Your Wish Is My Command

If I ever forgive myself.. [ Kai ] Part 2

 Part 1: http://kpopfantasyworld.tumblr.com/post/28419334306/if-i-ever-forgive-myself-kai

Requested by exokmforever

As you got home, you stumbled and fell. You felt like all your energy had been drained out. You could finally cry now, cry all you wanted. You rested your head on the door and before you knew it you were in deep sleep.

You woke up to the sound of thunder. It was raining heavily outside. The tree branches were hitting the window repeatedly. The skies were weeping with you that day. You got up, made yourself some coco and settled on the couch. ‘_­­­­­______, you need to pull yourself together now. You won’t be able to move on in life like this. The decision you made today is right and you should be confident about it. So what if you can’t be with him. So what if you broke someone’s hurt. Just move on now. Life is full of disappointments. We don’t always get what we want and we should learn to live with this fact. It may hurt but in the long run you might thank yourself for it. You need a break from all of this right now and think about your future.  Get your head into different things and soon you’ll forget about all of this.’

It had been a while you had a little talk with yourself and that night you felt much better. You were ready to start anew.

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6 months later

“Hey, Mr. Kim said the article is due by the end of the day,” Yu han said to you.

“Oh my God, I feel like flipping tables over here. I can’t think of anything new right now,” you replied, burying your face into your hands.

“I know exactly the thing to do. Let’s go out for frozen yogurt. It will freshen you up,” he offered.

“Sure, I’m up for anything right now,” you answered desperately.

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“Yummmm, this stuff is good. I almost forgot how tasty this was. I really should go out more often,” you said while stuffing your mouth with frozen yogurt.

Yu han looked at you and started laughing. “Why are you laughing?” you asked.

“You’ve got yogurt on your nose. Here let me wipe it for you,” he said cleaning your nose. You were giggling, when suddenly you saw something you never wished to see. Your hands got numb and your tummy started hurting. Kai was staring right at you. You didn’t know how long he’d been there.

“Excuse me,” you said and got up to use the restroom. You could hear your heartbeat. You threw water on your face repeatedly. ‘He probably doesn’t even remember me anymore. Why am I so worried? He must have left by now. Just calm down, relax and go outside okay.’ You convinced yourself and opened the bathroom door. Suddenly two hands grabbed you dragged you into the guy’s bathroom. Kai pinned you against the wall. He held your hands tightly. It hurt but looking at his face, only inches from yours gave you satisfaction you had been longing for.

“So this is what you do to me? You leave me in the dumps and move on with some other guy. I thought you were better than this you know. I cried for you dammit. I forced myself not to see you because you wanted that,” he banged his hand on the wall.”

“Ahh, “ you let out a silent scream and closed your eyes. He held your face and forced you to look at him.

“Do you have an answer for me because I would really like to know why you did this. You really are a player. You played with your boy friend; you played with my heart and now him. I should go warn him. At least he’ll be spared.”

“You’re hurting me,” you whispered, trying to make him loosen his grip on your wrist.

“No,” he snapped back,” you’re hurting me!”

“You don’t know a thing,” you said between sobs.

Looking at your tears, his heart melted and his grip loosened. He was mad at you but only because he loved you. Seeing you with someone made him jealous. He lifted his hands and wiped your tears.

“No matter how much I hate you, I will still be in love with you.” He said pulling away. You could see tears forming in his eyes. He was very distressed. 

“He’s not my boy friend,” you said. You were really hurt. This is what he thought of you. You didn’t want to stay there a minute longer. You turned around and left.

A tear fell from his eyes and rolled down his cheek. ‘I should have controlled myself. What the heck happened to me? I guess I just lost all control. She deserves an apology. More importantly she needs me.

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“Ohh shucks, I left my keys at the office,” You said while kicking your apartment door. The sudden sound of thunder sacred you. “Great, just what I needed. You’re really testing me aren’t you?” you said while looking up. You had no choice but to go back. You were completely soaked and you had just stepped out of the building. You knew you were going to get sick but you had to take your chances.

“______ ah,” Kai came running towards you. He pulled you towards himself and covered you with his jacket.

“What are you doing out in the rain?” he asked.

“I left me keys at the office and I don’t have any spares. My umbrella is inside the house so here I am.”

Kai smiled at you but you refused to smile back. His words were still revolving in your head and they had really hurt you.

“Come with me,” he pulled you. 

“Aniyo,” you tried to release your hand. 

“Jebal,” he asked and stopped a taxi. “Come on.”

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The taxi stopped in front of a Kai’s apartment. “Why are we here? I don’t want to be here. Just take me to my office.” You whined. 

“This is the best I can do right now. Okay.” He insisted and took you inside.

He turned on the fire in the fire place and went to fetch some cloths for you.

“­­­­________ ah, come and get changed or you’ll get sick,” he called you.

You went inside only to find him shirtless. “Could you please put on a shirt?” you asked.

“No, I don’t feel like wearing one,” he replied casually. “Here take these and get changed.”

You changed your shirt which was obviously huge on you. You literally drowned in them but the scent of his perfume on the shirt made you never want to take it off.  You came out of the bathroom and sure enough he was still shirtless. He advanced towards you and stopped only inches away.

“______, I am so sorry about what I said earlier,” he said and looked down on the floor. He couldn’t meet your eyes anymore. He felt guilty.

“I would do anything to take back my words. Hurting you is the last thing I would want to do. I just can’t live without you anymore. I tried and I’ve failed. When I saw you with your friend, I was devastated. I can’t stand seeing you with someone else. I just can’t take it. You’ve hurt yourself enough ______. Stop testing yourself. You can move on now. I’m pretty sure your ex moved on too. You can’t continue living like this. No matter how much you deny it, you and I both know that you’re as much in love with me as I am.” He was looking straight into your eyes now, “I love you.” His words send shudders through your body. You wanted to cry. This time they were tears of joy. You let yourself cry. Nobody could stop you that day. You had held it in you for 6 months but that night was the time to let it go. You felt comfortable showing him your weak side.

He hesitated but then he leaned in and pressed his lips against yours. You didn’t wait a second and kissed him back. You didn’t ever want to let go. You wanted it to last forever. You had waited long enough and  the wait was inally over. He slid his hand to the back of your neck. You ran your hand through his hair. It was just like the movies. Just like you had imagined it to be. Your little love story that you had left hanging 6 months ago was finally complete.

‘You had finally forgiven yourself.’

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I’m pretty satisfied with the ending *yaaay* <3

posted 6 years ago with 36 notes

You’re insecure, Don’t know what for.. [ Kai ]

Requested by anon

You and Kai were going out for a romantic dinner tonight and so you were supposed to meet him at the training center. *** “Romantic dinner? Seriously since when did you become so cheesy? “ you said. “Ever since I met you. Every couple does this, we should give it a shot. We’re always hanging out with the boys with no time left for ourselves,” he replied***

You recalled the conversation with him earlier, and smiled. “Kai, Kaiiiiiiiiiii Oppa where are you?” you yelled entering the training center. “He isn’t here. He went to get something from the store. He’ll be back in a minute though,” Kris replied.

“Hmm okay,” you said turning to go outside.

“Wait..” he called back, “you can come in here and sit with me,” he suggested.

“Oh okay,” you said and the two of you started conversing.

Thirty minutes passed away and Kai did not show up. “Where the heck is he,” you asked sounding frustrated.

“Wow, you sound like you aren’t enjoying talking to me,” Kris said sounding disappointed.

“Oh no silly, I am.” you patted his shoulder, “ Im just wondering where he is, its not like him to get late,” you said.

“Anneyonghaseyo,” Kai yelled as he entered.

“You’re in big trouble, your girlfriend is pretty upset but that’s alright I kept her entertained,” Kris remarked.

“Ohh, Im so sorry baby, I was getting some stuff for the managers,” Kai apologized.

“It’s alright.. let’s go now,” you said while getting up.

“Hey Kris you wanna join us,” you turned around and asked.

“Aaa, Im sure he has work to do,” Kai answered before Kris could say anything.

“You didn’t even let him answer, respect you hyung,” you said jokingly.

“That’s what I’ve been trynna do,” Kai mumbled under his breath.

“Did you say something,” you asked.

“Nothing lets go. I’m really hungry,” Kai said pulling you out.

“Bye Krisssssss,” you yelled as you left

“Bye,” he said and sighed.

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“You got a little something over there, let me wipe it for you,” Kai said advancing towards you.

“Oppa, have you been reading, those romantic books because I’m pretty sure I have nothing on my mouth,” you said and giggled.

He laughed,” Maybe.”

After dinner, both of you walked home. “Why are we walking home and not taking the taxi?” you asked.

“Haven’t you seen those movies when the guy walks the girl home and then kisses her at the door?”

“He also offers her a jacket when she is cold,” you said while shivering.

“Oh sorry,” he said taking his jacket off and wrapping it around you.

“Gomawo.”

You reached to your front door and sure enough he kissed you. “Thank you tonight was beautiful,” you said.

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“Hey, it’s okay if you can’t take me, Kris is driving down there tomorrow and he offered to take me,” you said to Kai on the phone.

“No, no wait,” he shot back, “ I’ll figure something out. I’ll try getting out of practice earlier okay. Just wait for me a bit.”

“Oppa, I know you’re really busy and I don’t wanna disturb you,” you replied.

“Okay let me come over tonight and we will talk about this okay?” he said.

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“Why do you always freak out whenever I mention Kris oppa’s name.” you asked as both of you settled on the couch.

“He’s not your oppa okay, I AM your oppa. Don’t call him your Oppa,” he said freaking out.

“Are you okay?” you said rubbing his shoulder. He suddenly hugged  you.

“Kris hyung has liked you for a while. Longer than me actually. We made a bet as to who would you choose and you chose me. He was really disappointed because he really liked you. He later told me that he didn’t have feelings for you just to make me happy but I know he does. He just says that because he is my hyung and he doesn’t want to hurt me. I feel guilty every time I see him like this. More importantly I get jealous because he is so perfect and irresistible. Girls throw themselves over him and if you spend more time with him even you might start liking him. Call me selfish or possessive but I don’t want you to be around him. Besides I know how much it hurts him and I don’t want that either.”

You didn’t know how to respond. You were shocked. “ I am so sorry,” Kai said.

You hugged him, “ Why do you feel so insecure, you are the one I love.”

“I know but..”

“Shhhhh,” you leaned in and kissed him.

“If it makes you happy than I won’t be around Kris as much anymore,” you said.

“You’re making me sound selfish,” he replied.

“Protective, not selfish,” you corrected him,” Now shhhh and let me enjoy this kiss,” you said pressing your lips against his.

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I ddn’t feel like writing long paragraphs showing how much _________ [you] loved him because I wanted to have that “Most things should be left unsaid” effect ;) I hope you like it anon :)

posted 6 years ago with 49 notes

Anonymous asked: "Can you do a scenario where you are married to Kai and have a 6 month old?"

Awww… sure :) image

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posted 6 years ago with 1 note