Your Wish Is My Command

I meant forever [Yunho]

Requested by anon


Your vision was blurred as you slowly opened your eyes. The light right above you was hurting them. You blinked repeatedly. You suddenly remembered why you were at the hospital. The next thing you did was touch your stomach. The bump was gone. Your heart sank as you quickly sat up. Tears began forming and your throat started hurting.

Yunho entered the room. He looked distressed.

“No,” you whispered with a crying face.

He nodded and came up to you.

“I’m so sorry honey,” he said and embraced you.

You held your stomach as you wept. It was your 4th month into pregnancy and you had lost your child. This wasn’t the first time this has happened. It happened before too and had left you devastated.

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Yunho helped you lay down in the bed.

“I’ll make you some soup okay?” he said while putting a pillow under your head.

You nodded and turned your head sideways.

When Yunho came back into the room you had fallen asleep. He placed the soup on the night stand and sat beside you. He wiped the sweat beads from your forehead and ran his hand through your hair. He knew how hurt you were. He was equally hurt. Both of you didn’t know why it was happening to you.

He slid in bed besides you and gave you a kiss before drifting to sleep.

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Yunho woke up to the sound of your soft sniffles. He quickly got up and hugged you.

“I’m sorry I didn’t mean to wake you up,” you said wiping your tears. Your eyes were puffy. You’d been crying for a long time.

“______, everything will be fine,” he said placing his hands on your shoulder.

“What will your mother say?” you asked.

A worried look appeared on Yunho’s face.

“Let’s not worry about that for now okay. You need to rest. Just lay down,” he gently pushed you back into bed.

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A week had passed and nothing had changed. You were depressed. You barely made food for Yunho or cleaned the house. He didn’t say anything to you but kept patient.

“I’m going to the doctor today,” you told Yunho as he got ready for his schedule.

“Why?”

“I just want to talk to her.”

“Do you want me to come?” he asked.

“No, I’ll be fine,” you replied.

You got ready as soon as Yunho left. You thought it best not to tell him that the doctor had called you to talk about something. You hadn’t just randomly decided to go. You had an instinct that the news might not be good and so you didn’t want Yunho to be there with you.

Your legs were shaking as you entered the doctor’s room.

“_______, oh Hello!” she greeted you and motioned for you to sit down.

“How are you doing?” she asked sympathetically.

“Better,” you replied.

“Right, right! That’s great,” the doctor forced a smile.

“What’s the news doctor. Just tell me,” you asked getting impatient.

“_____ I think we should take it slow.”

“I don’t want to. Just tell me,” you insisted.

The doctor had to give in. “I wanted to tell you this last week but I thought I should wait. _______, the chances of you becoming a mother are very little now, now that you’ve had two miscarriages.”

You felt like your world had been crushed. You had cried so much the past week that even tears refused to form now. You were speechless. This couldn’t be happening to you. You closed your eyes tightly and opened them again. It was really happening.

You didn’t know when you got out of the hospital or what direction you were walking in. It was cold outside. You wrapped your coat tightly around you and kept walking. You felt worthless. There was no way you were going back to Yunho. He deserved someone much better.

The sun was setting. You settled down on a bench in an unknown park.

**ring ring** - Your phone rang.

Without thinking you picked it up.

“_________, where are you?” Yunho cried. He seemed extremely worried.

“I don’t know,” you said and the phone dropped out of your hands.

You could hear Yunho yelling your name through the phone but you didn’t pick it up. You didn’t want him to find you. You buried your face in your hands and went into a deep state of thinking. You wanted to run away and never come back.

It was completely dark now.  Time was passing by quickly and you still had no idea what you were going to do.

Somebody placed their hand on your shoulder. You jumped around to find Yunho standing with anger boiling up in his eyes. He pulled you up and hugged you.

“What happened?” he asked. “Why wouldn’t you tell me where you were? I was so worried about you. The entire Seoul Police department is looking for you.”

You pulled away and started to walk away.

He held your hand. “What’s wrong?” he asked, this time with an angry tone.

“Let me go Oppa,” you said, struggling.

“How can you say that? Why would I ever let you go?”

You didn’t respond but just looked away.

“I deserve an explanation,” he said pulling you towards him. He removed the strands of hair from your face. “Is this still about the baby?” he asked softly.

You shook your head.

“Then what is it?” he asked again.

The tears were coming back now. You rested your head on his chest and wrapped your hands around him. You began to say something but stopped. You didn’t know how to give him the news. You knew that It would leave him heartbroken.

“I might never be able to become a mother, oppa!” You said, finally.

You could feel Yunho’s grip loosen on you. He was devastated.

“You deserve someone who can at least give you a child. I don’t belong in your life.”

Yunho didn’t respond. He was still shocked by the news you had just given him. You watched him as tears formed in his eyes too. You couldn’t even wipe them away because you were the cause of those tears. You felt disgusted by your existence. It was time to leave. You began walking. Yunho didn’t stop you. His eyes were fixed into space. He didn’t know what was happening around him.

You turned around and looked at him. He hadn’t moved an inch. You sighed and continued walking. This was the end of your relationship. There was nothing else to live for anymore.

“Waiiiiiiiiiiittttt” Yunho called after you. He sprinted towards you and hugged you. “Don’t leave me.”

“Oppa..” you began saying but he cut you.

“Please! Don’t. I know how much it hurts you and it hurts me too but we will be in this together. We’ll adopt a child or I’ll take you to America to get an opinion from better doctors but please don’t go.”

He was crying now.

“You don’t have to do this oppa,” you said.

“I do! And I don’t want you to be alone in this _______. When I promised to be a part of your life. I meant forever. Don’t just walk away like this.”

You pulled away. “But..”

He put his finger on your lips.

“We’ll figure something out,” he whispered wiping away your tears. “Now come back home.”

He held your hand and pulled you. You thought a lot before submitting to his pleading. A smile spread across Yunho’s face. This was the first time he had smiled in the past week. It gave you hope and strength that you needed at the point. You were happy too, that you didn’t have to leave the person you most dearly loved.

“Mianhamnida Oppa,” you said as you rested your head on his shoulder.

“Don’t say that.” He smiled and slipped his hands around your waist as the two of you walked back home.

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*sigh*

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