Your Wish Is My Command

He made it better after all [Joon]

Requested by anon 

Working for MBLAQ was the most hectic task you had burdened yourself with. You had to reach the company way before your starting time and stay late to finish everything. It wasn’t the company that did it to you but the members themselves. They acted like a bunch of helpless babies who needed to be fed everything. From looking at their schedules to their wardrobe almost everything was on you.

“___________, did you get our sizes changed for tomorrow’s performance.” G.O asked poking his head inside your tiny office.

“What? Uhh.. hold on give me a sec,” you said without looking up. You were looking for a very important file that you had lost.

“What’s wrong?” he asked.

“Nothing I’m just looking for a very important file I might have lost and ..if that really is the case then.. I’m going to be in big trouble. Ohh my my,” you smacked your forehead.

“Hey, hey, hey relax okay?,” G.O asked coming closer to you. He held your hands to calm your nerves. “Think about where you might have put it last time.”

“That’s what I’ve been trying to do but I can’t find it,” you said as more wrinkles formed on your forehead. “Oh wait,” you snapped your fingers suddenly remembering something. You bent down and reached for the last drawer. Your eyes twinkled as the open drawer revealed the object you had been looking for.

“See it was that easy,” G.O said with a calm smile.

“Gomawo,” you replied.

“Hey how about you take me out for coffee instead of thanking me?” he asked. You looked up at him, only to receive a unhesitant wink from him.

“Umm how about you go back to practice?” you asked, pushing him out the door.

“How inhospitable!,” G.O commented with a chuckle, before finally leaving you alone.

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“________ah, come join us for lunch!,” Seungho asked. You looked at him from the tiny crack between the door. How could he have possibly seen you? You walked inside to half dressed and sweaty members sitting in the corner of the practice room. Each had their lunch boxes in front of them.

“No thank you I have a lot to finish and I didn’t bring lunch today. I’ll just grab something from outside,” you kindly declined his offer.

“We can share our food with you. Joon and I have a lot,” he replied eagerly.

“Waeeeee,” Joon suddenly cried as if someone had awoken him from his deep slumber. Seungho nudged him to control his emotions. Your gaze fell on Joon but you quickly looked away. Out of all the members he was the only one that didn’t try to hit on you. You were okay with that but the thing you hates about him was his ego. He was way too cocky for you to even be able to start a conversation with him.

“It’s okay _________ I can share mine with you,” Mir said patting the empty wooden space next to him.

“I don’t want to be a bother though,” you said glancing at Joon once again.

“Trust me, you aren’t a bother at all,” he replied. You quietly sat down next to him. Each of them put some of their food on the empty plate and offered it to you.

“Gomawo,” you thanked them and began eating. You and Joon had occasional and awkward eye contacts just like usual. The other boys had pampered you so much that it annoyed you the way he treated you.

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Joon wandered about the building hoping to find something to do. The guys had decided to have a late evening practice but none of them had shown up. He was the first to reach. He stopped right outside your room remembering the small lunch episode from earlier that day. A slight tinge of guilt took over him. He began to open the door not knowing that you were still inside.

“Those guys are head over heels for you ___________,” a voice said. He opened the door a little more to see who it was. It was one of the assistants he had often seen around.

“They’re really not all that attractive,” you said. He could recognize your voice out of all the voices in the world.

“What do you mean?” the other girl asked.

“Well I don’t see why fan girls throw themselves over them. I get it. They are idols but there’s nothing more to them than that. I like those guys because they are sweet but nothing more.”

“Waaaaahhh _________. If they treated me like they treat you I would just curl up in a corner and weep.”

You giggled at her description and shook your head.

“So would you ever want to go out with one of them?” she asked.

“I don’t think any of them will ever be able to sweep me off me feet,” you said and winked at her with a cocky smile. She slapped your back and then the two of you went back to working. Little did you know that Joon had heard all of your conversation. He was a little disappointed but more importantly there was a plan cooking up in his head.

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A few days passed by and surprisingly none of the guys made an effort to flirt with you. You were curious but you didn’t let it show. You had gotten so used to it that suddenly, nothing happening was killing you. You often walked past their room but al you got were slight head nods or a quick wave but that was it. The thing that was stranger was the fact that Joon had been paying more attention to you than usual. You liked it by all means but it was also making you uncomfortable. The reason you liked it as because he had never made an effort to talk to you before. He would always mind his own business. That always saddened you and I guess you were falling for the “we run after what we don’t have” quote.

You tried to get a quick peek inside their practice room while walking back to your office. Instead you ended up bumping into Joon who had appeared out of nowhere. The water he had been drinking was dripping down his sleeveless shirt.

“Looking for something?” he asked with a smirk fixed on his face.

“Ahh..aniyo,” you shook your head, clenching the files tightly close to your chest. You thought he was going to move on but he just stood there watching you making a fool out of yourself.

“What?” you mumbled.

“Nothing,” he said and then walked right past you making sure your shoulders touched.

These awkward didn’t stop there. They continued for a good two week before finally you gave in.

As usual you were running around the building getting everything ready when two hands pulled you into a dark corner. You struggled to let go but clearly the male figure was much stronger. He held your hands tightly and covered your mouth so you wouldn’t move or scream.

“Don’t scream,” he tried to hush you and then slowly moved his hands from your mouth. You had made up your mind to scream as loud as possible but seeing his face so close to yours and feeling his sweet, warm breath on you face completely paralyzed you. He shook you lightly to bring you back to reality. You blinked repeatedly wanting to say something but you were still captivated by his strong gaze.

“I think we both know where this is going?” he whispered and before you could say anything he planted a sweet kiss on your lips. You could feel all the butterflies, fluttering in your stomach. It was nice feeling. A feeling you had been long waiting for.

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Two months later:

“I am so excited we will be spending out first Christmas together,” you said to Joon as he lay on the couch scrolling on his phone.

“Me too,” he said lazily.

“What’s wrong with you? You don’t seem hyped up for it,” you said playing with the cotton ball in your hand.

“You guys want some coffee?” Seungho asked from the kitchen.

“Yeah sure,” you replied.

“No I’m good,” said Joon paying little attention to his surroundings.  

“Oppa,” you moved closer to him and nudged him. He didn’t let your hand fall. He grabbed it almost pulling you on top of him.

“Of course I’m excited that we will be spending Christmas together,” he said and touched your nose with his. A bright layer of pink took over your face as you shyly looked away.

“It’s been two months ________ and you still blush.” He cupped your face in his hands and then leaned in to kiss you.

“Not in the living room you guys,” G.O said entering and throwing a cushion at the two of you.

“Get outta here,” Joon said throwing it back. G.O ran into the kitchen to escape the long and childish tirade that was to follow after it.

“Now where were we?” he said and looked back at you. You nervous genes began kicking in so you pulled away to calm your racing heart.

“I should help the guys with the coffee.”

“Aniyooo come back here,” he tried to get a hold of your arm but you very sneakily dodged him.

You were still a little bedazzled walking to the kitchen when some words, you should have never heard, touched your ears.

“I can’t believe Joon actually got her. All of this was just a play. A simple bet and now look at them.”

“But they still make a cute couple and look pretty happy together,” Seungho replied to G.O.

“I know they really do but Joon’s the man. He said he was going to get her and he won the bet. It was that easy for him.” G.O replied patting Seungho’s back.

This earth shattering revelation broke you completely. You were merely a play, a bet. He never really loved you. He was just playing around because according to him you were ‘easy to get’.

“Hey what’s taking you guys so long with the coffee,” Joon asked getting up from the couch. He panicked at the sight of you standing frozen in the corner with tears gushing out of your eyes.

“What’s wrong ______?” he asked lunging towards you.

“O Ohhhh,” G.O and Seungho cried, also coming towards you.

“Get away from me,” you yelled pushing Joon back.

“What happened?” he asked. He was confused. He looked at you, then at the boys and then back at you.“What’s wrong __________? What’s wrong guys? Please tell me.”

“________ we were just joking. None of it is true,” Seungho said trying to get a hold of you.

“Will someone answer me?” Joon yelled.

“Get away from me. All of you just…,” you covered your face with your hands.  You felt Joon’s hands around you once again. He was trying to force your hands away from your face. You suddenly pulled away.

“I can’t believe you this. I was just a play. A time pass. Wasn’t I?” you said.

“Whaa,” he gasped. He looked at the guys, not being able to say anything. You shook your head in disappointment. You thought it better to leave than to stay there and watch him make excuses. He was really good at them and you knew you wouldn’t be able to win.

“_________ wait,” he called after you but you didn’t stop.

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Waking up to the morning didn’t feel good anymore. You shifted in bed and looked at your phone. 20 missed calls – a bajillion unread messages. You rolled your eyes and tossed the phone to the other side of the bed. 5 days had passed away since you had last seen him. It was the day before Christmas. For some reason you were curios to what his messages had to say. You picked up the phone to open one of them but just then your phone began to vibrate. It was him –calling you again. Very hesitantly you picked it up.

“Oh Thank God you picked it up. _________ please listen to me okay. Just hear me out,” he said in a hushed tone. His voice was a mixture of worry and happiness. You didn’t know what to say. Your heart fluttered hearing his voice after five days but the anger was still there. You were still mad.

“There’s nothing you can do Joon. Let’s just forget about everything that happened between us okay?” you said.

“How?” he cried. “How can I forget about all of it? _______, _________ I love you.”

You gasped at his sudden confession. HE hadn’t said that to you in the two months he was with you and now suddenly out of nowhere he was telling you that he loved you. You couldn’t take it. You were bewildered and scared. You immediately hung up.

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You walked around your tiny apartment looking at all the Christmas decorations that you had very happily bought. You were supposed to be spending that day with Joon. Your first ever Christmas with someone special. Someone you cared about. And there you were sitting on your couch alone and gazing blankly into space thinking about him. You could lie to your heart all you wanted to but he had been on your mind this whole time. You couldn’t stop thinking about him. When you two were together you knew there was something special. And even now a little part of you believed that.

You were still deeply engrossed in your thoughts when you hear someone knock on your door. You knew who it would be but strangely there was no repetition in the knocking. You walked up to the door and found a red piece of paper that someone might have slipped inside. It had the word ‘Please’ scribbled on it.

Another slid in. You picked it up. This one was green and had ‘Forgive’ written on it. The next one was golden and had the word ‘Me’. Several others followed with the same Christmas themed colors with the same words written on them. You picked up each one until you had a more than two dozen in your hand. You finally looked through the peep hole. Joon was busy writing the next ‘Please’ on the green paper. He looked like a little kid desperately begging for forgiveness.

You didn’t know when but a smile had embraced your face. You couldn’t help it. No matter how much you denied it, you still had feelings for him. Sure, your relationship hadn’t started the way you would have wanted it to but at least he was trying to mend his mistakes. He wanted to make it right and he was putting in all the effort he could. No other guy would have done it if they didn’t care. That one, right there in front of you scribbling letters on different colored papers surely did care.

You swung open the door and hugged him just as he was about to slip in another paper. His hug tightened around you.

“I am so sorry ________. I was stupid. I don’t know what I was thinking but I really do love you. Sure I didn’t feel like that the first time I confronted you but I do feel that way right now. If you want us to start all over again than I wouldn’t hesitate one bit. I just.. just don’t leave me please!.”

“Shhhh,” you hushed him. you could feel his tears on your shoulder. He kissed you on your neck and then on your cheeks and then finally your lips.

“I’m so sorry,” he said once again and then reconnected his lips to yours.

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Okay I know I am a day too late but I really did got caught up with a bunch of stuff. I don’t want to miss out on anything while I am here in Hong Kong but I am still trying to keep up with my writing. I hope you guys like this one because I put a lot of thought into this one. It took me a while to write this one too.

Didn’t proof read since I have to go somewhere but I’ll be sure to do it later 

posted 5 years ago with 42 notes

Kidnapped For My Perfect Imperfections [Joon] Submission



Just walking down the street you couldn’t be happier. The sun was out and you were wearing your favorite outfit. The best feeling you had in a long time. Things had been stressful lately with starting to become a trainee and working towards becoming a singer. It wasn’t going to be easy and you knew that. When you were about to turn the corner you were suddenly grabbed. The pair of hands grabbed your arm and covered your mouth. You struggled to get away, but you were just too weak. This person was obviously much stronger than you and had pulled you into and alley way. You tried to turn and look at your kidnapper.

“ANDWAE!!!” He yelled and turned you around. He put a blindfold over your eyes and began walking you back further into the alley. He wasn’t forcing you and you figured you should just not fight with him. It was useless. You heard a door open and you stepped over a threshold into a building. Right now you were just guessing your surroundings, but the floor was sort of soft, not like carpet. It was like wood, but bouncy. You were stopped and let go of.

“Where am I?” You went to take off the blindfold and when you did it was pitch black. No lights. Your eyes didn’t even adjust. You started to walk forward when your foot hit a box. You knelt down and blindly opened the box. You felt a water bottle and some other box. When you opened that one it had crackers in it. Not knowing what was happening and too scared to move to far away, you slowly ate three crackers and a few sips of water. You had no idea if you would get more food. Suddenly there were bright green words on the wall, which was further away then you thought. 

“EAT” is all it said and then it was gone.

“Can I eat it all?” You yelled out.

“YES” flashed on the wall. You proceeded to eat all the crackers and drank all the water. In the bottom of the box of crackers you felt two small round things.

“EAT” flashed on the wall again.

“What are these?” you questioned.

“EAT” flashed again. You weren’t going to question so eat ate them. Your eyes started closing and soon you fell to sleep on the ground.

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You awoke to find yourself in some type of vehicle. You were only awake for enough time to see light around you when you fell back asleep.

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The next time you woke up you were in the same place as before. You stood up and suddenly a light illuminated you. There was a microphone stand in front of you. The word “SING” was displayed on the wall. You were so confused and scared now and you wanted answers.

“Where am I? Why am I here? What’s going on??” you started almost crying and whimpering when a pop scared you and a distorted voice came on.

“Do not be afraid.” The person’s english was broken. 

“I am though. I don’t know what is going on. Why should I sing?”

“Just sing. Please? I haven’t hurt you this whole time have I?”

The voice waited for an answer.

“I guess your right. I will sing on one condition………..you sing first.” There was a long silence after you said that. 

Oh baby stay with me nae gyeoteman isseo
Jwo nega nae jeonbuyeotdan marya-a-a, a-a-a, a-a-a
Stay in my heart

Your eyes widened as the voice sang from MBLAQ’s ‘Stay’.

Stay in my heart

You sang back the end. You then started singing on your own.

U make me cry (neon)
Naega saraganeun iyu
Jebal nal tteonajima
Just tell me why (why)
Nunmureul dakkajwo malhaejwo I’m so crazy (yeah)
Sorichyeo bulleo (bulleo) keuge oechyeo bulleo (bulleo)
Ige kkeuti aniya neomu apa aiya
Bokbatchyeo bulleo (bulleo) jebal nareul beorijima baby

The pop signaled the voice was going to speak again you stepped back from the mic. Then stepped forward again as you thought of something.

“Why am I here?” There was a long silence before the voice answered.

“Because……………………..I think I love you.” This took you by surprise.

“How can you love me? I’m not pretty, I have so many things wrong with me……….how?”

“I realized, when I watched you dancing and singing and goofing around, that you had the most perfect imperfections.”

You thought about what the voice said………….dancing and singing and goofing around……………you were at a loss. One by one the lights started illuminating. When the room was lit you looked around and knew exactly where you were. The stage you auditioned on. All the memories of that day came back and as you thought you didn’t even notice the figure sitting behind you. When you realized and looked back, you eyes almost fell from your head when you saw him.

“Chang Seon…………….” your voice was barely audible. He stood up with the stupidest smile on his face. 

“Why?” you were cut off as he put his finger over your mouth.

“Because you are perfectly imperfect.”

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So totally random and weird *shakes head* I may submit a part two, but ya know IDK my BFF JILL!!! <33333 ENJOY!!!!!!!!

posted 6 years ago with 10 notes

You felt alive again [Mir]

Requested by anon




“________ah, are you in here?” Mir poked his head inside your room. “There you are!” a smile spread on his face.

You rolled out of bed and looked up. “What are you doing here?”

“I came to check on you,” he replied.

“I’m fine,” you pouted and rolled your eyes.

“You left the front door open again,” he made a face.

“I’m still alive aren’t I? So what’s the big deal?” you raised your eyebrows.

“Okay okay! Let’s forget about that.” Mir pulled a smile and hugged you. “Let’s go out somewhere.”

You shook your head and pulled away.

“Come on, it’s the first day of spring. Don’t you want to enjoy the sunlight?”

“Aniyo,” you pouted and walked into the bathroom. You were hoping he’d be gone by the time you came out of the bathroom but he was still there. He held up a light orange and yellow dress.

“Wear this. It’ll look nice on you,” he winked.

“Oppa, I don’t want to go,” you tried to remain politely.

“Why not? You weren’t having a good day yesterday so I was hoping you’d be feeling better today.”

“I am feeling better. I just don’t want to go out anywhere.”

“________ is there something you’re not telling me?”

He asked with such sincerity that you just wanted to hug him and sob for the rest of the day. He was the closest person to you. You wanted to ball out all of your feelings to him but you didn’t want to disturb him. You knew well that guys couldn’t be sympathetic no matter how hard they tried. Nevertheless you didn’t want to disappoint him. He always tried to cheer you up and this was the least he could do for you.

“Ok, let’s go,” you sighed taking the dress from him.

“Yaaaaaayy,” he cheered. “I love you.”

You gave him a brief smile before walking into the bathroom once again to change.

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“So where are you taking me?” you asked. The two of you had been walking down unfamiliar paths for a long time.

“Just wait and watch,” he held your hand and dragged you.

“Seriously a park?” you said walking in the entrance.

“Yeah I know but I’m going to take you somewhere else,” he winked. Both you and him continued walking until you hit the woods. It was almost the end of the park. You were getting tired. It had been an hour since you left the house.

He walked you through a tunnel and there it was, the place he wanted to show you. Your jaw dropped as you stared at what was before you with utter amazement. It was a beautiful grassland surrounded by huge trees spreading their shadows over the smaller plants. The sun’s rays escaped through the tiny gap making the white flowers look even more beautiful.

“Come on,” Mir said with a smile on his face.

“Why did you never bring me here before?” you asked.

He didn’t respond. He kept pulling until you guys reached the middle. You could hear a waterfall in the background.

The two of you lay down on the ground with your faces facing each other.

“It’s a special place to me,” he whispered. “ I don’t bring any one here.”

A smile spread on your face. You lifted your hand, intending to touch his face. The smile that was on his face never changed. It was still there…

“______________ah, wake up!” Mir shook you.

“Huh!? Uhhh” you sat up, rubbing your eyes.

“How? I thought we were..? What’s happening,” you asked in extreme confusion.

“Are you okay?” he asked in utter confusion.

“You left your front door open again!” he made a face. As reality started sinking in, you realized that you’d been dreaming.  That splendid path, that sunlight, those flowers none of it was real. It wasn’t the first time you’d had dreams like these. You had them occasionally and they left you sad afterwards because they were nowhere near reality. You looked at Mir with longing eyes as he got up to get a glass of water. He came back and sat beside you. He placed it close to your lips.

“Want some?” he asked. You nodded your head and just as you were about to take a sip he pulled it away and drank all of it. He looked at you with a cheeky smile and then began laughing.

“I hate you oppa,” you pulled a cushion from behind you and hit him with it.

“Ai, that hurt,” he said innocently.

“Why are you here?”

“I stopped by to get my jacket. You took it from me yesterday and never returned it,” he made a face.

“Aish, mianhe,” you pouted.

“It’s okay,” he patted your head. “I have to rush. I’ll see you later.”

 Before leaving the room he looked back at you. He didn’t like it when you were upset. He wanted to hug you and kiss you and tell you how much he loved you but every time he said it, it didn’t mean anything to you.

“___________ah,” he called your name. You looked at him with a flat face.

“I love you,” he said and winked. A sudden shudder ran through you just like all the other times when he said those three words. You just wished they meant something. You wished that when you returned those three words to him he’d know that it meant something. He always played around. You never knew when he was serious and when not.

“I love you too,” you said forcing a fake smile on your face.

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Mir left and you curled up inside your bed once again. Day and night weren’t two different things for you. It all seemed the same to you. Just a year ago you were a happy girl. You laughed with everybody else and cried when they did. Then suddenly things changed. Nothing seemed to make you happy. You felt like a caged bird wanting to escape. You’d created a sort of shell around yourself. Very few could enter and Mir was one of them. He’d been there all along but he had never seemed to see the difference in you. Maybe you were just a really good actor and could easily cover up your depressed emotions. You knew well that if you told him that you liked him, what his reaction would be. He wouldn’t ever reject you. He was too nice to do that. But did you really want to do that? You could barely handle yourself, how could expect him to deal with you.  You shrugged the thought out off your head and buried your face in the pillow. A tear rolled out of your eyes and before you knew it, you were crying, sobbing and then weeping.

You knew well you needed help but you were too afraid to tell someone. If this kept going on it was going to get more dangerous. You hoped that day never came but it was slowly creeping up.

Your eye sight was getting weak too now since crying yourself to sleep every night was a routine for you. Tonight was going to be just like that. You moved your hand around on the bed to find the remote. You turned on the TV and kept changing channels. Nothing good was on. Another reason for you to keep crying. Even fate wasn’t on your side. You felt like everything was negative around you. You always told yourself that maybe you weren’t good enough that’s why.

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“_______________ah,  are you up yet?” Mir yelled from the living room. Last time you heard that voice, it was a dream. You didn’t bother opening your eyes. In fact you closed them even more tightly and pulled the pillow on your head.

“_________ah, wake up!”  Mir came into the room. You felt the left side of the bed dip a little bit. Was it real? Was he really here? If he was, you were never showing him your face. You knew your eyes looked puffy from the night before’s crying.

“____________, wake up. Come on! I need to take you somewhere. It’s the first day of spring.”

“Go away oppa,” you mumbled but the pillow ate your voice.

“I can’t hear you,” he said trying to pull it off of you. It was real. It wasn’t a dream. He really was there. You clenched the pillow tightly. Mir suddenly released it. There was no movement for a while and the next second you felt a bucket of cold water being poured over you. You immediately jumped up. Mir saw your puffy, red eyes and drenched body. He began laughing.

“Look at you face,” he said between giggles. You felt like somebody had just put a heavy weight on your heart. Out of all the people in the world, he was laughing at you. You expected much better out of him. Without thinking you pushed him with all your strength and yelled , ”Get out.”

Mir stumbled but handled himself. He couldn’t understand what had happened in mere 30 seconds. His face turned serious. He sensed something was wrong. Really wrong.

“________, are you okay?” he asked.

“Nothing,” you said glaring at him. You couldn’t calm your nerves at all.

“_________ please tell me what’s wrong.” He came towards you. He began to grab you but you pushed him once again.

“I said go away,” you yelled. Mir didn’t stop. Instead he pulled you towards him, causing you to burry your head against his chest. You struggled but he kept his grip strong holding your head firmly and using his other hand to hold your back. You kept hitting him but he stood strong.

“Just let me go,” you mumbled finally giving up.

“Shhhhhh,” he patted your back and stroked your hair. “Everything will be alright.” He kept repeating. You couldn’t control yourself. More tears flowed out. You’d hit your breaking point. You sobbed for a long time and all that time Mir stood there trying to comfort you.

He finally loosened his grip guessing that it was okay to let go. He sat you down on the bed. You immediately scrunched up your legs against your chest. He sat too, facing you.

“Do you want to talk about it?” he asked. You shook your head.

“Okay,” he mumbled and just sat there watching you.

“Why are you doing this?” you asked turning your head sideways.

“Because I…” he trailed off.  “I worry about you.”

“Don’t”

“I can’t.”

“Try.”

He couldn’t take it anymore. He was going to say it and this time actually show you that he meant it. He forced you to turn your face to him. You looked at him with questioning eyes.

“Don’t you understand? ___________ I love you,” this was the first time he’d said it looking straight into your eyes. He meant it. Instead of being happy, you got scared. You shook your head.

“Don’t say that.”

“Why not?”

“Because you don’t know what I’m going through.”

“Do you think I don’t know what you’re going through?” he snapped back. “It breaks my heart to see you suffer for no reason every day. _________ I’ve been in love with you for the longest time. I remember when you used to be that happy girl. You were so full of life. What happened to that? What happened?” Mir got teary eyed.

You were speechless. This is what your heart had been longing to hear. You felt a twinge of pain in your heart. You loved him too. But was it worth it to make him waste his life on someone like you. You pushed his hand gently.

“Oppa, you don’t want to do this. You don’t know how bad it is.”

“Then tell me how bad it is. I can help you _______. Trust me.”

You kept shaking your head. Mir pulled you into a hug once again. “Do you have any idea what I feel about you? Do you have any idea the pain I feel every time a tear drops from your eyes? It hurts ______. It really hurts. “

His words ran like a shudder through your body. You had no idea how madly in love he was with you.

“Say that you love me too,” he whispered giving you a deep kiss on your neck.

“I love you too,” you whispered back. You hadn’t felt more comfortable in the longest time. Your soul was hungry for love and that’s all he was offering you.

“Would you be willing to go see a therapist?” he asked hesitantly, still not letting go of you. You nodded your head and tightened your arms around him. You were scared but if he was there, you were willing to give it a shot.

A little part of you started to feel alive again and it was all because of him…

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For all the beautiful girls out there who suffer from depression. Please don’t do this to yourself. If you need help, TALK to someone. Keeping it inside is like slowly killing yourself. Don’t do that.

I hope you guys like this! 

posted 6 years ago with 22 notes

Gajok [Mir]

Requested by aww-sehunyoucutie



You knocked on the door for the fourth time and still no one answered. It wasn’t usual of the MBLAQ members to not be in their dorm at 10 in the morning. They all adored sleep, especially on the weekends. You took out your phone and called Mir. He didn’t answer. You were a little mad but worried at the same time. Where could they be? You began to wonder. Just then you heard their footsteps coming up the stairs. They were are laughing and clapping their hands. Mir’s eyes fell on you as soon as he reached the top.

“_________ah, there you are,” he came forward and gave you a quick peck on the lips.

“Where were you?” you pouted.  You turned around to look at the guys and a girl standing next to them.  You looked back at Mir with questioning eyes.

“Noona, meet _________,” he said advancing towards the girl.

“________, meet my noona.” A smile spread across your face. She was the first member from Mir’s family that you were meeting. 7 months and 1 family member, you could only hope how long it would take to meet the rest.

“Anyeong!” you greeted her and bowed slightly.

“Anyeong,” she giggled. “You don’t have to do that. Don’t be formal with me. We’re just like friends.” She winked.

You relaxed a little bit.

“Mir talks a lot about you and…”

“Ummm can we go inside and talk?” Mir interrupted.

“Oh ahhhahah,” both you and her chuckled.

You had a long conversation with his sister and quiet surprisingly she was very nice. You were scared of Mir’s family because every time you asked him to introduce you to them he would just politely ignore the subject.

“___________ah, when will you be leaving?” Mir asked out of the blue.

“Leaving?” you repeated with confusion.

“Yeah, Noona and I are going to the movies tonight.” You were a little disappointed that he hadn’t even thought about inviting you. You were still a little mad about him not telling you that his sister was coming over and that he went with her and all the members without inviting you. Nevertheless you didn’t want to act like a clingy girlfriend so you remained quiet.

“__________,” he nudged you.

“Huh! Oh umm yeah I was just leaving!” you said standing up.

“I’ll see you soon okay?” he said walking you to the door.

“Anyeong.”

“Anyeong”

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Four days passed and Mir didn’t contact you at all. You knew he was spending time with his sister. And you were all up for giving him some space but a little text wouldn’t hurt.

Oppaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…’ –you texted him.

15 minutes passed. You felt like a desperate pabo for waiting for the screen to light up.

Ye?,’ – he finally texted back.

Do you want to do something tonight?’

‘It’s Tuesday night O_O’

So?’

I have to wake up early tomorrow’

‘Oh alright o_O’

You put the phone on the night stand and closed your eyes. You hated your mood swings when you were on your periods. You felt lonely and wanted to cuddle with someone but sadly it was just going to be you and your little teddy bear that night.

Your phone buzzed. You jumped around, hoping Mir had changed his mind. It wasn’t him. It was your friend.

“Hey,” you said picking up the phone.

“Wanna hang out?” she asked.

“Aaaa, not in the mood.”

“Oh come onnnn, I feel so lonely tonight. I need some bubble tea shots,” she giggled. You laughed too. You agreed to go with her only because you felt the same way as her that night. Lonely.

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“________ah, isn’t that Mir?” your friends said pointing at your boy friend sitting in the corner table.

“What?” you stood up in surprise and almost spilt your bubble tea.

“Calm down,” she made a face and pulled you.

“No, I just called him an hour ago to ask if he wanted to hang but he told me he had to get up early tomorrow,” you said angrily.

“I think he’s with someone,” she said pushing back a little bit to get a better look.  “Oh yep, definitely with someone.”

You turned around and looked once again. Of course, he was there with his noona.

“It’s his noona,” you mumbled.

“Just go and sit down with him,” she suggested.

“Nah, I don’t want to disturb them,” you made an annoyed face.

“Meeaaoowwww, you don’t like her do you?”

You sighed. “I do! I mean don’t I have too? It’s just that he hasn’t been paying attention to me ever since she came to visit and I know she won’t be here for a long time but I’m still so … oh Gosh! Who am I kidding I sound like a little brat,” you buried your face in your hands and rested your head on the table.

“Aniyo! You don’t sound like a brat.” She comforted you.

“He could have at least told me he was coming here, instead of lying to me.” You mumbled as a tear rolled down your cheek. That wasn’t the normal you but you had lots of mixed feelings inside you that day.

“_________,” you  heard a familiar voice say your name. It was Mir’s voice. You quickly wiped your tear and looked up.

“What are you doing here?” he asked. ‘Shouldn’t I be the one asking this question’ you thought to yourself while squinting your eyes at him. He understood that you were a little mad.

“Noona, wanted some bubble tea so I decided to bring her here. I was going to call you but I thought you’d be asleep.” 

You tried to calm yourself but his explanations were only making you more mad.

“It’s alright!” you said getting up. You forced a pretty obvious fake smile on your face and turned around to leave.

“Let’s go,” you said to your friend and without looking back you left the shop.

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“Aaaaaaaaaaaa! I’m coming,” you yelled at the person who’d been knocking on your door for the past half hour.  You opened the door rubbing your eyes and an annoyed face.  The very next second you jumped up with excitement.

“Oppa!” you laughed hysterically as you saw your older brother. “When did you..How did..?? Oh my God forget all that,” you hugged him tightly. He chuckled and stroked your hair.

“I just got here.”

“Did Umma come with you?” you asked.

“Aniyo, she couldn’t but I came to check on you.”

“Check on me?” you made an amused face.

“Ye, I worry about you,” he placed his hand on your cheeks. “Seoul is a big city and you live here all by yourself.”

“Oppa! I’m a big girl now,” you pouted.

“Aish, I know,” he laughed and messed your hair, just like old times.

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______________ah, where are you?’ –Mir texted you for the first time ever since your encounter with him at the bubble tea shop.

I’m busy..’ – you texted back clearly expressing your anger.

Ok..’ – You couldn’t believe it. ‘OK’ was the only thing he could say to you. You were losing your nerve now.

“What’s going on?” you brother asked sitting beside you.

“Nothing,” you muttered.

“Those wrinkles on your forehead tell me a different story,” he said. You knew if you told him about how Mir was treating you, he’d be pretty upset. You didn’t want him to get mad at Mir because sooner or later he was going to apologize to you.

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“Oppa, I’ve never had so much fun at a street market,” you said wiping your nose. “Ice cream in the snow! Best idea ever,” you said excitedly.

“You’re going to get sick,” he said giving you a tissue.  You shook your head and licked your ice cream.

“Hey look!” you brother pointed towards the north.  Mir was waving at you and him. He sprinted towards you guys.

“Mir, my man,” your brother said and did the casual hand shake. That was the first time you actually hated them being so chill with each other.

“Haven’t seen you ever since I got here,” your brother said.

“Yeah,” he scratched his head. “___________, never told me you were here. I would have come.”

“Shouldn’t you have come any ways to see her?” he asked. You giggled on the inside. He was going to get in trouble and you didn’t feel bad at all. He deserved it. Mir looked at you nervously. You returned a glare and then rolled your eyes.

“Anyeong,” Mir’s sister came up from behind and greeted.

“Anyeong,” Your brother said with a surprised expression on his face. “I think I know you from somewhere.”

She giggled. “Communication skills class, Pusan University, 2009.”

“Ahhh ye ye ye,” your brother snapped his fingers.

“You’re Mir’s…”

“Sister,” she finished for him.

“Aaa, I didn’t know that.” The two of them began talking as if they had a lot of catching up to do. You pouted. First Mir and now your brother. You made a crying face and turned around.

“________, _________ wait,” Mir held your hand.

“Let me go Oppa,” you yanked you sleeve and began walking once again. Mir walking besides you.

“Go away,” you said as tears started flowing out of your eyes. He kept walking with you.

The two of you reached your apartment. You went inside and tried to close the door on him but he was obviously stronger than you.

“__________, tell me what’s wrong?” he asked holding you. You shrugged him away and went to your room.

“_______, please tell me what’s wrong?” he asked once again. He did sound worried.

“It’s nothing okay!” you snapped back.

“Well you’re crying and you won’t talk to me what’s wrong so something’s definitely up,” he held you once again.

“I don’t want to sound mean and I don’t want you to hate me either so just let it go. Give me some time and I’ll be fine,” you said resting your head on his chest.

“I would never hate you,” he said running his fingers through your hair.

 “Is it because I haven’t been able to spend much time with you lately?” he asked after a while. You were surprised he understood you.

“Aniyo,” you shook your head rubbing your face with his shirt. He chuckled.

“I know you my little penguin. You can’t hide your feelings from me no matter how hard you try,” he pulled you away and then gave you a long kiss on the lips.

“I’m sorry. I know I was being stupid but I just couldn’t help it. She comes once in three years and I just wanted to as much time with her as possible.”

“It’s okay Oppa, I understand.” You said.

“And I would have invited you but I just didn’t want it to be awkward.”

“It won’t be awkward. Try inviting me next time,” you winked. He smiled and kissed you once again.

“You have explanations to do too missy.”

“What?” you asked with a bemused expression.

“Yeah, you never told me your brother was here and then you didn’t text me for a week. Were you trying to make e jealous?” he squinted his eyes.

“Noo,” you said with a cheeky smile and began to run away. Mir caught up to you and picked you up.

“You’ll pay for this,” he said walking back to the room.

“Aish,” you gave him a quick peck.You couldn’t wait for what was yet to come.

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Aaaaaa this requests kind of scared me at first because I was afraid I won’t have anything to write but then I started writing and so here it is.. ^^. Hope you guys like it :)


Guys I didn’t proofread this because I have to  study for my midterm but I’ll be sure to do that tomorrow.

posted 6 years ago with 25 notes

Pa.. Pa.. Panda [Seungho]

 Requested by yangseungho-Kanon



“Aaaaaaa,” you made a weird sounds as you woke up and stretched. You looked around for Seungho. He wasn’t in the room. Your body was sore from last night’s rock climbing.

You got and left the room. You found Seungho sleeping on the couch.

“Oppa wake up,” you shook him.

“Aii, let me sleep he buried his head under the pillow.”

“You have an early schedule today,” you reminded him.

He sprang out of the sheets, looking for his pants. “Oh my God! Yeah I need to run.”

“Why were you sleeping on the couch though?” you asked again.

“Oh, huh,” he looked at you and then made a face.

“What?” you asked shrugging your shoulders.

“You should really see the way you sleep at night. I barely had any space on the bed. I was about to fall off the bed. And then that big Panda of yours just has to sleep with us doesn’t he,” he complained.

“Aii, I’m sorry Oppa,” you made a sad face.

“It’s okay but I need to run right now okay! I’ll see you tonight,” he gave you a quick peck on the cheek and left.

You sighed and got up to clean around. This wasn’t the first time the panda had come up in the conversation between you and Seungho. You didn’t want to tell anybody about the connection you had with it. You shook your head and wiped the tears forming in the corner of your eyes and began working.

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“Anneyong,” you greeted Seungho, and put your arms around his neck.

“How was your day?” you asked.

“It was tiring,” he said gently pulling out of your arms and sitting on the couch.

“What happened?” you asked.

“My body was so sore from last night and then I had to sleep on the couch so I couldn’t practice at all today,” he said with a slightly angry tone.  

“Ai, I’m sorry,” you said rubbing his back.

“It’s fine,” he said getting up.

“No wait, let me give you a massage,” you said holding his hand.

“I’m fine okay!,” he said angrily and pulled his hand away.

“What’s wrong with you?” you asked obviously surprised by his reaction.

“Nothing.”

“No tell me.”

“My problem is that stupid Panda in your room.”

“What are you talking about?” you asked with a confused expression.

“Why is that panda so important to you? Why does the panda have to sleep with you and I every night?” he asked holding you tightly.

“You don’t understand,” you whispered.

“You’re right! I don’t understand. You know what, that’s it,” he flung his hands in the air and then let them fall. “You need to choose between me or the panda?”

“Oppa, do you even hear yourself?” you asked. You were very disappointed.

“Yes I know exactly what I’m saying. You need to hear yourself.”

“Why would you be jealous of a stuffed toy?” you asked getting angry now.

“I AM NOT JEALOUS OF A STUFFED TOY,” he yelled. “I just want you to grow up already. You’re not a kid anymore.” His eyes were burning with anger.

You guys had never fought like this. This was the most childish argument that you’d ever had.

“You know what, I give up,” you said as tears started flowing out of your eyes. You slammed your room’s door on his face.

You heard him slamming the front door as he left too. You sat in the corner and cried a lot. You were disappointed in Seungho for not understanding. It was partly your fault too for not telling him why you loved the panda so much.

It was near 2 am when Seungho came back. He slowly opened the door to your room. You were still sitting in the corner, with your legs scrunched up and your head buried in them. He came and sat beside you.

“_________ ah,” he called your name, gently shaking you. You looked up at him with your puffy eyes.

I’m sorry,” he said. You looked away.

“Come one,” he said turning your face towards him. He held his ears. “Please forgive me?”

“It’s okay,” you said and hugged him.

“Now do you want to tell me why the panda is so important to you.”

Your heart sank but you knew it was time you told him. He deserved to know. You began telling your story.

“When I was five my dad took me to a street market. I begged my dad to buy me that panda… we weren’t that rich but I was too young to understand that. I kept begging him to buy it for me. He couldn’t say no to me so he bought it for me. I have no idea where and how he got the money for it. I was so stupid Seungho. I was so stupid. I wish I understood how hard our life was back then. Umma and Appa never made me feel, that we were poor. They would get me anything I wanted. So when he got me the panda, I was very happy.” You paused for a while and then began again. “Then Appa, told me to wait for him by the shop. I don’t know where he went but a while later I saw him on the opposite side of the street. He called my name and waved at me. I waved back. He ran towards me and that’s when..” a tear rolled own your cheek. Your voice choked. Seungho held your hand to give you support. “That’s when a car hit him.” You were crying now. “There was blood everywhere and Appa was lying motionless in the middle of the road. My Appa was dead. He was dead..” you said. Seungho pulled you into a hug.

“This panda is the only memory I have of him,” you said between sobs.

“I’m so sorry baby. I had no idea..” He rubbed your back. You cried a lot.

“It’s okay,” you said.

He wiped your tears. “I feel awful about what I said earlier.”

“It’s alright. I should have explained earlier. And besides you had a bad day, today.”

He held your face. “The panda can sleep with us every day,” he said.

A smile broke on your face. You hugged him.

“Sarangaheo Oppa!”

“Saranghaeo,” he whispered back.

“Now how about that back massage?” you asked getting up.

“Yeah, I’d love that.” He got up and picked you up.

“What are you doing?” you asked with a nervous laugh.

“About to get a back massage from you,” he said kissing you on the neck and dropping you on the bed.

“Oo, Oh,” you gasped as Seungho got on top of you.

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Lots of mixed emotions. :’)  I hope you guys like it.

posted 6 years ago with 46 notes

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Just be happy for me [Joon]

Requested by Jaxterz



Joon was sitting beside you and looking at you when you woke up.

“Are you feeling better?” he asked placing his hand on your forehead.

“Yeah much better,” you said struggling to get up. He gave you support. “Is she still sleeping?” you asked looking at the small crib in the corner of the room.

“Yeah.”

“Do you have any schedules today?” you asked.

“Yeah I’m sorry. I already canceled three last week and they really want me to come to this one” he replied.

“No, that’s fine. Go!” you said, smiling to make him feel better.

Joon had left already when you came out of the bathroom. You went over and looked at the crib. Mi Yun, your one week old little princess was still sleeping. You ran your index finger on her cheeks. They were really hot. You panicked and ran out of the room to call Joon.

“Pick up pick up pick up” you said nervously. There was no response.

The door bell rang. You rushed towards it and opened it only to find your parents standing in front of you with a bright smile on their faces.  You sighed. You loved your parents but you really didn’t want to see them right now. They didn’t like Joon that much and if they found out that your daughter was sick and he wasn’t home, there was going to be trouble. A lot of trouble.

“Hey honey,” your mother greeted you pulling you in a hug.

“Anneyonghasaeyo” you  said letting them in.

“So where’s our little princess?” she asked clapping her hands.

“She’s in the room… ahh but you guys should settle down first. I’ll make tea.” You said nervously.

“What’s wrong?” your mother asked using her motherly instincts.

You gave up. You just wanted your daughter to be alright. “Everything,” you said hugging her.

“Mi Yun is sick.”

“Sesangi,” she said covering her mouth.

The three of you rushed to the room.

“Let’s take her to the hospital.” Your father said picking her up. You wrapped Mi Yun in a blanket carefully.

“Where is Joon?” your mother asked looking around.

“He had a schedule.”

“I knew that boy couldn’t take care of the baby. Why did he take responsibility in…”

“Eomeoni please!” you interrupted. She glared at you as your father forced the two of you out of the apartment.

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“She has a fever. These kind of things are common during the first few weeks. We will admit her in the hospital just to be on the safe side.” The doctor filled you in with the details.

You were still panicking. Your dad supported you as you were about to collapse. He made you sit down and gave you water.

“Where is Joon. He should  be here right now! Did you even call him?” you mother asked.

“I did and I texted him too. So he will be here soon.”

“That boy is so irresponsible. If he can’t take care of you he should just let us know. We aren’t dead yet.”

“Eomeoni!” you exclaimed.

“Don’t talk to me in that tone. You know what I am saying is right. You just love him too much to not see his flaws. When he comes here today I will get things straight with him. You can barely walk and he left you all alone with the child at home.”

Joon pushed opened the door and came inside.

“Where is she?” he asked looking extremely worried.

“They’re going to keep her here for a few days,” you said, trying to hold back your tears.

You looked at your parents. They were glaring at Joon. You held your mother’s hand but she quickly pulled it away and walked towards Joon.

“Eomeoni,” you called.

“You are the most irresponsible person I have ever met in my life.” She said, with a stern voice, pointing towards Joon . “I told her you weren’t right for her and you aren’t. I have no idea how she convinced me to marry you but as always you’ve let her down again. She is sick. Don’t you see her condition?” Joon looked over at you. You looked tired and worn out. “Do you really think she can run to hospitals like this after the first week of her delivery? If your work is so important for you, why don’t you just let her come with us and do whatever you want to do.”

You looked at Joon. He clenched his fist. He was still recovering from his bipolar disorder. You didn’t want anything to go wrong today.

“Abuji stop her,” you said hoping your father would do something. He just stood there listening to your mother.

You looked at Joon apologetically. You held your hands together and begged him to not explode and just listen. He nodded back and took a deep breath.

“Mianhe. I didn’t mean for any of this to happen,” he said.

“Isn’t that what you said last time too? Is this the excuse you will use every time? When will you realize that you are a mature adult now. You need to take responsibility for your actions. I am not even sure if I will let Mi Yun and my daughter come with you once she gets out of the hospital”

Joon shot a look at her. Tears were forming in the corner of his eyes. He began saying something  but stopped.

“Please don’t,” he finally said. His voice was barely audible.

Your mother turned around and looked away. You were still surprised at what she’d said. You walked up to her and held her hand.

“Amo, please don’t say that. He does take care of me and what he does for me is enough. He is responsible. You just aren’t around to see it. I can’t ask him for all his time. He has other commitments too.” You paused to see if she would say anything. She didn’t. “Did you ever find out that I was sick three times last month? No right? Because Oppa was there for me. He stayed up at nights to take care of me. Just last week he canceled all his schedules for me. He was going to take another day off so he could bring me to visit you guys.” You took hold of her other hand. “He loves me Amo, and I love him. Why can’t you see that? Isn’t my happiness, what you want? I know there were problems in the past but we all know why that was. He is recovering from it and he will be fine soon. Just, please don’t be mean to him. Treat him like your son. He loves you guys very much.” You could see your mother’s expression soften.

“Had he not been with me through my difficult delivery I would have never been able to make it.” You said now looking at Joon. He gave you a reassuring smile. You looked at your mother. She looked like she was about to cry. You quickly hugged her.

“I just want you to be happy my child.” She said patting your hair.

“I know ” you whispered as Joon wiped your tears. You looked at him. He was smiling now.

Your mother pulled away and turned around, facing Joon.

“Just don’t let me down this time, Okay?” she said.

“I won’t I promise.” He said taking her hand.

You took a sigh of relief. Things weren’t great but they were better than before. Now all of you could focus on your daughter instead of having internal conflicts.

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I thought this would be good scenario to talk about Joon’s bipolar disorder but I really want to write another one, maybe more intense than this! [I’ll think about it] anyways I hope you like it anon :)

posted 6 years ago with 27 notes

Hey guys, starting tomorrow I will be really busy and I won’t be able to post as many scenarios as I used to. I know most of you guys are going back to school too so I hope you understand. I’ll try my best to post atleast 1-2 scenarios everyday and post more on the weekends :) Thank you in advance for understanding! :)

I love each and every one of you! I know waiting can get annoying some times [ because I HATE it too] so I will try my best to keep up!

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Anonymous asked: "what was your inspiration for this blog? like what got you started?"

Three things!

1. I Love writing/ I love Kpop, so what better way to use my talent:P

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2. I used to be a reader but I got tired of waiting for my requests to be written so ..

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3. This really nice person on tumblr encouraged me to make one. She told me that I should totally go for it

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**Yaayyyy** Just reached a 100 followers with in 9 days of starting this blog! Thankyou so much you guys, for following me and taking the time to read my scenarios!

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I LOVE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU

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***Request/Ask box is now open***

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Guys,[especially the anons] If I ask something to you when I post your scenario requests please answer them otherwise when I start writing your scenarios I really don’t know what to do. This way you guys might not get what you want and I don’t want that. O__O

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Anonymous asked: "How long does it take you to write these?? They are amazing!! I never follow scenario blogs, but you are a first! ^-^ I wish I could write like you! <3"

** sigh** I try my best to write atleast 4 a day because I used to be a scenario reader too but I got tired of waiting for my scenarios to be written so I started writing my own therefore I try to write as much as possible so you guys don’t have to wait more than 2-3 days for your scenarios :) ~~ its alot of work though. as if now Im always writing O__O

Thankyou anon <3 <3

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As promised, the request/ask box is open again. You guys can send in your requests now :)

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Guys I am closing requests for a day [ Just one day, I promise]. I have so many scenarios saved up in draft and I want to proofread them and start posting them. When I delete this post you guys can request for more scenarios :) Again, really Sorry about this :(

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