Your Wish Is My Command

You felt alive again [Mir]

Requested by anon




“________ah, are you in here?” Mir poked his head inside your room. “There you are!” a smile spread on his face.

You rolled out of bed and looked up. “What are you doing here?”

“I came to check on you,” he replied.

“I’m fine,” you pouted and rolled your eyes.

“You left the front door open again,” he made a face.

“I’m still alive aren’t I? So what’s the big deal?” you raised your eyebrows.

“Okay okay! Let’s forget about that.” Mir pulled a smile and hugged you. “Let’s go out somewhere.”

You shook your head and pulled away.

“Come on, it’s the first day of spring. Don’t you want to enjoy the sunlight?”

“Aniyo,” you pouted and walked into the bathroom. You were hoping he’d be gone by the time you came out of the bathroom but he was still there. He held up a light orange and yellow dress.

“Wear this. It’ll look nice on you,” he winked.

“Oppa, I don’t want to go,” you tried to remain politely.

“Why not? You weren’t having a good day yesterday so I was hoping you’d be feeling better today.”

“I am feeling better. I just don’t want to go out anywhere.”

“________ is there something you’re not telling me?”

He asked with such sincerity that you just wanted to hug him and sob for the rest of the day. He was the closest person to you. You wanted to ball out all of your feelings to him but you didn’t want to disturb him. You knew well that guys couldn’t be sympathetic no matter how hard they tried. Nevertheless you didn’t want to disappoint him. He always tried to cheer you up and this was the least he could do for you.

“Ok, let’s go,” you sighed taking the dress from him.

“Yaaaaaayy,” he cheered. “I love you.”

You gave him a brief smile before walking into the bathroom once again to change.

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“So where are you taking me?” you asked. The two of you had been walking down unfamiliar paths for a long time.

“Just wait and watch,” he held your hand and dragged you.

“Seriously a park?” you said walking in the entrance.

“Yeah I know but I’m going to take you somewhere else,” he winked. Both you and him continued walking until you hit the woods. It was almost the end of the park. You were getting tired. It had been an hour since you left the house.

He walked you through a tunnel and there it was, the place he wanted to show you. Your jaw dropped as you stared at what was before you with utter amazement. It was a beautiful grassland surrounded by huge trees spreading their shadows over the smaller plants. The sun’s rays escaped through the tiny gap making the white flowers look even more beautiful.

“Come on,” Mir said with a smile on his face.

“Why did you never bring me here before?” you asked.

He didn’t respond. He kept pulling until you guys reached the middle. You could hear a waterfall in the background.

The two of you lay down on the ground with your faces facing each other.

“It’s a special place to me,” he whispered. “ I don’t bring any one here.”

A smile spread on your face. You lifted your hand, intending to touch his face. The smile that was on his face never changed. It was still there…

“______________ah, wake up!” Mir shook you.

“Huh!? Uhhh” you sat up, rubbing your eyes.

“How? I thought we were..? What’s happening,” you asked in extreme confusion.

“Are you okay?” he asked in utter confusion.

“You left your front door open again!” he made a face. As reality started sinking in, you realized that you’d been dreaming.  That splendid path, that sunlight, those flowers none of it was real. It wasn’t the first time you’d had dreams like these. You had them occasionally and they left you sad afterwards because they were nowhere near reality. You looked at Mir with longing eyes as he got up to get a glass of water. He came back and sat beside you. He placed it close to your lips.

“Want some?” he asked. You nodded your head and just as you were about to take a sip he pulled it away and drank all of it. He looked at you with a cheeky smile and then began laughing.

“I hate you oppa,” you pulled a cushion from behind you and hit him with it.

“Ai, that hurt,” he said innocently.

“Why are you here?”

“I stopped by to get my jacket. You took it from me yesterday and never returned it,” he made a face.

“Aish, mianhe,” you pouted.

“It’s okay,” he patted your head. “I have to rush. I’ll see you later.”

 Before leaving the room he looked back at you. He didn’t like it when you were upset. He wanted to hug you and kiss you and tell you how much he loved you but every time he said it, it didn’t mean anything to you.

“___________ah,” he called your name. You looked at him with a flat face.

“I love you,” he said and winked. A sudden shudder ran through you just like all the other times when he said those three words. You just wished they meant something. You wished that when you returned those three words to him he’d know that it meant something. He always played around. You never knew when he was serious and when not.

“I love you too,” you said forcing a fake smile on your face.

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Mir left and you curled up inside your bed once again. Day and night weren’t two different things for you. It all seemed the same to you. Just a year ago you were a happy girl. You laughed with everybody else and cried when they did. Then suddenly things changed. Nothing seemed to make you happy. You felt like a caged bird wanting to escape. You’d created a sort of shell around yourself. Very few could enter and Mir was one of them. He’d been there all along but he had never seemed to see the difference in you. Maybe you were just a really good actor and could easily cover up your depressed emotions. You knew well that if you told him that you liked him, what his reaction would be. He wouldn’t ever reject you. He was too nice to do that. But did you really want to do that? You could barely handle yourself, how could expect him to deal with you.  You shrugged the thought out off your head and buried your face in the pillow. A tear rolled out of your eyes and before you knew it, you were crying, sobbing and then weeping.

You knew well you needed help but you were too afraid to tell someone. If this kept going on it was going to get more dangerous. You hoped that day never came but it was slowly creeping up.

Your eye sight was getting weak too now since crying yourself to sleep every night was a routine for you. Tonight was going to be just like that. You moved your hand around on the bed to find the remote. You turned on the TV and kept changing channels. Nothing good was on. Another reason for you to keep crying. Even fate wasn’t on your side. You felt like everything was negative around you. You always told yourself that maybe you weren’t good enough that’s why.

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“_______________ah,  are you up yet?” Mir yelled from the living room. Last time you heard that voice, it was a dream. You didn’t bother opening your eyes. In fact you closed them even more tightly and pulled the pillow on your head.

“_________ah, wake up!”  Mir came into the room. You felt the left side of the bed dip a little bit. Was it real? Was he really here? If he was, you were never showing him your face. You knew your eyes looked puffy from the night before’s crying.

“____________, wake up. Come on! I need to take you somewhere. It’s the first day of spring.”

“Go away oppa,” you mumbled but the pillow ate your voice.

“I can’t hear you,” he said trying to pull it off of you. It was real. It wasn’t a dream. He really was there. You clenched the pillow tightly. Mir suddenly released it. There was no movement for a while and the next second you felt a bucket of cold water being poured over you. You immediately jumped up. Mir saw your puffy, red eyes and drenched body. He began laughing.

“Look at you face,” he said between giggles. You felt like somebody had just put a heavy weight on your heart. Out of all the people in the world, he was laughing at you. You expected much better out of him. Without thinking you pushed him with all your strength and yelled , ”Get out.”

Mir stumbled but handled himself. He couldn’t understand what had happened in mere 30 seconds. His face turned serious. He sensed something was wrong. Really wrong.

“________, are you okay?” he asked.

“Nothing,” you said glaring at him. You couldn’t calm your nerves at all.

“_________ please tell me what’s wrong.” He came towards you. He began to grab you but you pushed him once again.

“I said go away,” you yelled. Mir didn’t stop. Instead he pulled you towards him, causing you to burry your head against his chest. You struggled but he kept his grip strong holding your head firmly and using his other hand to hold your back. You kept hitting him but he stood strong.

“Just let me go,” you mumbled finally giving up.

“Shhhhhh,” he patted your back and stroked your hair. “Everything will be alright.” He kept repeating. You couldn’t control yourself. More tears flowed out. You’d hit your breaking point. You sobbed for a long time and all that time Mir stood there trying to comfort you.

He finally loosened his grip guessing that it was okay to let go. He sat you down on the bed. You immediately scrunched up your legs against your chest. He sat too, facing you.

“Do you want to talk about it?” he asked. You shook your head.

“Okay,” he mumbled and just sat there watching you.

“Why are you doing this?” you asked turning your head sideways.

“Because I…” he trailed off.  “I worry about you.”

“Don’t”

“I can’t.”

“Try.”

He couldn’t take it anymore. He was going to say it and this time actually show you that he meant it. He forced you to turn your face to him. You looked at him with questioning eyes.

“Don’t you understand? ___________ I love you,” this was the first time he’d said it looking straight into your eyes. He meant it. Instead of being happy, you got scared. You shook your head.

“Don’t say that.”

“Why not?”

“Because you don’t know what I’m going through.”

“Do you think I don’t know what you’re going through?” he snapped back. “It breaks my heart to see you suffer for no reason every day. _________ I’ve been in love with you for the longest time. I remember when you used to be that happy girl. You were so full of life. What happened to that? What happened?” Mir got teary eyed.

You were speechless. This is what your heart had been longing to hear. You felt a twinge of pain in your heart. You loved him too. But was it worth it to make him waste his life on someone like you. You pushed his hand gently.

“Oppa, you don’t want to do this. You don’t know how bad it is.”

“Then tell me how bad it is. I can help you _______. Trust me.”

You kept shaking your head. Mir pulled you into a hug once again. “Do you have any idea what I feel about you? Do you have any idea the pain I feel every time a tear drops from your eyes? It hurts ______. It really hurts. “

His words ran like a shudder through your body. You had no idea how madly in love he was with you.

“Say that you love me too,” he whispered giving you a deep kiss on your neck.

“I love you too,” you whispered back. You hadn’t felt more comfortable in the longest time. Your soul was hungry for love and that’s all he was offering you.

“Would you be willing to go see a therapist?” he asked hesitantly, still not letting go of you. You nodded your head and tightened your arms around him. You were scared but if he was there, you were willing to give it a shot.

A little part of you started to feel alive again and it was all because of him…

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For all the beautiful girls out there who suffer from depression. Please don’t do this to yourself. If you need help, TALK to someone. Keeping it inside is like slowly killing yourself. Don’t do that.

I hope you guys like this! 

posted 6 years ago with 22 notes

Gajok [Mir]

Requested by aww-sehunyoucutie



You knocked on the door for the fourth time and still no one answered. It wasn’t usual of the MBLAQ members to not be in their dorm at 10 in the morning. They all adored sleep, especially on the weekends. You took out your phone and called Mir. He didn’t answer. You were a little mad but worried at the same time. Where could they be? You began to wonder. Just then you heard their footsteps coming up the stairs. They were are laughing and clapping their hands. Mir’s eyes fell on you as soon as he reached the top.

“_________ah, there you are,” he came forward and gave you a quick peck on the lips.

“Where were you?” you pouted.  You turned around to look at the guys and a girl standing next to them.  You looked back at Mir with questioning eyes.

“Noona, meet _________,” he said advancing towards the girl.

“________, meet my noona.” A smile spread across your face. She was the first member from Mir’s family that you were meeting. 7 months and 1 family member, you could only hope how long it would take to meet the rest.

“Anyeong!” you greeted her and bowed slightly.

“Anyeong,” she giggled. “You don’t have to do that. Don’t be formal with me. We’re just like friends.” She winked.

You relaxed a little bit.

“Mir talks a lot about you and…”

“Ummm can we go inside and talk?” Mir interrupted.

“Oh ahhhahah,” both you and her chuckled.

You had a long conversation with his sister and quiet surprisingly she was very nice. You were scared of Mir’s family because every time you asked him to introduce you to them he would just politely ignore the subject.

“___________ah, when will you be leaving?” Mir asked out of the blue.

“Leaving?” you repeated with confusion.

“Yeah, Noona and I are going to the movies tonight.” You were a little disappointed that he hadn’t even thought about inviting you. You were still a little mad about him not telling you that his sister was coming over and that he went with her and all the members without inviting you. Nevertheless you didn’t want to act like a clingy girlfriend so you remained quiet.

“__________,” he nudged you.

“Huh! Oh umm yeah I was just leaving!” you said standing up.

“I’ll see you soon okay?” he said walking you to the door.

“Anyeong.”

“Anyeong”

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Four days passed and Mir didn’t contact you at all. You knew he was spending time with his sister. And you were all up for giving him some space but a little text wouldn’t hurt.

Oppaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…’ –you texted him.

15 minutes passed. You felt like a desperate pabo for waiting for the screen to light up.

Ye?,’ – he finally texted back.

Do you want to do something tonight?’

‘It’s Tuesday night O_O’

So?’

I have to wake up early tomorrow’

‘Oh alright o_O’

You put the phone on the night stand and closed your eyes. You hated your mood swings when you were on your periods. You felt lonely and wanted to cuddle with someone but sadly it was just going to be you and your little teddy bear that night.

Your phone buzzed. You jumped around, hoping Mir had changed his mind. It wasn’t him. It was your friend.

“Hey,” you said picking up the phone.

“Wanna hang out?” she asked.

“Aaaa, not in the mood.”

“Oh come onnnn, I feel so lonely tonight. I need some bubble tea shots,” she giggled. You laughed too. You agreed to go with her only because you felt the same way as her that night. Lonely.

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“________ah, isn’t that Mir?” your friends said pointing at your boy friend sitting in the corner table.

“What?” you stood up in surprise and almost spilt your bubble tea.

“Calm down,” she made a face and pulled you.

“No, I just called him an hour ago to ask if he wanted to hang but he told me he had to get up early tomorrow,” you said angrily.

“I think he’s with someone,” she said pushing back a little bit to get a better look.  “Oh yep, definitely with someone.”

You turned around and looked once again. Of course, he was there with his noona.

“It’s his noona,” you mumbled.

“Just go and sit down with him,” she suggested.

“Nah, I don’t want to disturb them,” you made an annoyed face.

“Meeaaoowwww, you don’t like her do you?”

You sighed. “I do! I mean don’t I have too? It’s just that he hasn’t been paying attention to me ever since she came to visit and I know she won’t be here for a long time but I’m still so … oh Gosh! Who am I kidding I sound like a little brat,” you buried your face in your hands and rested your head on the table.

“Aniyo! You don’t sound like a brat.” She comforted you.

“He could have at least told me he was coming here, instead of lying to me.” You mumbled as a tear rolled down your cheek. That wasn’t the normal you but you had lots of mixed feelings inside you that day.

“_________,” you  heard a familiar voice say your name. It was Mir’s voice. You quickly wiped your tear and looked up.

“What are you doing here?” he asked. ‘Shouldn’t I be the one asking this question’ you thought to yourself while squinting your eyes at him. He understood that you were a little mad.

“Noona, wanted some bubble tea so I decided to bring her here. I was going to call you but I thought you’d be asleep.” 

You tried to calm yourself but his explanations were only making you more mad.

“It’s alright!” you said getting up. You forced a pretty obvious fake smile on your face and turned around to leave.

“Let’s go,” you said to your friend and without looking back you left the shop.

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“Aaaaaaaaaaaa! I’m coming,” you yelled at the person who’d been knocking on your door for the past half hour.  You opened the door rubbing your eyes and an annoyed face.  The very next second you jumped up with excitement.

“Oppa!” you laughed hysterically as you saw your older brother. “When did you..How did..?? Oh my God forget all that,” you hugged him tightly. He chuckled and stroked your hair.

“I just got here.”

“Did Umma come with you?” you asked.

“Aniyo, she couldn’t but I came to check on you.”

“Check on me?” you made an amused face.

“Ye, I worry about you,” he placed his hand on your cheeks. “Seoul is a big city and you live here all by yourself.”

“Oppa! I’m a big girl now,” you pouted.

“Aish, I know,” he laughed and messed your hair, just like old times.

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______________ah, where are you?’ –Mir texted you for the first time ever since your encounter with him at the bubble tea shop.

I’m busy..’ – you texted back clearly expressing your anger.

Ok..’ – You couldn’t believe it. ‘OK’ was the only thing he could say to you. You were losing your nerve now.

“What’s going on?” you brother asked sitting beside you.

“Nothing,” you muttered.

“Those wrinkles on your forehead tell me a different story,” he said. You knew if you told him about how Mir was treating you, he’d be pretty upset. You didn’t want him to get mad at Mir because sooner or later he was going to apologize to you.

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“Oppa, I’ve never had so much fun at a street market,” you said wiping your nose. “Ice cream in the snow! Best idea ever,” you said excitedly.

“You’re going to get sick,” he said giving you a tissue.  You shook your head and licked your ice cream.

“Hey look!” you brother pointed towards the north.  Mir was waving at you and him. He sprinted towards you guys.

“Mir, my man,” your brother said and did the casual hand shake. That was the first time you actually hated them being so chill with each other.

“Haven’t seen you ever since I got here,” your brother said.

“Yeah,” he scratched his head. “___________, never told me you were here. I would have come.”

“Shouldn’t you have come any ways to see her?” he asked. You giggled on the inside. He was going to get in trouble and you didn’t feel bad at all. He deserved it. Mir looked at you nervously. You returned a glare and then rolled your eyes.

“Anyeong,” Mir’s sister came up from behind and greeted.

“Anyeong,” Your brother said with a surprised expression on his face. “I think I know you from somewhere.”

She giggled. “Communication skills class, Pusan University, 2009.”

“Ahhh ye ye ye,” your brother snapped his fingers.

“You’re Mir’s…”

“Sister,” she finished for him.

“Aaa, I didn’t know that.” The two of them began talking as if they had a lot of catching up to do. You pouted. First Mir and now your brother. You made a crying face and turned around.

“________, _________ wait,” Mir held your hand.

“Let me go Oppa,” you yanked you sleeve and began walking once again. Mir walking besides you.

“Go away,” you said as tears started flowing out of your eyes. He kept walking with you.

The two of you reached your apartment. You went inside and tried to close the door on him but he was obviously stronger than you.

“__________, tell me what’s wrong?” he asked holding you. You shrugged him away and went to your room.

“_______, please tell me what’s wrong?” he asked once again. He did sound worried.

“It’s nothing okay!” you snapped back.

“Well you’re crying and you won’t talk to me what’s wrong so something’s definitely up,” he held you once again.

“I don’t want to sound mean and I don’t want you to hate me either so just let it go. Give me some time and I’ll be fine,” you said resting your head on his chest.

“I would never hate you,” he said running his fingers through your hair.

 “Is it because I haven’t been able to spend much time with you lately?” he asked after a while. You were surprised he understood you.

“Aniyo,” you shook your head rubbing your face with his shirt. He chuckled.

“I know you my little penguin. You can’t hide your feelings from me no matter how hard you try,” he pulled you away and then gave you a long kiss on the lips.

“I’m sorry. I know I was being stupid but I just couldn’t help it. She comes once in three years and I just wanted to as much time with her as possible.”

“It’s okay Oppa, I understand.” You said.

“And I would have invited you but I just didn’t want it to be awkward.”

“It won’t be awkward. Try inviting me next time,” you winked. He smiled and kissed you once again.

“You have explanations to do too missy.”

“What?” you asked with a bemused expression.

“Yeah, you never told me your brother was here and then you didn’t text me for a week. Were you trying to make e jealous?” he squinted his eyes.

“Noo,” you said with a cheeky smile and began to run away. Mir caught up to you and picked you up.

“You’ll pay for this,” he said walking back to the room.

“Aish,” you gave him a quick peck.You couldn’t wait for what was yet to come.

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Aaaaaa this requests kind of scared me at first because I was afraid I won’t have anything to write but then I started writing and so here it is.. ^^. Hope you guys like it :)


Guys I didn’t proofread this because I have to  study for my midterm but I’ll be sure to do that tomorrow.

posted 6 years ago with 25 notes