baekhyun would carry the sandwiches and drinks in his backpack while we trailed up through the hills, talking the whole while about each of our lives, the US and Korea, what we want do in the future. At the top of the trail, we would find the waterfall we had been hiking for.

It’s beautiful and there is a blue lagoon of glacial water underneath. Still hot from the hike up, and with Baekhyun setting down our lunch, we would immediately both jump in with our clothes on. We’d also jump right back out because it’s so cold. Dragging our wet selves up on the small shore, we would laugh at our craziness and Baekhyun would lay out the blanket that he packed away. I would reach across him to pull the lunch out of sack, but stop in hesitation as I felt his intense stare into my eyes. He’d look into my eyes and say, “This is what I’ve been searching for, but now it’s right in front of me, and I am so happy,” and with that he would sink his soft lips into mine in a gentle kiss. He’d pull me closer with his gorgeous hands intertwined with my hair, and laying the both of us down on the blanket, the numbness from the water would soon be replaced with the pleasant heat radiating from him.

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I was happy seeing this one since I haven’t met a lot of Baekhyun bias. Any guy who would be willing to go on a picnic is the cutest/ mushiest guy ever <3 <3 

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posted 5 years ago with 2 notes

A day with EXO

I was reading all the submissions and it kinda made me want to write one for my Exo biases too. So here is how I would like to spend my day with them: 

Yixing:

We will start our morning with a nice breakfast. Then we will go to the dance studio where he will teach me some of his favorite moves. Then I’ll request him to sing ‘My girl’ and ‘Tears Airport’ for me and also play his guitar. I’ll ask him all sorts of questions that I have always wanted to ask. Tease him about his maroon pants, his forgetfulness and his cute/ oblivious expressions. After that we will come home. Drink some coffee and then fall asleep watching TV. Nothing special, just a normal regular day.

I created a collage of him wearing maroon pants on different occasions:

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And here is one of many videos of him being oblivious.  



Sehun:

I’ll ask him to take me to his school. [I want to see him in his uniform]. After that him and I will go for bubble tea and this time he wouldn’t be allowed to bring Luhan. Then we will go for bumper cars. Bumper cars are fun. If there are more activities nearby we’ll do those too. After that we will get our silly pictures printed on a T shirt and wear them. He wouldn’t like it but I will push him to wear it. At the end of the day he will walk me back home.

Sehun in Uniform: 

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Here’s how he will try to annoy me:

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Kris:

He’s going to arrive late as usual, to pick me up. I’ll get mad at him a little bit but he’ll convince me forcefully and I wouldn’t object to it because I’ll find it very sweet. We will go for a very classy lunch which will be followed by an evening at the museum. After that we will go to a local bookstore where he will buy his favorite books. He’ll take me to expensive stores to buy me whatever I want to. I’ll keep denying but he wouldn’t listen. Later we will go watch a movie or a musical to wrap up the day.

Kris looking awesome: 

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Here’s how he will apologize: 

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Luhan:

We will go for art jamming. Spend almost half the day there. He’ll play around putting paint on my face which I will return with a splatter across his shirt. We will take crazy pictures in the picture corner with the paint on our faces. After that we will go to a river side or a beach and just watch the sunset. He will be too scared/ embarrassed to hold hands. We will walk back home looking at the pictures from the day. He’ll laugh and make fun of me and I’ll do the same.

We will play just like this except that it will be with paint instead of water. 

Him being shy:

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Xiumin:

He will decide to go to a calm place like a river side or a lake where we can book a cabin. He would basically want to spend the whole day talking about everything and anything. We’ll go near the lake and watch the fish then feed something to them. We will try to catch some but fail so we will just buy them from a local fisher and cook them for lunch.  At night we will have a bonfire and make some smores and treat each other to them.

Xiumin’s face while we talk:

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Kyungsoo:

I’ll cook him a nice breakfast before we leave the house. He would want to go to the music stores and look at the latest records. I’ll get bored so he will take me to a pet shop. I’ll beg him to buy me a cute little puppy which he will. We will carry the little puppy back home and bring all the things that are required for him. Then we will spend the rest of the day playing with him.

Him while playing with the puppy: 

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Chanyeol:

His plan will be to show me the new street market he discovered a few days ago. We will walk through them getting fascinated by all the things we will see. After that we will stop a small street restaurant and eat fish balls. He will drag me to a bubble tea place and then to all the stores for guys looking for the best outfit for himself. After getting tired and seeing that I’m getting a little annoyed we will go to the arcade where he’ll let me beat him at all the games. I’ll push him to take pictures with me which he will happily ruin making silly faces. While he walks me back home he will give me a shirt that he bought for me and show me that he bought the same one. I’ll say it’s too cheesy but he will force me to wear it the next time we hang out.

Chanyeol beginning of the day:

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Chanyeol at the end of the day:

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Suho:

Let me decide what I want to do all day. I’ll push him to do something instead. He’ll decide on an unexpected last minute trip to a nearby city. We will run to catch the bus. Him and I will read while listening to music. He’ll take out his camera and start making videos of the scenery and then making a video of me reading. I’ll try to stop him but he’ll win. After reaching our destination we will book a small room in a tiny hotel and then explore the area trying the local food, visiting the small stores and then finally at night come back to a warm cozy bed and fall asleep instantly.  

Suho trying to make me laugh: 

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posted 5 years ago with 14 notes

A day with Exo - Submission

If i were to spend 1 day with my exo biases…

I would like to spend the whole day in a amusement park somewhere riding all of the rides they got…then we would go have dinner and watch a movie…

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Amusements parks with those crazy boys= ULTIMATE fun. I wish we could all actually do that! *sighs* 

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posted 5 years ago with 10 notes

My Day with Exo [Chanyeol]- Submission

I would wake up to my phone ringing. I check to see who it is, and as expected, Chanyeol’s name is on my screen. I quickly answer. His deep voice reverberates in my ear, causing a blush to run across my cheeks and a smile to spread wide on my lips. He asks me to join him at our favorite hidden coffee shop, because he hasn’t seen me in weeks. I check the clock, 7 in the morning. It’s early, but I agree immediately, eager to see his smiling face. I dress, and rush to meet him. As expected, no one is on the streets, it’s a Sunday. As I approach the shop, I see him sitting on the bench by the door. I call his name, and his head shoots up. He stands, bounding over to embrace me. He lifts me and twirls me around, just because he can. Grabbing my hand and lacing his fingers with mine, we enter the small shop. After ordering our drinks and food, we sit in our usual corner seat, kept warm by the sun shining through the window. We chat about everything. How we’ve been doing, how his practice is coming as well as my job. We spend hours in the shop. Then, we stroll up and down the street hand in hand. As we pass a movie theatre, he suggests we stop and catch a movie. I agree, the pain in my feet becoming apparent. As we settle into our back row seats, we instantly snuggle together, pressing ourselves as close to each other as possible. My head on his chest and his arm wrapped securely around me, the movie begins. Halfway through the film, I sneak a peak at Chanyeol. He’s watching the characters intently, the look on his face too cute to handle. I raise up and place a soft kiss on his cheeks. He turns to look at me, and flashes his million dollar smile. I melt, and thank God for the darkness that is concealing my blush. He leans in and plants his lips on top of mine, removing his arms from around my waist to cup my cheeks. He pulls away before I can react to the kiss, returning to his original relaxed position. After the movie, we leisurely walk back to my apartment, stopping frequently to eat, window shop or give in to tempting distractions. As we approach the long stretch of pavement leading to my building, I slow. He turns and ask me what’s wrong. I confess that my feet hurt really bad. He bends down, and tells me to jump on his back. I jump with a giggle and wrap my arms around his neck. As we approach my door, he sets me down. He pulls out the key I had given to him months ago and unlocks the door. He picks me up bridal style and carries me into the living room, maneuvering like a pro around the couch, and enters my bedroom. He turns his back and covers his face cutely. He tells me to change into comfortable clothes. When I’m done, I back hug him and tell him that it’s his turn to change. Like him, I turn my back and cover my face. After he changes, he turns me around and pulls me to the bathroom. We brush our teeth and wash our face, and then race each other to the bedroom, his long legs giving him an unfair advantage. We snuggle under the covers, laughing and catching our breath. He pulls me close, and nuzzles his face into the crook of my neck, his soft hair tickling my ear. Kissing behind my lobe, he leans in and whispers a soft, “I love you” before snuggling closer and falling into a deep sleep. I follow soon after, relishing in feeling his warmth and his scent enveloping me in comfort.


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Your detail/description was so cute even I got giddy. Really adorable! <3 <3 

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posted 5 years ago with 7 notes

A day with Exo. [Chen] -Submission

Well, me and Chen would start off going to Dunkin Doughnuts where I would get my usual Chocolate Chip muffin and Orage Coolata. Then, we would go to the movies and watch Hansel and Gretle(the witch hunting one.) Then after the movie, Chen and I would go to Yogurt Tree for some frozen yogurt. Finally, we would end the day with a Just Dance 1-4 marathon. A perfect day!

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Awww this is adorable. Who doesn’t want to see a dancing Chen? Really cute :) 

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posted 5 years ago

A day with EXO [I’m curious]

I haven’t interacted with you guys in forever so I decided to do this. I saw a post earlier today and I got an idea from it [so it’s not my original idea] 

I want to know how would you guys like to spend your time if you met one or more of your EXO biases. 



NOTES:

1. Don’t send in your answers through the ask box. Send them in through the SUBMISSION box. [If you would like to stay anonymous please write that at the end of the submission]. And feel free to ask any questions if you have any.

2. It doesn’t have to be well written [with beautiful adjectives]. It doesn’t have to be LONG. It can be as short as a paragraph to two pages. The length doesn’t matter. 

3. It can be MORE than one bias from EXO. 

4. Just pour your thoughts out. I know most of you must have thought about meeting your bias once so just write that down. 

5. If I receive enough submissions I will add them to my submissions page. I will do that in a very special way and later post a link so you guys can see it :)

6. I am sorry but this one is only for EXO. [If you really want to write about  a non- Exo bias/es please let me know]


7. EXAMPLE: “I would like to go to the coffee shop and have my favorite mocha. Then we would go to the theater to watch a movie and wrap up the day with a long walk at the park…

[Good luck] 

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posted 5 years ago with 1 note


Don’t be jealous [Chanyeol]

Requested by anon



“Oppaaa, out of all the places in the world you dragged me to this fashion show? Can’t we go somewhere more fun,” you whined. Chanyeol held you by the arm tightly, and pushed through the crowd not listening to your constant complaints. You don’t know how many strings he pulled but he somehow got the both of you good seats.

“Here! See I got us the best seats,” he said as you guys sat down.

“Were you even listening to me this whole time?” you asked.

“Of course,” he replied and then fixed his eyes at the stage. There was no calling him back. Once he immersed himself into something, he never took his eyes off if it. It’s not that you didn’t like fashion shows. You were just a little upset because you barely ever got to see him and instead of spending some quality time he brought you here. You were giving him one of your angry, pouty looks hoping he would turn his head to look at you. He finally did and then half hugged you.

“I’m sorry _________ but you know how important this is for my career right? If they see me here the chances of them picking me again will be higher.”

“I know,” you said sighing deeply. You rested your head on his shoulder and tried to show some interest.

The show was boring, quite the opposite of the very interesting people who were attending it. You yawned and sighed repeatedly but Chanyeol paid no attention to it.

“Tsssk…Tssskkk..,” you heard someone from behind you try to call you. You turned around and your mouth fell half open. You didn’t know if you should be surprised, mad or just remain calm. It was your ex- boyfriend.

“_________ what are you doing at a place like this?” he asked.

“Oh nothing. I’m just here with someone,” you replied.

“Come sit next to me?” he offered.

“Aniya, I’m fine down here,” you replied.

“But you don’t look like you’re having any fun,” he remarked. You rolled your eyes but agreed and got up to sit next to him. Chanyeol didn’t even notice your hand slipping out of his.

Minjun might have been annoying most of the time but he never failed to make you laugh. You were mad at him for the way you two broke up but that was in the past now. You were both much more mature. He didn’t let you down that night either. You laughed at his silly jokes. Lucky for you, your sound got muddled with the noise from the audience and the music.

You and Minjun had no idea when the show ended. Chanyeol turned and almost panicked finding your seat empty. He heard a similar laugh from behind him. He turned around to find you giggling with some random guy. The two of you were getting a little touchy too.

“__________,” he called you. You didn’t hear him which frustrated him more. “__________,” he said again but you were too busy laughing.

“__________, he said this time moving closer to you and shaking you a little.

“Huh! Oh oppa,” you said recovering from your giggles.

“You’re having fun,” he said eyeing Minjun.

“Yea look who I ran in to,” you said holding Minjun’s hand and pulling him forward. “We used to go out a while back.”

“Oh,” Chanyeol let out a short gasp.

They both introduced themselves and then you guys took your leave.

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“What a busy day,” you said entering your little apartment.

“Yeah,” Chanyeol replied and held you from behind.  You elbowed him and turned around. “Ouch,” he said childishly and pulled you before you could walk away.  “Was today really that bad?” he asked. You could see his facial expressions change. He didn’t seem too happy asking that question.

“Oh no it was fun,” you said.

“Yeah I saw, you were having a little too much fun,” he commented. You began to say something but your phone buzzed. You took it out and saw Minjun’s name flashing on the screen.

“Oh look its Minjun,” you said. Normally you didn’t do that but you could sense that Chanyeol was getting jealous so you did it to annoy him. Saying that you released yourself from him and walked into the other room.

Chanyeol walked back and forth in the living room in frustration. He didn’t like his girl friend getting warm and friendly with her ex- boyfriend. An hour passed away and you were still talking on the phone. He lost his patience, walked into the room and took the phone from you.

“What are you doing?” you asked, completely taken aback.

“Stop talking to him,” he said and tossed your phone on the bed.

“He was telling me something important,” you said getting irritated with his attitude.

“I don’t care. I’m here to spend time with you. How about you talk to me.”

“That’s what I wanted too but you weren’t listening to me earlier.”

“I took you to a show? What else did you want?”

“I wanted that? Seriously?” you asked even more irritated. “Just admit it! You’re jealous of Minjun.”

“Me?” he scoffed and pointed to himself. “Me, jealous of him? Yeah right.”

“Yes you are. I can see it on your face. And give me back my phone I need to call him back,” you said advancing towards the bed.

“No,” he said a little more sternly. “I told you, you won’t talk to him again.”

“You can’t stop me from that,” you said.

“Yes I can,” he widened his eyes.

“Oppa,” you pouted and stomped your feet. Chanyeol’s expressions softened a little. He lifted his hand to caress your cheeks but you pushed it away and walked out of the room.

“_______,” he called after you not understanding what had happened. He didn’t know that you were upset earlier too and now he was annoying you even more.

“_________ what happened?” he asked coming out of the room. You were curled up on the couch looking way from him. “You seem like you are mad.”

“I’m not mad. You’re just jealous,” you said.

“I’m not jealous,” he replied sitting beside you. “Okay maybe a little.”

He caught you smile a little and turned your face to him. “I didn’t even know you had an ex- boyfriend and then when I saw you giggle with him and talk to him it made me a little insecure.”

“I only did that because you were too busy to pay attention to me,” you said.

“I’m sorry. I know I was a little too involved in the show. Just please don’t do that to me again,” he said.

“I won’t.” you replied. Chanyeol pulled you into a hug.

“And you won’t talk to him again right?” he asked to make sure.

“Ah that would be hard,” you said pulling away an scrunching your nose childishly.

“Why?” he furrowed his eyebrows.

“Because at the show I was talking to him about you really wanting a chance to walk on the ramp again and he just called me to tell you that he is willing to give you a chance in his show.”

“What! Oh my God _________ I love you,” he said and then showered you with kisses.

“Oppaaaa,” you said trying to push him away but he didn’t stop.

“Wait,” he said suddenly pulling away. “So the whole time that you were with him, you were talking about me?”

“Maybe,” you mumbled under your breath.

“Oh I love you so much,” he said and embraced you once again. “I’m so sorry for ignoring you and being self centered. It will never happen again.” You giggled at his sweet apologies. “And I won’t be jealous either.”

“Aniyaa,” you cut him. “I like it when you do that.” You felt Chanyeol tighten his arms around you and he finished it with a sweet kiss on your neck.

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This one’s short too. I didn’t think it needed to be any longer because that would turn into angsty. I left it short and sweet. Nothing intense.

Hope ya’ll like it :) 

posted 5 years ago with 61 notes

Trust me [Chanyeol]

Requested By Anon



You shuffled through your bag looking for your yellow pills when Chanyeol called your name.

 “It’s ready,” he cried from the kitchen.

“I’m coming,” you yelled back still looking for the pills. You cursed yourself for not buying a small bottle to put them in. The plastic bag somehow always got lost in the midst of everything else.

“________,” you felt Chanyeol’s hand on your shoulder. You jumped around obnoxiously waving your hands all around.

“Are you alright?” he asked opening his eyes wide.

“Ah yea,” you mumbled.

“What are you looking for?”

“Oh nothing,” you pulled him. “Let’s go eat. I can’t wait to try what you’ve cooked for me.”

“It’s nothing special,” he scratched his head, letting your drag him.

You put your nose close to the food, letting the delicious smell tease your saliva. “Oh this smells so goooodd.”

“Try it,” he said, pushing you down on your chair. He sat across you and leaned in, staring at you with his big brown eyes.

“If you look at me like that how will I eat?” you giggled. You took a sip of the soup and surprisingly Chanyeol had done a great job.

“This is actually really good,” you remarked.

“What do you mean actually,” he asked squinting his eyes in a teasing sort of way.

“Aniyo, I didn’t mean it like that,” you said pushing a bowl in front of him. “Come on take some.”

“Ah ye,” he said and bam there was no parting him from his food. You watched him chug down the entire bowl and then rub his tummy with satisfaction.

“You really liked it didn’t you?” you asked.

“Of course. I made it so I had to like it,” he winked at you. He got up to clean the table but you stopped him.

“You’re doing too much,” you held his hand and pushed it lightly.

“No let me do it. This is the least I could do after what I did last week.”

“Oppa,” you whined. “I thought we discussed we weren’t going to talk about it.”

“I know. I’m sorry,” he mumbled. He came closer to you and cupped your tiny face in his hands. He began to say something but stopped. You raised your eyebrows in sort of a questioning way. He shook his head and then immediately planted a kiss on your lips.

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  You tossed and turned in your bed for over an hour. Depressing thoughts and anxiety were killing you. Everything around you seemed dull. You closed your eyes tightly, hoping the thoughts would go away but you knew it was impossible. Human mind is a strong slate that can do very strange things to you.

“I can do this,” you whispered to yourself. “Just one more hour ________. Come on keep testing yourself. You’re strong.” You tried to motivate yourself but it seemed harder and harder with every passing minute. You pushed away the covers and sat up, breathing heavily as the sweat beads on your forehead began to trickle down your face. That was it. You had hit your breaking point. Your hands automatically reached for the drawer. You moved it around violently, in the dark, looking for the same yellow pills. After a few minutes of intense searching you finally turned on the lights, found the tablets and reached for the water. No matter how hard you tried, the pills were like a plague attached to your life. It had been over 6 months that you had been taking them. You were still debating if you should tell Chanyeol about it or not. The guilt on top of the depressive thoughts killed you every day. You two had promised each other to share every secret but this. This was different. You loved him. You didn’t want him to run away from you.

Your heavy breathing finally started to stabilize. You pushed your hair back and got back under the covers. Just then your bedroom door flew open and a hyper Chanyeol made an appearance.

“How is my princess?” he asked spreading his arms in the air.

“Oh my goodness,” you clenched your heart. “You scared me.”

“I’m sorry,” he laughed and jumped into the bed. You slid your hand back on the night stand and pushed the bag of pills inside the drawer. Chanyeol saw you but instead of saying anything he pretended like he didn’t see anything. Last time he had asked you about them, it did not end pretty. You guys fought for almost forever and then he tried to make up a week later by preparing lunch for you.

“I thought you’d be a sleep,” he said grabbing you like a doll and pulling you closer.

“Ah yea I was just having..,” you shook your head to give yourself some time to think of an excuse. “I was just really tired. My body hurts.”

“I bet it was because of starting your workout right?” he asked.

“Ye,” you mumbled.

“I told you, you don’t have to do anything. You are just fine.” He lifted you and turned you around.

“What are you doing?” you asked.

“About to give you a back massage.”

“Oh no. Oppa you don’t have to do that.”

“Shhhh,” he hummed and began running his firm but soothing hands on your back. You felt like you were in heaven. Your body began feeling lighter.

“Oh this is so good,” you moaned.

“See I told you, you would love it,” he muttered. “Now watch this. This will make you feel even better.” He slid his hands around your waist and then up to your shoulder, slowly hitting the pressure points.

“Where did you learn this from? This feels soooooo good,” you mumbled once again.

“Really? You like it?” he asked.

“Yes, I love it..”

“Okay then let’s do something you’ll love even more,” he said and turned you around to face him. You smiled as he removed the strands of hair from your face. You returned his kindness with a smile but you knew you had to reject his request. It would be dangerous for you. You had just taken the pills. The doctor had specifically warned you to not indulge in sexual activities after taking them. Too much excitement could lead to dangerous outcomes.

“Ahhh I’m still a little tired. How about some other night,” you replied.

“But the last time we did it was almost three months ago,” he said trying to keep his cool.

“I know. I’m sorry but I just..”

“You know what, that’s fine,” he said forcing himself to smile. “I will not argue with you about this.” He removed his slender body from on top of you and laid down next to you.

“It’s not like that,” you placed your hand over his chest and rubbed it.

“It’s alright. You don’t have to explain anything.”

It hurt you to see him try so hard to fake his feelings. He was obviously very disheartened but there was nothing you could do. You loved him too much to let him go.

“I love you,” you whispered placing your head on his arm. He used his other arm to press your body against his and then gave you a soft kiss on your temple. “I love you too.”

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  Your depressive state was kicking in once again when Chanyeol called you. He had invited you to go to  this formal dance that the company was throwing. Even though your relationship was a secret, bringing a date was totally fine. They wouldn’t suspect a thing. You tried to refuse but his constant begging made you give in. He had done so much for you in the recent days that saying no would seem cruel.

You picked out the black dress as he had requested and slipped it on. You looked at your image in the mirror. Your heart told you, you looked beautiful but your brain opposed them. You felt ugly and worthless. Shaking your head didn’t help. It was time to take your pills again. You took a deep breath and grabbed yourself a glass of water.

Chanyeol walked into the apartment but you didn’t hear him. He liked making surprising entrances. He didn’t know that the one tonight was going to change everything forever. You lifted your hand with the yellow pills in it when he walked in on you. Both you and him stared at each other for a moment. The moment seemed like forever.

“I thought you said you weren’t going to take them anymore.”

“You don’t understand,” you immediately defended yourself.

“I don’t understand? So how about you tell me what’s going on?” he said walking towards you. Your head felt dizzy. You took a step back and the next moment you felt like somebody grabbing you with both hands.

“Give them to me,” he said sternly.

“No,” you shook your head.

“_________ I won’t let you take them until I know what they are for.”

“They are important okay,” you yelled, pushing him back.

“What is wrong with you?” he asked fixing his shirt, completely surprised at your sudden reaction.

“There’s nothing wrong with me,” you said grinding your teeth. Chanyeol pulled you and forcefully took the pills out of your hand.

“No! give them back to me,” you cried angrily.

“Calm down _________,” he held both your arms.

“Give them back to me,” you yelled once again.

“Shut up,” he yelled too this time.

“Go away. Okay just go away. I don’t need you in my life,” you screamed out of frustration.

“What?” he gasped taking a step back. You felt stupid for blurting out such horrible words.

“No no no I didn’t mean it like that,” you took a step towards him. Your head felt dizzy once again and your stomach growled reminding you that you hadn’t eaten anything in almost 24 hours.

“Please listen to me,” you uttered as tears rolled out of your eyes. Chanyeol turned around and began walking out. “No please listen,” you tried to hold on to his sleeve but he violently shrugged you away.

“Oppa please,” you begged. He didn’t listen and walked out of the apartment, still clenching the pills in his hand. You pressed your hand against your forehead to mediate the pain but it kept kicking in. Each time more severe than the last. “Oppa!,” you whispered one last time before you landed on the floor…

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A tear rolled out of his eyes that once twinkled upon every thought of you. He viciously wiped them away and started walking even faster. The cold breezes were sneaking in through the tiny spaces between the buttons of his jacket. They ran a shudder through his shivering body. He lifted his hands to look at the rectangular pieces of solid. Those were the reason you were not in his life anymore. He wanted to throw them away but just then a thought occurred to him. You didn’t seem to be in your normal state when you yelled at him. Something seemed different about you. The way your lips quivered and your eyes moved from side to side, your immense strength. Something had to be up. Just then Chanyeol turned around and ran back towards your apartment.

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“_________,” he yelled your name from across the hallway. There was no response. “I am so sorry. I don’t know what happened to me and I know you didn’t know what you were saying either. Please talk to me and tell me what’s going on. I rea…” his words fell halfway when he discovered your motionless body on the floor.

“_________,” he lunged towards you. He shook your body repeatedly and put his head close to your heart. “__________ talk to me,” he cried once again. “Oh my God what’s happening?What’s happening?” he moved his head from side to side. He seemed disheveled, holding you close to his chest, and rocking his body back and forth. Tears came flooding out and his throat felt completely dry.

“Talk to me please,” he shook you again. “I didn’t mean to run away. I’m sorry. Please listen to me.”

He felt your faint breathing on his hand and some hope came back to him. You were still alive. He lifted you up and ran towards his car. There was no time to lose..

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“________ has been through a lot in the past 6 months. I am surprised she didn’t tell you about anything. You say you guys have been together for over a year now right?”

“Ye,” Chanyeol nodded his head.

“I don’t understand why she wouldn’t tell you. Did you guys have a healthy relationship?” the doctor asked.

“Yes absolutely. I didn’t think anything was wrong. What happened to her?” he asked.

“She had been seeing a psychologist for the past 6 months. She was diagnosed with clinical depression and therefore she had to see a therapist. She’s been taking these pills ever since. One of the side effects of the treatment is loss of appetite. She was admitted into the hospital, I believe, a month ago since she had completely stopped eating. The same thing happened today and now here she is once again.”

Chanyeol found himself completely dumbfounded. He didn’t know what to say. A lot of information had been thrown at him at once.

“I don’t understand. Everything was fine between us. Could it be my fault?” he pushed his hair back using his left hand.

“It can’t be your fault.. or anyone’s fault actually.” The doctor put a hand on his shoulder. “Let’s just hope she gets better and now that you know about this, maybe you can help her. This treatment will work if she learns to be happy everyday and I’m sure you can give her that.”

Chanyeol nodded his head, still completely shaken. He needed some time to take in what he had been bombarded with.

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You woke up to the sound of the hissing door as it opened. A familiar figure walked towards you and settled down on the little space available on the bed. He held your hand and lifted it to plant a kiss. The other hand then caressed your cheeks and the next moment you felt his lips pressed against your cheeks. The familiar fragrance brought a smile to your face. He hadn’t left after all. He was there.

“Everything will be just fine,” he whispered giving you another peck on your forehead.

“I’m sorry,” you mumbled.

“Shhhh,” he brought his finger to the top of your lips. He shook his head and then kissed your hands again. You tightened your grip on his hand and closed your eyes. A little part of your worries was gone now that you knew he was in this with you. He wasn’t going anywhere…

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I know I changed the depressive state a little bit but I figured I had to do it to fit it better with the plot. I hope you like it anon <3 

posted 6 years ago with 89 notes

Neglected [Kai]

Requested by sujugirl



You sat on a staircase across the main entrance to the south campus of your university. That had been your reserved spot for almost three years. Whenever you had free time you would go there to relax and get everything off of your mind. You plugged in your head phones and closed your eyes, blocking out the rest of the world.  

“Are you listening to those gay boys again,” your friend said hitting you lightly on the back of your head.

“Stop it Ariel,” you said with slight irritation and ignoring her comment. She pulled the head phones out of your ears and frowned cheekily.

“What?” you snapped.

“Wohoooo, what’s wrong with you?” she asked lifting her hands. You had taken her by surprise with your immediate and intense reaction.

“Nothing,” you mumbled. No matter how annoying she could get sometimes, you still adored her. You had been friends way too long to let her hate for your kpop obsession get in the way.

“Oh I get it. Is it because I called your precious boys gay, again?” she asked

“Ariel,” you said a bit sternly this time.

“Okay, okay I’ll stop if it makes you happy.”

“Thank you,” you made a brief reply before indulging yourself back into the music. You closed your eyes, letting the light air brush your naked arms. The corner of your lips curved into a beautiful smile.

“________,” she called your name shortly after.

“Hmmmm,” you replied.

“Is there something you’re hiding from me?” she asked, looking for signs of change in your facial expression.

“No,” you responded.

“Yes you are. I saw your nose cringe.” She snapped her finger in your face, forcing you to open your eyes.

“No I didn’t,” you tried to cover up and looked away.

“Then why are you hiding your face from me?” she sounded even more suspicious this time.

“It’s nothing,” you tried to let it slip but you knew sooner or later you would have to tell her and your other friends.

“__________,” she said your name with full emphasis. This meant that she was serious. She definitely knew something was up. You hated her for knowing you so well.

“Well,” you shifted sides so you wouldn’t have to make eye contact with her. “There’s this guy.”

“Oh Gosh there’s a guy, there’s a guy.. there’s a guyyyyy,” Ariel began singing in a deep voice.

“Stop,” you turned around and held her hand.

“What’s going on?” John asked approaching both you and her. Sunie followed close behind.

“________’s got a guy.”

“Ariellll,” you nudged her.

“What? Really? Why are you hiding it from us?”

“Come on _______, tell us who it is?” John sat, putting his hand around your shoulder.

“I didn’t want to tell you guys because..”

“Because…” he raised his eyebrows waiting for you to finish your statement.

“He is Korean,” you mumbled.

**What** - the three of them gasped as their jaw dropped in surprise.

“Yep,” you nodded, keeping your gaze fixed on the ground.

“How long?” Sunie asked.

“6 months.”

**6 months**- they cried once again.

“When were you going to tell us?” Ariel hit you and this time she made sure it would hurt.

“I didn’t want to tell you guys because of the way you would react.”

“What do you mean?” John asked.

“He is Korean and you guys hate my Korean obsession.”

The three pattering figures fell silent and gazed at each other from time to time. You were right. They had always nagged you about it and now that you were dating a Korean guy, they really didn’t know what to say. You had taken them by complete surprise.

“Well?” you asked, hoping they had something nice to say.

“Umm we would like to meet him.” Sunie said putting her hand on your shoulder. She always tried to make you feel comfortable with her warm smile.

“Yea,” John and Ariel added.

“Okay but don’t be awkward around him. He’s an exchange student here so he doesn’t know the norms. Please make him comfortable.”

The three of them nodded in agreement. You shook your head lightly before getting up to leave. You could only hope that things would go well and they wouldn’t mess anything up.

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Just as you were about to close your dorm room door you felt someone come up behind you. Before you could turn around, two hands covered your eyes and pushed you in. You heard the door close and right then you knew who it was.

“Kai I know it’s you,” you said turning around. He pulled his hands away, greeting you with him warm smile and twinkling eyes. He leaned in to kiss you.

“Don’t you..have.. class?” you asked between the short kisses. He shook his head, dragging you towards the wall.

“I have to tell you something,” you tried to tell him but he was too busy gracing your soft skin with his lips to listen.

“Kai, seriously I have to tell you something,” you said.

“You can tell me later,” he replied in his broken but adorable English. You couldn’t resist his cuteness and submitted to his wishes. The thought kept bugging you so you finally pulled away.

“I want you to meet my friends,” you blurted out before he could pull you back.

“Whaaaa,” he gasped with his eyes wide open.

“Ye,” you nodded.

“But you told me you weren’t going to tell them anytime soon.”

“I had to. It’s been 6 months. I don’t want to keep any secrets. I love them,”

“And what about me?”

“I love you too,” you said without thinking. The wrinkles on Kai’s forehead disappeared and his pale cheeks started to turn red once again. A sweet smile embraced his face. It was the first time you had said that to him. He looked away shyly and walked to the window. You were also embarrassed but more importantly you were disappointed. Sure you’d blurted it out but he could have the courtesy to return the statement. You shook your head out of your thoughts. You had more important things to worry about at the moment.

“They’ll love you. I promise,” you said walking up to him.

“But you said that they hated my culture.”

“I didn’t say that… I said they hated my obsession with it,” you replied, placing your hand on his shoulder.

“But still,” he turned around and held your hands.

“Don’t be nervous. They’re just my friends.”

“Yes and I want to make a good impression on them.”

“Then what’s the worry?”

“What do you mean?” he asked.

“You are so adorable, they’ll love you without you having to try,” you tried to pull his nose but he stopped you and instead planted another kiss on your lips.

“You know how to make me happy don’t you?”

“Of course,” you smiled cheekily. “Now come on get ready.”

“What? We are meeting them now?” he cried in surprise.

“Yep,” you said running into your bathroom.

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“Bowling? Bolwing? Seriously ___________? “Kai asked while you pushed him inside the small building.

“Come on, it’ll be fun.”

“Why couldn’t we go for Karaoke or something,” he made a face.

“Seriously Kai? Seriously?”

“What?”

“If you want them to like you then just do as I say okay. Believe me Karaoke will not help your case,” you winked at him and held his hand to comfort him.

“Hey,” Ariel greeted while John and Sunie followed close behind. You introduced everyone to Kai and them to Kai. They smiled nervously and looked from here to there.

“Umm let’s get the shoes. Did you guys get the lane?” you asked, clapping your hands.

“Ah yeah,” John replied. “Let’s go.” He pulled your hand from Kai’s and began walking you to the lane. You turned around to look at Kai. His skin had grown pale and you could tell that he was shaking.

“Come on,” you mouthed the words.

“Guys why did you leave him there?” you said sternly, getting up to get Kai. You saw him walk towards the group slowly.

“We can’t really walk him everywhere like a baby you know,” Ariel said, rolling her eyes. You were about to reply when you felt Kai’s hand on your shoulder.

“They don’t have my shoe size.”

“What’s your shoe size man?” John asked.

“10,” he mumbled.

“Awww I think I took the last pair. The place looks pretty packed tonight.”

“What are we going to do now?” you pouted.

“Don’t worry. I’ll just watch you guys.”

“No, that won’t be fun. I want you to have fun,”

“I’ll be fine _________,” he insisted.

“Don’t worry,” John slapped his hand on Kai’s shoulder. “I’ll give you mine when I’m done okay?”

“Yeah,” Kai replied with a forced smile.

“No guys this isn’t right,” you whined.

“________ I’ll be fine. Don’t mess up their day because of me okay?” Kai whispered, pulling you to the side.

“But..”

“Shhh,” he put his finger close to your lips. “Now go.”

Ariel did the honors of starting. Sunie preceded you. You got up, picked up the lightest ball and fixed your position.

“Wohoooo,” John cried.

“I got this you guys, I got this,” you said cheekily and woosh slid the ball.  

“Wahhaaaaaa,” Ariel and John jumped as you made a strike. You brushed your hair from your face with a sense of pride and walked back on what you perceived to be your victory platform.

“Don’t get too cocky. The game just started,” John patted your shoulder. You glanced at Kai who was busy scrolling through his phone.

“Kai,” you pouted.

“Hmm,” he looked up.

“You didn’t see that?” you asked with a disappointed face.

“What?” he asked looking completely oblivious to his surroundings. After that you didn’t have the heart to play. You tried to enjoy but your mind was fixed at Kai’s behavior. Why was he being so silly? Why couldn’t he just have fun with you and your friends? It hurt you a little bit but you let it slide.

“So that was a fun game.” John remarked taking off his shoes.

“Kai do you want to play now?” you asked.

“Oh I think we ran out of time and we can’t book the lane again for like another hour or so,” Sunie said apologetically.

“What?” you snapped.

“It’s fine. I’m a little tired anyways,” Kai replied getting up.

“No stay, we still have to eat,” you held his hand.

“No I’m not really hungry either,” he mumbled. He looked at you with such an intense yet depressing gaze that you had to let go of his hand.

“Alright see you man,” John waved at Kai and so did the girls. You turned around to look at him hoping he would be looking at you too but he wasn’t. His figure hazed into the pool of people leaving you more depressed than ever.

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You were mad at Kai. You needed to talk to him and figure out things. There were a lot of things on your mind. Starting from the unreturned ‘I love you’ to him leaving early and then everything in the middle.

“Kai,” you mumbled his name, poking your head inside his room. It wasn’t that late but you found him curled up under the covers.

“Are you alright?” you asked pulling them from on top of him.

“Huh! When you get here?” he asked.

“Just now,” you replied and made yourself comfortable beside him. “What happened there? Why did you leave?”

“I was just really tired,” he replied pulling you closer to himself.

“If you don’t tell me, how will I be able to help you? I know something’s wrong and I don’t like it. Please tell me Kai,” you insisted. “Did you not like them?”

“That’s not the question.”

“What do you mean?” you asked.

“The question is whether they liked me or not and clearly they didn’t.”

“That’s not true.”

“Yes, couldn’t you see it __________. The way they looked at me up and down. The way they greeted me and John.. he literally just took you out of my hands. No one bothered talking to me. I felt like I was just .. there. They hate me________ and ..and all I know is that if we were in Korea right now and you were meeting my friends, they would decide to rather do something else than let you sit out alone. They could at least have the courtesy to propose a different activity if I bowl? Why didn’t they? Obviously because they don’t feel like I am important enough. I don’t like being neglected or ignored.”

“Kai..” you began but he cut you short.

“They made it pretty clear that they don’t approve our relationship. Why are they like this? We don’t do such things back home.”

You tried to explain yourself but clearly you had nothing to say. Yes there were cultural differences and you were just now realizing it. You didn’t think it would bother him if you had overfriendly guy friends. More importantly you felt extremely stupid for blaming Kai for all of this in your thoughts. He wasn’t being a party pooper. It was your friends who were making him feel left out and you were just going with the flow. If you were in his position you were sure you would run out crying and blaming Kai for everything. He had every right to be mad but he remained calm. You thanked God for not being stupid and storming in on him with your long tirade that you had prepared in your head.

“I’m sorry I didn’t realize how you felt. I shouldn’t have pushed you Kai. It’s all my fault,“ you covered your face with your hands.

“It’s not your fault. It’s just…why can’t we just be a normal couple _________?” he removed your hand from your face and gazed into your eyes. The twinkle that was usually there wasn’t visible anymore.

“We are a normal couple,” you said. You got up and kneeled on your knees, putting your arms around his shoulder. “If it bothers you then I won’t force you to meet them again until you’re ready and I’ll talk to them about this too.”

“No I don’t want you to that,” he said immediately.

“It’ll be fine. Just leave it to me,” you replied. Kai pulled you into a hug planting soft kisses on your neck.

“_________,” he mumbled your name.

“Hmmm,” you murmured.

“I love you,” he whispered. You felt goosebumps on your entire body. Your heart began racing and your lips quivered.

“Whaa,” you gasped getting teary eyed.

“Are you crying?” he asked worriedly.

“No,” you wiped the forming tears and pushed him.

“Yes you are,” he teased you with his smirk. You yourself couldn’t understand why.

Sometimes our heart feels things that we have pushed deep down. The three words coming out of his mouth made you realize how much you were craving to hear them. Your tears were a pure reflection of your feelings.

“I love you too,” you said before connecting your lips to his.

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Took me a while to write this one because I kept getting distracted but I’m happy with the ending. I hope you guys like it too :) *fingers crossed* 

posted 6 years ago with 55 notes

For the people who were curious 

NOTE: This is what I have come up after watching [Literally] everything and anything EXO has been on [Yes I mean fancams too]. There is a lot more to these people than the typical stereotypes they are given. Yes those are true but we shouldn’t neglect the other qualities about them.  My analysis will change as time goes by since we will get to know them more [Just like ELF’s did with Suju] so don’t take it to heart if my opinions contradict yours. I would definitely like to know you guy’s opinion so do send in your comments :). If I agree with them, I might even add them to the analysis [that is if you would allow me too :) ] 



posted 6 years ago with 20 notes

New Idea.

I am thinking of adding yet another page to the blog which will consist of my analysis of the Exo boys. Is it a good idea? 

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posted 6 years ago with 8 notes

HyukshinJust finished the session with Exo-K.. The song came out so crazy!!!
Hyukshin: With Exo-M.. 16 hour long session.. But it was worth it!
posted 6 years ago with 55 notes

I promise [Sehun]

Requested by anon 




You tip toed into Exo K’s dorm to surprise Sehun. It was early in the morning and you were sure he would be a sleep.

“What are you doing here so early?” Kai asked walking out the room, still stretching and yawning.

“Shhhhhhhh.” You glared at him, putting your finger close to your lips.

“Oh, you’re trying to scare him,” he whispered. You nodded and continued to the room. As soon as you poked your head inside, Sehun popped in front of you. You immediately jumped back clenching your fist close to your heart.

“How did you know I was coming?” you asked. Your eyes were wide open and your heart was racing.

“I was half awake when I heard Kai,” he winked at you, pulling you closer to him.

“Kai oppa,” you made a face and snapped your fingers.

“Hey hey hey, don’t worry, you’ll get plenty of chances to scare me.”

“Really?” you said leaning in closer to him. “And why is your mood so good today?”

“My mood is always good,” he replied. You gave him one of you classic looks, as if he was hiding something. Sehun was never the talking type. In fact he barely ever talked, while you pattered all the time.

“It’s really nothing,” he chuckled. “Can’t I be all cheerful for once?”

“Of course,” you said finally letting that smile you had been holding back to appear on your face. Sehun leaned in and gave you a quick peck.

“Oh my God, and I get a kiss too? Wow it must be my lucky day,” you teased him.

“Aish,” he patted you and dragged you out the room. He had a lot going on his mind. He knew he had to fix what he had done wrong and making you happy was the only way he could come over his guilt.

Everybody settled down on the breakfast table. You helped Suho and Kyungsoo set up the food. The other boys never bothered doing anything.

“You guys should really help around sometimes.”

“Sorry no can’t do,” Kai said pouting cutely. “Hyungs lost in scissor, paper, rock.”

“Oh gosh you guys and your silly games,” you shook your head, sitting opposite Sehun. He seemed to be lost.

“Are you okay?” you asked. He didn’t respond, but instead continued to stare at his empty plate. You looked at Kai and then back to Sehun. Kai lifted his hand to stop you from calling his name again. He got up, stood behind Sehun and smacked the back of his head.

“Huh,” Sehun shook his head violently from side to side. “What happened?”

“Where are you lost?” both you and Baekhyun asked at the same time. Before he could answer, the room filled with laughter. Sehun’s surprised expressions were way too funny for anyone to hold back their laughter.

“I hate all of you,” he cringed his nose.

“Okay everybody eat quietly,” Suho announced. There was no defying, his orders. You looked at Sehun from time to time. There was clearly something bothering him. You wanted to know what it was but you couldn’t force it out of him. You respected his privacy. If it was something important, he would tell you himself.

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Your friends had forced you to party on a weekday. You were regretting it since you had to sneak back into your dorm now. The university admins were pretty harsh if someone didn’t follow the rules. You had sneaked in a bunch of times so it wasn’t as hard. Just as you were about to unlock your room’s door your phone buzzed.

I’m outside your dorm. Come get me..’ ­– it was from Sehun.

Are you kidding me? I just sneaked in myself.’

‘Just come get meeeee..’ –he insisted.

You didn’t have a choice but to go get him.

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“Can you tell me ahead of time next time if you’re coming so I can be ready?” you pouted as the two of you entered your dorm.

“Mianhe,” he mumbled.

“What?” you turned around, a little surprised yet amused. “Did you just say mianhe?”

“Oh please don’t get started with it again,” Sehun chuckled.

“But you never say sorry,” you said.

“Maybe I’m trying to change things up a little bit.”

“Really?” you asked.

“Ye,” he said sighing deeply.

“Then,” you walked closer and put your arms around him, “how about you start smiling more often. Last time I saw you smile was ….. “ you paused and made a sort of funny expression to mock him for never smiling. “Never,” you finally finished your sentence.

“Aish,” he shook his head. “I do smile… see.” He pulled a smile.

“That’s good. Now let’s work on making it look a little more natural,” you patted his chest and turned around to unpack.

“Do you have stuff due tomorrow?” he asked.

“Nope.”

“Oh really because I was thinking..” he trailed off and held you from behind.

“What?” you asked turning around. You sort of got the hint but you weren’t sure. 

“Umm…,” he paused to clear his throat. “I was thinking.. if we could…you know.”

“Watch a movie?” you filled in for him. You were trying to change the topic because you felt like you weren’t ready for it yet and you didn’t want to disappoint him.

“Ahh yeah,” he mumbled. Both you and him jumped into bed, cuddling close to each other. you lay your head on his chest and he rested his arm around you.

“Well this is fun,” he said staring at the screen.

“Then what do you want to do?” you asked, lifting your head slightly. He sat up forcing you to sit up too. Before you could say anything he connected his lips to yours. He didn’t give you a chance to refuse this time and began taking off your cloths. You thought for a brief second but gave in. You had been with him for almost a year. It was finally time- you figured.

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Sehun was already in the bathroom when you woke up the next morning. You wouldn’t have woken up that early, had his phone not buzzed.

“Oppa,” you mumbled from under the sheets. He obviously couldn’t hear you. You grabbed his phone in frustration and were about to toss it away but something caught your eye. It was an unknown number. 7 missed calls. You stared at the small flashing screen for a long time. Not wanting to, you opened the messages that Sehun had received from the number.

1.  ‘What’s the matter with you?’

2. ‘Pick up the phone Sehun’

3. ‘I’ll tell her all about it if you don’t pick up my phone…’

4. ‘ Okay meet me at café at 5 today otherwise I’ll do something that will destroy you..’

Your jaw dropped in surprise. Who was this person? What did they want? Why were they threatening your boyfriend? You heard the bathroom door clicked so you quickly put the phone away and pretended to sleep. He sat beside you, looked at his phone, shook his head and put it away.  He turned around, looking at you with his loving eyes. He gave you a quick peck and quickly left.

Now it was up to you to make the decision. Were you going to follow him and see who he was meeting or were you going to trust him? There was a lot going on in your head. You had to make sure he was safe. The messages were so vague, you were afraid he might be in some big trouble.

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You reached the café a little before five. You chose a small, dark corner and made yourself comfortable. You covered half your face with a scarf so nobody would recognize you. There were very few people in there. A couple sitting in the other corner. An old man ordering his coffee and a girl sitting two tables down from you.

Sehun walked in at exactly 5 o clock. Your heard began racing. It nearly popped out when he went and sat across the girl who was sitting very close to you.

“What do you want?” he asked grinding his teeth.

“I want you to leave her. Is that too much to ask for?” she said.

Your mouth fell open. Could she be talking about you? You turned your head slightly to look at them. Sehun seemed tensed, clenching his fist and grinding his teeth.

“I told you I can’t do that.”

“Then why don’t you just tell her that you slept with me so you can make things easy for her.”

“Shut up,” he snapped.

Your heart sank at the words you had just heard. You felt like everything had stopped for a second. Nothing was making sense. You had just spent a wonderful night with him but all of it was a lie. He was lying to you the whole time. He was cheating on you and you accepting all of his wishes like a fool.

“You told me you loved me Sehun,” she said. Her voice choked and she began crying.

“I’m sorry,” Sehun whispered. You couldn’t take it anymore. A gush of disgust took over you. You sprang out of your chair and walked up to the two of them. Sehun gasped and got up immediately.

“_________,” your name came out of his mouth effortlessly. You had prepared yourself to slap him across his face for what he had done but for some reason the closer you got, more of your energy began to drain out of your body. Both you and him didn’t leave each other’s strong gaze for even a second. You were about to cry and so was he. You lifted your hand but it dropped automatically.

“I … never..want to see ..you ..again,” you said in broken words and ran out the door before he could stop you.

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Sehun knocked on your door everyday for the next week but you never bothered to open the door. He had no idea how much he’d hurt you. You tried hard to overcome the pain but it didn’t go away. How could it? You had trusted him with all your heart and he had betrayed you. In fact he had used you.

“Go away Sehun,” you yelled. You were getting tired of him coming every morning and standing outside your door, begging you to open it.

“It’s me Kai,” the voice from the other side said.

“Did Sehun bring you here?” you asked.

“__________  just open the door.”

“No!,”

“He is not here,” he said after a while.

“Liar.”

“Come and look if you want to.”

You walked up to the door and looked through the peep hole. He was right. Sehun wasn’t there.

“What do you want?” you asked.

“Just open the door. I want to talk to you.”

You gave in, and opened the door slightly. You felt a stronger force push it more. Sehun had been hiding on the side.

“Oppa,” you shot a disgusted look at Kai.

“_____________, please hear him out for once, please. He’s been so miserable for the past week. He is to embarrassed to tell anyone. I’m the only one who knows about this. Please listen to him.”

“How could you?” you asked.

“I’m sorry.” Kai replied and pushed Sehun inside. He closed the door so the two of you could have some privacy.

“Go away Sehun,” you yelled.

“__________ please listen to me at least once.” He put his hand n your shoulder. You shrugged it off.

“I’m really sorry.”

“No you’re not. All the niceness was all an act wasn’t it?” you turned around to reveal your puffy eyes. “You used me to get over your guilt. How could you Sehun. You forced me to do it just because you wanted to wash away your own wrong doings. How could you be so selfish? You should have just left me instead.”

“I couldn’t.”

“WHY?” you yelled once again.

“Because I love you _________.” He grabbed you tightly.

“No you don’t,” you struggled to loosen his grip.

“I do. I love you and only you. I just got carried away and I don’t know what happened to me. But, now I’ve realized that I love you not her.”

“Sleeping with her made you realize that?” you asked, even more disgusted this time. Sehun stared at you blankly. He was trying to form the words but obviously he didn’t have anything to say.

“You know what I have a better idea. How about I cheat on you to make it even? How about I go sleep with someone else?” you proposed. Sehun glared at you with his bloodshot eyes. Did you really mean what you were saying?

“Does that sound fair? Maybe then I’ll be able to forgive you?” you asked.

“What?” he shook his head in disbelief.

“Exactly,” you scoffed. “Now you know how it feels right?”

“___________ I’m really sorry. If I didn’t care about you I wouldn’t have come back to you. I wouldn’t have begged you. I made a mistake and I’ve regretted it every day. I still do.” He held you more softly this time. “I’m really afraid to lose you.”

“And you weren’t when you were cheating on me?”

“I was stupid. I didn’t realize your worth but now I do.” 

“Do you?” you raised your eyebrows.

“I do. You have no idea how much I hate myself for hurting you. Call me heartless but I didn’t feel anything when I saw her cry but when I saw tears in your eyes, I felt like a knife was running through my heart. I couldn’t take it and I know it’s because I love you. I promise it will never happen again. I’ve made such a horrible mistake that can’t be forgiven but I’m asking you for forgiveness because I know you have a good heart. I know you love me _________. You keep up with me, despite my weird attitude. Only you can understand me. I don’t have to be different around you. Just.. please..,” he sighed and hugged you. You placed your hands on his chest to create some distance between the two of you.

“I’m scared,” you mumbled after many minutes of silence.

“If you give me another chance you’ll never have to be scared again,” he replied.

“But what if you..”

“It won’t. I promise,” he hugged you more tightly. You slid your hands behind him and hugged him back.

“Thank-you,” you heard him whisper.

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Sehun doesn’t seem like the type who would cheat on his girlfriend. So I know anon who requested it wanted me to elaborate on the ‘girl cheating on him’ but I just couldn’t do it. It all felt too weird so I just added it as a suggestion. 

posted 6 years ago with 79 notes

Guilt [Chanyeol]

Requested By Anon



“And then when I walked past him he actually made an effort to look at me. Like oh my God can you believe this? It’s like I’m not invisible anymore? His big eyes and creepy smile is so adorable. I’m just so happy..”

“Oh goodness would you stop talking about him?” you begged your friend. You were starting to think that recommending her to the SM Company was a bad idea. Ever since she had started working, all she talked about was Exo. You were a little glad you weren’t working for them. You were perfectly happy working for F(x).

“You’re just jealous you don’t work for Exo,” she teased you.

“Agh,” you scoffed. “I don’t like them anyways. They are just some stuck up rookies.”

“Aish, don’t say that out loud. If people around you hear you they’ll snap at you.”

“What? We aren’t even at work right now,” you said, sounding really irritated.

“Aaaa but everybody loves them. Exo fans are everywhere,” she leaned in closer to you. “Everywhere!”

“Oh Gosh, Se na you’re scaring me now,” you said pushing her lightly. You and her had been friends since elementary school. Both of you adored each other like sisters. 

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Getting the wardrobe ready for the girls was a very difficult task. It was almost next to impossible due to thousands of changes being made right before their schedules. Amber looked at you apologetically as you ran around trying to figure out what to do. You were glad that you worked for them because they treated you like their younger sister. They were very cooperative too.

“We’ll take it from here ________. You should go rest,” Victoria patted your back.

“Aish, it’s alright,” you replied still trying to fix the problem.

“No, seriously you’ve been running around since this morning. This isn’t even your job. Take some time out okay?” With that said she dragged you out of the room, knowing that was the only way since you were really stubborn.

“Now what,” you mumbled scratching your head.

“Hey,” a voice said from behind you.

“Hey,” you greeted turning around. “Ah, Chanyeol si,” you bowed.

“Oh please call me oppa,” he said and winked at you with his cheeky smile.  However, looking at the flat expression on your face, it slowly started to disappear.

“I’m guessing you don’t know how to smile?” he said, closing one of his eyes.

“Huh!,” you made a face. He was really tall. Much taller than you. That day was the first time you were actually seeing him up close. You examined his face to see what was it that had stolen Se na’s heart. Why was she madly in love with that goofy guy.

“You seem to be lost?” he said snapping his finger in your face.

“Lost!.. aaaa aniyo,” you replied shaking your head. You wanted to keep a cool and distant image. You wanted to show him that you weren’t like other girls who would run after him or any of the other EXO members.

“I’ve seen you work around here. What you do is pretty cool.”

“Really?” you asked with a sarcastic expression.

“Am I sensing a little bit tension over here?” he threw another question at you.

“Tension? Oh no not at all.” You replied, this time a little bit more calmly.

He nodded but kept looking at you from head to toe. You didn’t like it so you looked away. He turned around to leave but stopped.

“You know your friend Se Na told me that you liked Kris hyung,” he said.

“Whaa,” you gasped. You now regretted telling her that. It wasn’t that you liked Kris. Se Na had been bugging you for a long time asking the same question over and over –‘Who do you like from Exo?’  You didn’t know what else to say so you blurted out Kris’s name. You had in fact talked to him once before but that was only for a brief second. He was very nice and you had nothing against him but you actually didn’t like him.

“Oh no no,” you shook your head.

He chuckled. “It’s alright, I won’t tell him.” Chanyeol gave you a thumbs up and then left.

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“Don’t you think your dress is a little too revealing?” you asked Se Na. Both you and her were at the company party. You didn’t quite know who it was being held for or why everybody was invited. The only reason you went was because you needed a break.

“Aish, it’s just about the right length,” she winked back at you. “Look at yourself. Who wears jeans to a party like this one? Don’t you want to impress some guys here?”

“You’re asking a girl who just got out of a relationship. I think I’m done dating guys,” you said with a sour face.

“What? It’s been a year since your breakup _________. Are you still not over him?” Se Na asked.

“I am over him. I just don’t like relationships,” you frowned. Se Na patted you and went to get some drinks. She knew nothing she would say was going to change your mind. You always seemed like someone had sucked the life out of you. Smiling? That was something you didn’t even know existed. She couldn’t understand why you were like that. Regardless, she loved you a lot.

“Here,” she handed you a drink.

“Hello ladies,” Chanyeol sort of announced his entrance.

“Hi,” you mumbled, taking your shot. You turned around and asked for another one.

“Are you even old enough to drink?” he asked you.

“Of course,” you  said taking your second one.

“Anyways, guess who I brought along with me.” Chanyeol moved aside to reveal Kris standing behind him. Your mouth fell half open. Did he still believe that silly story Se Na had told him.

“Hey,” Kris said offering his hand.

“Hi,” you replied, nodding.

“So Se Na would you like to dance with me?” Chanyeol asked her but his eyes were still fixed on you. You glared at him so he would look away but nothing seemed to budge him.

“We have talked before haven’t we?” Kris asked, forcing you to pay attention to him.

“Ah ye,” you replied.

“Chanyeol told me you liked me,” he said with a smirk.

“Aniyoooo,” you whined but quickly bit your tongue. “I mean, of course..” Your eyes were still fixed at Chanyeol as he danced with Se Na, occasionally looking at you. His actions didn’t make sense. If he really liked her then why was he paying more attention to you? This wasn’t the first time it was happening. It had happened several times during the past week.

“I need another drink,” you said.

“Oh of course,” Kris replied. He ordered another one for you. You didn’t stop there. You continued to drink till you were way over tipsy.

“Are you alright?” Kris asked you.

“Yeah I’m fine,” you said.

“Where are you going?”

“Home!” you replied.

“But you aren’t in your senses.”

You leaned into him. “Trust me, I’ll be fine,” you patted his chest and off you went out of the party hall.

Kris was right. There was no way you could walk back home. You were way to drunk. It was your first time like that too. You had never done such a thing before but that night something ticked your heart and all you wanted to do was drink. You lifted your hand to hold your head. You couldn’t bear the pain. You could still hear the loud music from the party. Just as you were about to fall, two strong hands grabbed you…

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You opened your eyes to a very unfamiliar setting. No matter how hard you tried to recall, nothing from the night before was coming back. You pushed your pain ridden body up but all you could see were stars.

“Do you usually get this drunk?” a person standing next to the window asked you. His figure seemed hazy. You rubbed your eyes repeatedly and then looked again.

“Oh, it’s you,” you said, finally being able to see Chanyeol.

“Why the face?” he asked coming closer to you. “If you don’t like me then just say it. You don’t have to show it to me with your facial expression every time I come across you.”

He was sitting very close to you. So close that you could hear him breathe You looked away not being able to face his questioning eyes.

“I don’t know,” you mumbled. You could feel his eyes burning holes in your body. He was looking at you intently.

“Why are you like this? Why don’t you ever smile? Why don’t you live life the way it should be lived?”

“I do smile,” you looked up and forced a smile on your face.

“Seriously?” he raised his eyebrows. 

“I don’t know,” you covered your face with your hands as tears rolled out of your eyes. Usually you were really good at holding yourself together but that night all of it was coming out. For some reason you felt a close connection to him. You felt like telling him would lighten everything. The things that you were dealing with in your life at the moment were far too much for a girl your age. Having to take care of a family of four, with your mother in the hospital and your father leaving you at a young age. There were far too many responsibilities on you to even think about a guy. That was one of the reasons you had to break up with your last boyfriend. Chanyeol couldn’t bear to see you cry so he hugged you. The warmth from his body felt extremely good. He tightened his embrace and then gave you a slight peck on your neck. You never knew that his touch was going to bring such tingles to your body. It felt surprisingly good. You dragged your face closer to his neck but before you could do anything else, he pulled you away and then pressed his lips against yours. He’d taken you by complete surprise. You didn’t hesitate to pull away. In fact you the butterflies in your stomach felt extremely good.

His cheeky smile and big brown eyes are so adorable… I just love him..,’ –Se Na’s words suddenly crossed your mind.

“Oh My God,” you pulled away and pushed him back.

“What’s wrong?” he asked. You got out of bed, hurriedly and began looking for your accessories.

“What’s going on?” Chanyeol held your hand to stop you from spazzing out.

“Everything,” you said turning around.

“What do you mean?” he pulled you closer to him and put his arms around you so you wouldn’t move.

“Don’t you get it Chanyeol? Se Na basically throws herself over you. She likes you a lot. I can’t do this to her.”

“But you like me don’t you.”

“I do..” you suddenly blurted out. You wanted to smack yourself for being so aloof. “I mean I don’t. I like Kris, remember?”

“Oh yeah,” Chanyeol rolled his eyes. “I think we both know that’s a lie. Just stop it __________. And accept that you have feelings for me just like I do for you.”

“What?” you gasped.

“Ye, ever since I first saw you at the company. I tried so hard to let it slip. But it wouldn’t. Something about you kept drawing to you. And that night.. that night I actually made an effort to talk to you, outside the F(x) practice room. .. “ he paused to see if you would say something but you kept your eyes fixed at his neckline. “I want to know more about you. I want to fix your problems. Help you through whatever you’re going through. Let me help you. There’s more to me then the happy face that everybody sees.” You couldn’t help but look up at him. You could see the sincerity in his eyes. You wanted to be with him. You wanted to let him help you.

“I can’t do this,” you finally said, struggling to escape his strong grip.

“Why?” he asked.

“Because I don’t like you the way you like me,” you said making one of your mean faces again. You felt his grip loosen on you.

You picked up all of your things but stopped at the door. “I’m sorry,” you mumbled and then quickly left because you knew that the tears would come gushing out. The last thing you wanted was for Chanyeol to see them.  

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Three weeks later:

Se Na came running to you and hugged you.

“What’s wrong?” you asked, dragging her to a little corner so no one would see the two of you.

“Everything __________. Everything. I’m just so tired of all of this. Why does he never look at me? Am I ugly? Do I not fit his standards?”

“No you’re not ugly and you never will be okay. I’ll go talk to him.”

“Aniyo, don’t do that. He’ll think I’m desperate.”

“No he won’t. Just let me talk to him.”

You ran to Exo’s practice room. Luckily Chanyeol was alone in the back.

“Come with me,” you held his hand and dragged him to the storeroom.

“Woaaa woaawww, today must be my lucky day,” Chanyeol said with his usual cheeky smile. You glared at him and locked the door.

“What do you think you’re doing?” you asked him. He pointed to himself with a confused expression. “Do you have any idea what Se Na is going through right now? I was wrong. She doesn’t like you, she loves you Chanyeol. She wants to be with you and all you’re doing is pushing her away. .. she’s a great girl and I promise you she’ll keep you happy. Why don’t you give her a chance.”

“Just like you’re not giving me a chance?” he suddenly shouted causing you to stop your gab. “ You know what?” he pulled you closer and held you tightly. “I was wrong too. I don’t like you. I love you!”

You wished he hadn’t said that. His words ran shudders through your body. Over the past weeks you’d tried hard to convince yourself that you didn’t feel anything for him but not hearing him confess his love to you ruined everything.

“Stop it Chanyeol. You know I’m not interested in you.”

“No you stop it _________. Pretending to like Kris hyung will not only hurt him, but it will hurt me too. And most of all it’ll hurt you. Why don’t you just admit that you like me?” he held your wrist tightly, demanding an answer.

“Because…,” you yelled because. “I don’t want Se Na to go through all of this. She can’t bear it but I can. I’m used to losing things I love but she isn’t. She is very sensitive. I can’t bear to see her cry.”

“ But you’ll be okay see me cry?”

“Chanyeol..” you realized you didn’t have anything to say. He was right. You didn’t want to hurt him either.  “Just please do this for me.”  Tears started falling out of your eyes.  He was right. It wasn’t easy giving up someone you loved. He let go off you, letting his hands dangle to the side. It seemed like all his energy had been drained out of his body.

“___________,” he called your name. You turned around half way to hear what he had to say. “I’ll do as you say but at least tell me that you love me too. At least once and I will never ask you again.”

You knew you were going to lose him so without giving the idea a second thought, you turned around and pressed your lips against his. Chanyeol dragged your small body closer to his and slid his hands behind you. Every second of it was worth it. But you knew it was time to leave so you quickly pulled away and left before he could stop you.

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2 days later:

You avoided eye contact with Chanyeol as the two of you walked into the building at the same time. One of your colleagues came running to you and handed you a small a folded piece of paper.

“What is this?” you asked.

“Se Na told me to give this to you before she left.”

“She left? What do you mean?”

“I don’t know,” the girl shrugged her shoulders. “She turned in her resignation letter this morning too.”

“What!” you gasped. Chanyeol held you to restore your balance. He took the letter from you and sat you down. He opened it and began reading.

Dear __________,

By the time you get this letter I’ll be long gone out of your life and his. I heard you and him talk, in the store room that day. I am mad, really really mad. I felt like you betrayed me but then the more I thought about what you had said the more it made me realize that you only wanted me to be happy. You were sacrificing your wishes for me. I couldn’t let that happen. I’ve seen you go through a lot in life. I don’t want to be the one bringing more misery to it. Chanyeol really does love you. I was so stupid to not have noticed that before. In the past two days, I’ve seen the way he looks at you. He doesn’t look at me like that. As much as I want him too, I don’t think I can ever have him. I don’t want to force him to be in a relationship with me while his heart is with you. That would be too heartless of me. I decided to leave because I know it would hurt me a lot seeing the two of you together. I’m not as strong as you are. So please forgive me. Hopefully one day we will meet again and you and I, will be much happier.

                                                                                                                                                                                                Your Se Na

P.S: You can stop pretending to like Kris now. Give the poor guy a break..”




You couldn’t help but cry. You had lost Se Na and you felt guilty.

“I’m so sorry _________,” Chanyeol said pulling you into a hug. You lay your head on his chest and cried for a long time. Chanyeol didn’t move for a second. He sat there to comfort you through out. A little part of you was happy because you could be with him. Maybe slowly, your guilt would fade away and you would be able to love Chanyeol just as much as he loved you. He kissed you on your temple and you slid your hand into his. You weren’t going to let go of him anymore.

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I swear I have no idea why my scenarios have ended up being so long lately. I wanted to elaborate a little bit more but I couldn’t because of the length. Anyways, I hope you liked it anon. :)

posted 6 years ago with 69 notes