Requested by anon [Based on One Shot MV- BAP]
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Present day:
Your hands were covered with his blood. You had tried hard, really hard to save him from bleeding to death. Just a few seconds ago he was standing before you, alive and threatening to kill you. You were sure you were going to die that night but then he came back to protect you like he always had in the past. He was an angel but somewhere along the way you had stopped believing that. It was his fault. He had decided to leave one day without telling anyone. You and the other gang members were surprised but more than that you were all heartbroken. Even though all of you had only known him for a few months, he had made a place in everyone’s heart.
And today when he finally came back, he gave you hope. But that hope died as soon as it came. He was gone after he put that man to his ultimate end. He didn’t even wait to say a proper goodbye.
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Six months ago:
“Who is he? Why did you bring him in here? You know this is our..” Himchan panicked seeing Yongguk carry a dying man into the shed.
“Oh shut up Himchan… look at him. He’s bleeding. We need to help him,” you said pushing him aside and running for aid.
“He was running away from M4’s gang members but they caught up to him…” Yongguk replied. He gave the wounded man support and walked him to the bed. You took off his shirt to find the source of bleeding. He was breathing heavily and recovery seemed impossible. He tilted his head to the side to look at you. He held your hands tightly, as if telling you he didn’t want to die. You turned to Yongguk for help. “There could be something we can do…we can’t let him die like this.” Yongguk nodded his head and then he was gone. You turned around to look at the man. His eyes were closing. You had to keep him awake. He had to struggle. You didn’t know him but at that moment, all you wanted for him was to live.
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Everyone sat by the fireplace to listen to Zelo’s strange stories. He’s promised he would come up with some wonderful ones at the next win. It had been a big day for the members, against the Zerox brothers. They had taken over your gang’s supplies a year ago and that day you had won them back. The room was filled with the air of success. Everyone seemed happy until he walked in. The room fell silent. His eyes met Yongguk’s as if complaining for still treating him like an outsider. It had been a little over a month since he had ‘joined’ the group. Yongguk laughed out loud, encouraging the members to act normal and invited Youngjae to come join. Youngjae- that’s what his name was.
He came and sat beside you- the only girl in the group. In the past one month he had asked you several times why you were with these people. You had always found his questions strange. The members were like your family. There was no question of not being with them.
Zelo continued with the story while the rest listened. Youngjae slipped his hand to the side. Without any sign of hesitance he held yours. The two of you were in the corner, kind of in the dark therefore no one could see what was happening.
“Let go,” you whispered fighting hard with that smile on your face. Youngjae shook his head and tightened his grip.
“If they see you do this, they will get mad at you…especially Yongguk,” you said.
“He won’t,” he replied. You thought it best not to fight and remain calm. The more you spoke the more the suspicions would rise. Yongguk eyed you. You tried to move your hand where he wouldn’t be able to see but his gaze danced along your every move. He smiled a little and looked away. He knew about your little love affair with the new comer. He’d known all along but never bothered saying anything. In fact he acted like it didn’t bother him when in reality, it hurt a lot.
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A few more months passed by. Youngjae had become a much dearer member to the group. He had helped in small gang attacks to carrying out bigger plans. Sometimes he asked you guys why you did such stuff. None of you ever had an answer. All of you were sort of born into that. Yongguk told Youngjae to accept his fate and stop interrogating so much. If he wanted to be part of the group, he had to accept the way you all lived.
You were nervous for Youngjae. For the upcoming mission he was required to go into the police head quarters. It was tricky but Youngjae had accepted graciously. He had mentioned once before that he was familiar with the inside of the building therefore he could get the work done faster.
You, Jongup and Daehyun waited in the car while Youngjae operated from the inside of the building. He was looking up the records for the M4 gang members. Your gang was going to use it very cunningly to your advantage. Youngjae was being monitored very carefully by the camera you had put on his shirt. However, a few minutes after he gained access to the files, the camera stopped working. There was no trace of him.
“Youngjae.. respond,” Daehyun cried through the transceiver. There was no response. You tried hard to work with the camera but it seemed as if it had been disconnected instead of being broken. You lied to the other members though. You told them that someone might have crept up on him from behind.
Daehyun, who always had trouble trusting Youngjae thought quite the opposite. “You’re lying,” he yelled. The three of you waited for a long time but it was confirmed. There was no sign of him. He was not going to come back.
You could feel sweat beads forming on your forehead as you anticipated his arrival. A fear though, was creeping on you. Deep down you had a feeling he was not going to come. Just earlier that day, he had held your hand and told you he cared about you. He had said that before too but for some reason you didn’t want to believe him that day. Something just seemed different about him.
“Let’s go back. That traitor won’t come back,” Daehyun said grinding his teeth. Jongup started the engine with a heavy heart. Youngjae indeed had betrayed you all.
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Present Day:
“_______!________ are you alright?” you heard Yongguk say. “Why did you come here alone? You knew those guys were dangerous? Do you have any idea how worried I was about you?” With that he pulled you into a hug.
You were still in a state of shock, not being able to say a single word. Yongguk rubbed your back to make you feel better.
“He…he..came back,” you whispered into his ear. Yongguk’s ear perked like that of a predator. He pulled back to look at you.
“Where is he?” Yongguk asked as his nostrils flared with anger. You’d never seen him like that. He never got angry but that day, hearing you talk about him brought all of his inner anger out.
“He left…! I don’t know where he came from but he shot this guy while I was being attacked and then left before I could stop him. …I don’t know why he didn’t stop. Not even when I tried to call him..” you buried your face into your hand and began crying. Your condition was piercing Yongguk’s heart. He looked at the other members. They knew why Youngjae was never going to return and he felt that it was time he told you.
“He’s with the police!” Yongguk said rather plainly.
“What?” you looked at him strangely.
“Jongup found out a few days ago. The only reason he ‘joined’ out gang was to get information about how our system works. We don’t know why he spared us but …all I know is that…I made a mistake trusting him…”
After that Yongguk’s words stopped registering in your head. You started to remember all the lies Youngjae told you. His police badge flashed before your eyes. How could you miss something as obvious as that? He tried to hide it as soon as you saw it. He lied and you believed.
“Come on ________!” Yongguk said lifting you up. “It may hurt now but time will heal all.” You rested your head on Yongguk’s shoulder as you and the rest of the members walked back. One question that remained in everyone’s heart was, ‘Was he really a traitor or not?’
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Sort of really different from the MV but you guys will see some similarities in the story. Hope you guys like this version. Forgive me if you don’t. I hope y’all like it :)
Requested by anon
The weather outside matched what you were feeling on the inside- rage and anger. How could you be so foolish to think that a guy as handsome as Eungyeol like you? Nevertheless you smiled on the outside and began to walk back to your apartment. Just a few more months of saving and you could finally buy yourself a car.
“_________!” you heard a familiar voice say from behind. “You dropped your shirt on the way out the back door,” Yongguk said while panting.
“Did you run all the way from the bakery?” you asked in disbelief.
“Yeah it wasn’t that far,” he replied with a smile.
“Thank you,” you said, taking your shirt from him and putting it in your bag. “I’ll see you around okay?”
“Byeee,” he sang as the two of you parted ways.
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You seemed to be more than lost in your own thoughts that day at work. Your manager snapped his fingers in your face to bring you back to reality. He was more of the chill type. Things like these didn’t bother him. You smiled, silently thanking him.
“You okay?” Yongguk asked with his usual bright smile.
“Yeah.. yeah I’m fine,” you replied when your voice said the complete opposite.
“Day dreaming about someone?” he asked.
“Someone?” you laughed. “More like something?”
“Let me guess! Is it that mousse ice cream again? You know you really shouldn’t be eating such stuff.” Yongguk joked but he seemed more serious. If it was any other day you would not have taken it to heart but that day was different. You were already hurting from what had happened with Eungyeol and Yongguk just added to it by making fun of you for being fat. You gave him a nasty look and disappeared into the kitchen.
Yongguk’s heart sank as he pondered over the words he had said. He didn’t mean for them to come out the way they did. He felt bad and wanted to talk to you but there were customers he had to tend to.
The entire rest of the day, he looked at you from time to time trying to figure out a way to talk to you but you always escaped as soon as he approached. You weren’t mad at him, you were just annoyed that he had hit you right where you didn’t want to be hurt. You already felt really insecure about your image and Yongguk being such a sweet heart and passed that comment.
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The next day was the same. You ignored him all day while he made attempts to talk to you. You didn’t stay after closing to help clean up. Instead you asked the manager if you could leave early. That way you wouldn’t have Yongguk walking behind you.
Your plan failed however, as you heard him call your name from afar. “____________, ____________!” he yelled repeatedly. You fastened your pace but Yongguk did not give up. He caught up to you, and pulled you firmly.
“Can you not hear me?” he asked with slight annoyance. “Why are you so mad at me?”
“I’m not mad at you,” you replied and began to walk once again.
“_________ wait!..” he said and this time ran and stopped in front of you. “I made you something.” He revealed a CD he had made and presented it to you.
“What is this?” you furrowed your eyebrows.
“I added all of your favorite songs to this CD. It’s kind of like an apology from me,” he said forcing you to take the CD. You stuffed it in your bag and without saying a word began walking once again. Yongguk wanted to stop you but then he thought it better to let you go. There was always tomorrow.
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After listening to the CD, a forbidden thought entered your mind. You began to think that maybe Yongguk liked you, otherwise why would someone make all this effort to ask for apology. Then you shrugged the thought out of your mind. How could he possibly like you? You had thought the same with Eungyeol but were only disappointed. You were fat and not pretty and those were two things guys looked for in a girl.
You hit the back of your head to teach yourself a lesson and placed the CD’s on a shelf. You were going to thank Yongguk the next day and things would just go back to normal.
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“Soooo did you like the CD?” Yongguk asked the next day after work. You removed the strands of hair from your face that the naughty wind kept blowing and nodded to him.
“I have a question though,” you asked.
“Sure! Go ahead,” Yongguk said eagerly.
“How did you know that all of those songs were my favorite?” you asked. Yongguk stopped walking which meant that you should too. You stared at him as he tried to avoid your gaze. “Yongguk,” you called out his name so he would respond. He didn’t. Suddenly, he had started to get nervous.
“All the songs in the CD were the ones you hum every day,” he finally said. You looked at him in amazement. It wasn’t something to be surprised over but if pondered over for a few minutes, it sounded very flattering. You could have never imagined Yongguk paid such close attention to you.
“You…! Aaa… you..” you were still thinking of saying something when Yongguk held your hand.
“I like you _______!” he said shyly.
“What?” you pulled your hands out of his immediately. “What do you mean you like me? I thought you… thought you..didn’t…” you gave up on what you had to say. You knew if you commented on your appearance he would think you were shallow. How ironic!
You looked at him dumbfounded because you had never thought of him in such a way. You thought he was far too cool for you, just like all the other guys. Why would he like you when you were so chubby?
“What are you thinking?” he asked.
“Nothing,” you replied.
“Then what’s your answer?”
“What do you mean?”
“About… what.. I just said.”
“I don’t know Yongguk… I don’t even know why you’d like me,” you said out of frustration.
“Why wouldn’t I?… you’re perfect in every way.”
“No I’m not,” you argued.
“You are _________! And you have no idea how much I like you,” he said holding your hands once again. He was making you nervous. No guy had ever said such words to you or touched you that way. Yongguk was the first one and deep down, you were very happy. He had always been a sweet heart to you. The only reason you didn’t think of him more than a friend was because you didn’t think a guy like him could like you. And now he was standing before you, confessing his love bravely. You had to give him a chance. He deserved it. With great effort, you overcame your nervousness and smiled at him. That was the signal which he happily took as a yes. He could finally walk you home…
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Requested By Anon
It had been almost five months into your training at the TS company. You worked day and night trying to get better, in hopes of getting a chance to debut. You knew you had a long journey ahead of you and you were ready to take each step, whether hard or not, towards it.
Just like all the other nights, you decided to stay after and practice more than required. You heard someone’s footsteps towards your practice room. For a minute, you got scared but you quickly over came it and got ready to face whoever it was.
“Who forgets to turn off the lights these days,” Yongguk mumbled while walking into the room. You began to explain yourself but he continued.
“Hey you! What are you doing over here? Are you part of the cleaning crew?” he shook his head and frowned. “Were you touching the trainees’ stuff?” he asked angrily walking towards you.
“Actually I am a trainee here,” you said rolling your eyes. You knew well who he was. He was a B.A.P member. The group that had just debuted.
“And you think you can roll your eyes at me?” he asked squinting his eyes. You were a bit taken aback. He didn’t even bother apologizing to you for mistaking you as a cleaning crew member.
“I didn’t mean to,” you mumbled and looked away.
“Aish, trainees these days. You guys really don’t know how to treat your sunbaes huh?” he said sternly.
“What’s with the label? Why do you keep calling me a trainee? You, yourself were one just a few months ago,“ you said out of irritation and stepped closer to him. “Don’t go overboard.”
“What? How dare you?” he said angrily. “I’ll report your behavior to the managers.”
You suddenly realized that you shouldn’t have said that. No matter what he was still more experienced than you. At the company, they took special care of such manners. You were not too argue, no matter what the idols said.
“Aaa mianhaminda,” you apologized as Yongguk turned around to leave.
“Tell that to the managers,” he said carelessly.
“Aniyo, jebal,” you said holding on to his sleeve which you also probably shouldn’t have done. He shrugged it away and walked out of the practice room. You stood there alone, in utter confusion, cursing yourself for having a big mouth and a short temper.
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The next day:
You stepped into the building hesitantly. In a few moments from then, you were going to be kicked out anyways so there was no point for you to go. Nevertheless, you still went because deep inside you had hope.
Everyone greeted you like they normally would. Some smiled, others nodded. Nothing seemed to have changed. Just then you saw Yongguk walking in your directions. You started walking the opposite way. This happened several times that day and every time you got a little bit more scared. You couldn’t tell what was going on in his mind.
It was late evening once again. Trainees and idols were getting ready to leave. You packed your bags, deciding to leave early that day. Just as you were about to leave the practice room, Yongguk walked in. He came closer to you and almost pinned you to the wall.
“I spared you this time, and this one time only,” he said grinding his teeth. He knew that you were shaking with fear. He was enjoying it. “If you do something stupid like that ever again, you’ll see what I can do.”
He quickly pulled back and walked out leaving you in state of shock. You had mixed emotions. A little part of you was happy that he didn’t tell on you but you were equally scared. He was going to be around you forever. You just had to make sure you didn’t bump into him as often.
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Months passed away and nothing changed. Every time you crossed paths with Yongguk he would glare at you, making you tremble. You wished you could speak against him but that would only cause you harm. Just when you thought things couldn’t get any worse, the managers announced that B.A.P would have to practice in the trainee’s room since their room was under renovation.
You were dumbfounded upon hearing the news. The members walked in one by one. You hid behind one of the other trainees but Yongguk’s eyes still found you. He smirked and then looked away. You hated his ego and his attitude.
After a hard day of practicing the B.A.P members settled down. The trainees still had to practice. You were minding your own business when a comment from Yongguk came, shooting your way.
“__________, if you can’t do such a simple pelvic thrust then good luck with ever debuting.”
The entire room fell silent. People looked at Yongguk and then back at you. Some girls were envious of Yongguk actually knowing your name and others felt pity for you.
You pretended like nothing had happened even though your ears had turned red with embarrassment. You went back to practicing. Yongguk walked up to the trainers and whispered something to them.
Soon after the trainers called you. Yongguk was still standing there.
“_________, Yongguk is right. We have been noticing you. You aren’t focusing on your moves. Starting next week, the managers will weed out all the average dancers. You don’t want to be one of them. So focus or leave!”
You looked at the trainer and then back at Yongguk. As usual, he had a smirk on his face. You tried hard to keep your cool, even though deep inside you were really hurt.
“Yes Seon Saing Nim,” you nodded and went back to your position.
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A few days passed by. Yongguk remained quiet for the most part but you knew that he watched every move that you made. You had to admit that before joining the company, you admired him a lot. You thought he was really good looking but after knowing the kind of person he was, you were very heart broken. It hurt you, the way he treated you. You wanted to confront him and ask him why but you knew it would only result in him insulting you.
It was the last day before the best dancers were to be picked out. You were giving all you had at practice. Yongguk walked in and sat in one corner of the room. His presence made you nervous. You tried hard to concentrate but nothing was working up.
“____________, here’s a thought. How about you just give up now and leave instead of humiliating yourself tomorrow. It’ll save the managers some time and you won’t embarrass yourself.”
Yongguk had hit your breaking point. You completely broke down. All the suppressed feelings you’d had inside of you came out in the forms of tears. You wiped them away which were replaced by some more. What made the situation worse was, some girls laughing from the back of the room. You couldn’t take it anymore. Without thinking, you ran out of the room towards and unknown destination.
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“That was mean Yongguk,” Himchan hit him on the arm. “I’ve been noticing this for a long time. Why do you do this to her and her only?”
“Aish, leave me alone,” Yongguk shrugged Himchan away and turned his face towards the wall.
“What’s going on?” Himchan asked.
“Nothing,” Yongguk mumbled. He seemed to be getting pale.
“Well, clearly something is wrong. You seem really upset. Just a second ago you were having fun annoying her.”
Yongguk turned around and leaned in to Himchan. “It’s because I like her okay,” he said grinding his teeth. Himchan started to get mad too.
“Then why are you annoying her?” Are you stupid?”
“No, you don’t understand,” he said and looked away again.
“Well I don’t know what’s going on in your mind but from what I can see, you need to get past your ego issues and go find her. You’ve really hurt her.” Himchan said and left leaving the rest on Yongguk.
Yongguk sat in the practice room till everybody left. Nobody tried talking to him since he was in a deep state of thinking. Deep inside he was waiting for you to return to the practice room so he could talk to you but at the same time he was scared. He was afraid, that if he saw you, he’d pour out all of his feelings.
It was completely dark outside. Everybody was long gone. There was no way you were going to come back. Yongguk got up to leave. Just then you walked into the practice room. Seeing him there, you turned around immediately.
“_________ wait,” he called after you. You didn’t stop so he ran after you.
“Listen to me,” he said pulling you around. Your eyes were puffy from crying for hours.
“I’m sorry okay,” he apologized looking right at you. You kept your eyes fixed on the floor. “I didn’t mean to hurt you.”
“But you did,” you mumbled. Yongguk stared at you for a long time trying to figure out what to say.
“You’re a great dancer..” he trailed off and sighed.
“You don’t have to say that,” you looked at him with anger in your eyes.
“No, I do.. I really do because you are and this whole time..” he paused. “This whole time I was .. insulting you because ..” he paused again still debating if he should confess or not. You looked up at him to see if he would ever finish his sentence.
“You know what screw this,” he said and pressed his lips against yours. For a brief second you had n idea what happened but then it didn’t seem as strange. In fact you liked it. Even though you hated him, you still liked him. You could feel him smile. It made you smile too.
When the two of you pulled away, both of you couldn’t stop smiling. Yongguk scratched the back of his head in nervousness.
“I’m sorry,” he said once again. You shook your head shyly. You couldn’t hate him. Your heart had forgiven him before you could even put any thought into the subject.
“Do you maybe… want to.. go out sometime?” he asked hesitantly. You nodded and ran out of the room. He wasn’t that bad after all..
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Ummm I kept writing Himchan instead of Yongguk. What’s wrong with me! Grrr
Okeey before posting it, I write this thinking on a song, so you can hear it here
Enjoy~~~
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You were playing the well-known melody that was always stuck in your head. You started singing the lyrics as you felt your heart breaking; your eyes were burning, letting you know that you were about to cry…all the memories that were stuck in your head started playing one by one, again and again in your head.
-flashback-
You were in the living room waiting for Yongguk to arrive from practice, you even made dinner for two, because you missed him that much. You were just counting the minutes for him to arrive, when he finally made his appearance in front door. You reached him as fast as you could.
“Oppa! How was practice today? Did you have fun? You must be tired. I made dinner, so you can change and we can have dinner together!” you said, smiling as he walked by you, not paying attention to anything you just said. His face was so emotionless that you felt a little worried.
“Oppa? Is something wrong?” you asked, walking a little faster until you reached him again. When you were about to touch his face, he pushed your hand off. His face showed how annoyed he was…annoyed by you.
“Can you just shut up for one minute?!” he shouted out with an angry tone.
“W-what?” you stuttered, shocked by his sudden anger.
“I just came home. All I want is a little peace, but you just keep appearing and making annoying sounds, I can’t stand it anymore!” He punched the wall behind you, scaring the hell out of you. Your eyes were about to give up and let the tears fall.
“I-I don’t get what you are saying…” Your voice was shaking and tears were starting to fall.
“OH, COME ON! DON’T START WITH THAT! See! That is what I hate the most about you, you always cry!”
Now you were mad. What did he just say? You thought.
“WHAT? So you hate me? Then why are you with me? Why don’t you just break up with me? I AM TRYING TO MAKE THIS WORK, but every time that something goes bad with the guys, you always come and start freaking the hell out and screaming. Just tell me already that you don’t love me anymore!” you fumed. You were crying, you felt hurt, offended and mad.
Since 4 months ago, that was your routine, you never got to see him, but every time he came home, he would start screaming at you and break up with you. Then 2 weeks later he would come back. You always let him do whatever he pleased, but you were having enough, he was just playing with you.
“I DON’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE!” he shouted as he walked to the front door, ready to leave.
“Are you serious? WHERE ARE YOU GOING?” Now you were the one who was screaming.
“YES! I AM SERIOUS! I DON’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE, I CAN’T STAND THIS ANYMORE, AND I AM GOING TO THE DORM WITH THE GUYS!” he yelled, taking his keys, ready to leave.
Just then, crying, you pushed yourself between the door and him.
“If you leave now…I won’t be here anymore, so be honest Yongguk… You don’t feel anything for me anymore?” your voice broke at the end, and you looked him right in the eyes, praying for him to stay.
“Move out of the way, _____,” he said, trying to move you out of the doorway, his face now appearing exhausted. The sadness in his eyes killed you.
“I am serious, Yongguk. If you leave now…” he pushed you out of the way, “this is the end…FOREVER…” you shouted the last word as he walked out of the house, closing the door behind him.
Your body gave up and you fell on your knees. That was the end, and he knew it. You started crying even harder when you realized it. You needed to take your things out of the place; you needed to move on. You wouldn’t be there forever. Your relationship with Yongguk was stuck and was sick, and you knew that.
You were still in front of the door, waiting for Yongguk to come back, but you realized that he wouldn’t, not for now. Getting up, you walked to your room. You glanced up at your clock; it marked 3 AM. You walked to your computer, and started looking in the pages, looking for the thing that proved that it was the end of it all.
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You ended playing the song and cleaned your eyes, trying to stop your tears. Cleaning your hands on your pants, you got up off of the piano in the middle of the living room. You walked in front of the camera that was recording your song and stopped recording. You walked to the kitchen table, took your pen and started scribbling on a piece of paper. You left your little letter on the piano as you grabbed your backpack and your suitcase. You shut the lights off as you walked to the front door, looking one last time at the clock on the wall. It was 9 in the morning. You held your plane ticket in one hand and your suitcase in the other as you walked off the apartment.
I’ve always wondered why people make promises that they won’t be able to keep…until this moment I never knew the answer…
Things change, sometimes so quickly you don’t even notice it. I don’t know, happiness is, like, something you have to look after, be vigilant about…. The happiness that I felt at the start of this adventure…is no longer there, and I know that you feel the same…
So just let the memories stay and let them be our precious memories… People say that a memory… is something you reconstruct depending on small fragments of recollections in your mind. They say that to remember is the same as seeing an illusion… Innumerable small choices led me onto the road I’m on now. When I was right, and when I was wrong…
I was always me. You, him, anyone, everyone…We’re all right now…It’s all right now.
The sad times, the happy times, all of them are precious memories…So I pray. Please, let these forever be precious memories for you as well.
I was happy, very happy, truly happy
So thank you and good bye…
Requested by anon Naiya
“You really didn’t have to help me unpack. You have so many other things to do,” you said to Yongguk.
“No I’ll be fine. The least I can do is help you with this,” he came towards you and held you by your waist. “I am sorry for not being around as much.”
“Have I ever complained?” you said with a comforting smile, putting your arms around his neck. He leaned in and kissed you on the lips.
Your phone suddenly buzzed.
“Perfect timings,” Yongguk sighed.
“Who is it?” he asked seeing you smile at the text.
You giggled. “Oh it’s just Yu han.”
The two of you continued to unpack. It had been almost 3 hours and both of you needed to rest.
“Hey, _______ I didn’t know the two of you were this close friends.” Yongguk walked towards you handing you a bunch of pictures.
You looked at them. They were pictures of you and Yu han. He was attempting to kiss you on the cheek and you were making face. There was another one of you two hugging and another one with you laying on top of him.
You smiled as you looked at them. “We’ve been friends since middle school what would you expect?” you said as you put them away. “Now come on, I’ll make you some coco. It’s really chilly outside.”
You and Yongguk had been going out for 5 months now. He wasn’t one of those people who started a relationship with friendship. He came up to you one day and blabbered all his feelings. You hadn’t even known him for that long but you liked his straight forwardness, so you said yes. His looks were just a bonus ;)
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You were throwing a party for graduating out of university. It was a big day but you were upset because Yongguk was going to be a little late. That is not how you had expected your party to be like. Nevertheless Yu han was there to give you company.
“Who are those people in the corner?” you asked Yu Han.
“They are a year younger.”
“I don’t remember inviting them to the party.”
“It’s a graduation party. I can bet you, you don’t know half the people in here.”
“Yeah, but I don’t like the way they are staring at us and whispering,” you replied getting up. “I’m going to the ladies room, k.”
You texted Yongguk asking him where he was. As soon as you stepped out of the restroom, somebody grabbed you from behind and dragged you into a small room. You couldn’t even yell for help because your mouth was covered. You used all your force to push him back and turned around. It was the same guy who had been staring at you and Yu Han. He lunged towards you and yanked your shirt off. You were shocked. You didn’t even have time to stop him. You screamed for help but he covered your mouth again. “Shut up,” he whispered as he tightened his grip on your hand.
The door flung open and Yu Han sprinted towards the both of you. He had heard you scream. He pulled the guy’s collar and pushed him to the side. Before he could hit him the guy ran out of the room.
“Yu Han stop,” you said while sobbing.
“No, I need to..,” he said turning.
“Please Yu Han,” you pleaded while trying to cover up your body.
He sighed and looked around for your shirt. It was in the corner of the room. He picked it up for you but before you could take it from him Yongguk entered the room. You wanted to go hug him and bury you face in his chest and cry but before you could do that you realized how misleading the situation was.
“Oppa, you whispered but he looked away. You didn’t know if he was angry or disappointed.
“I’ll leave the two of you alone,” Yu Han said and slowly left the room. You could see that he wanted to say something but he thought it best to leave the matter to you.
You quickly wore your shirt. Yongguk closed the door behind him and walked towards you. He was angry.
“So this is what you call friendship?” he asked grabbing hold of your arms.
“Oppa let me explain!”
“I can’t believe this. I thought you were better than this,” he said pushing you away.
“No this is not.. Just let me explain okay?”
“What are you going to explain? That you were having sex with your friend behind my back? You didn’t let me touch you. You wanted us to wait. Is this what it was for?… So you could cheat on me?”
You were shocked at the cutting words he was using.
He came towards you and pulled your shirt from the shoulder with force.
“Aaaaaa,” you screamed in pain. You were crying again. “He grabbed your hand and pulled you towards him, sliding his rough hands on your bare body.
You don’t have to do this Yongguk. You know you’ll regret it,” you said struggling to pull away.
.He stopped ,“You’re right! I don’t!” Tears were forming in the corner of his eyes.
“I may not have said this but I really loved you. I fell in love with you the minute I saw you. If you weren’t happy why didn’t you just say it. I would have quietly walked out of your life. But this? I did not deserve this.”
“Yongguk you know I love you and only you.”
“It’s over _______,” his voice was barely audible. He looked away and wiped his tears.
Your heart sank. You were losing the one you loved so much. Five months might not have been a long time but they were long enough for you to fall madly in love with him. He was the one, and you knew it. But today seeing him slip out of your hands like this was not what you had expected. You were disappointed too. He should have trusted you no matter what he saw. If he really loved you he would have at least listened but he didn’t. You asked yourself if it was really worth staying for. It wasn’t. You knew you had to leave. You fixed the ripped part of your shirt and got up.
“I thought you trusted me!” you said as you closed the door behind you.
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“Just go away okay,” Yongguk yelled as he saw Yu Han walking towards him. Yu Han was dragging a someone along with him.
“Tell him what you did,” Yu Han said while smacking the guy.
“I’m sorry,” the guy said while crying.
“What’s going on?” Yongguk asked.
“I’m sorry for hurting your girl friend,” the guy said between sobs.
Yongguk didn’t need to hear anything else. It all started making sense. He was devastated. He wished he had listened to you. This is what you’d been trying to tell him.
“Oh My God what have I done?” he said smacking his forehead with his palm. He couldn’t contain his anger and punched the guy.
“Stop! I’ll take care of him. You need to go find ____ right now.” Yu han suggested.
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Yongguk used the spare keys under the mat to enter your apartment. You were sleeping, curled up in the bed. He sat beside you and lifted your wrist softly giving you a kiss your bruise. He could see the deep mark on your shoulder. He hated himself for doing that to you. He ran his fingers on it. A tear fell from his eyes on to your arm. He quickly wiped it and got up to leave.
You sat up. “What are you doing here?” you whispered.
Yongguk stared at you with blank eyes. He began saying something but stopped. He rubbed his eyes, preventing more tears from forming. He wanted you, more than anything in this world.
“I’m sorry,” that’s all he could come up with. The guilt was killing him.
You were disappointed and looked away. He sat beside you and held your hand but you pulled away.
“Yu Han and that guy told me everything.” He paused and took a deep breath. “What I have done cannot be forgiven. I wasn’t there for you when you needed me and when I came I didn’t trust you. I didn’t listen to you when you tried to explain and … and I hurt you. But I am so, so sorry about this. I hate myself so much for what I have done.” He buried his face in his hands. “But I can’t live without you. I was wrong when I said I didn’t love you anymore because I still do. I want you back in my life. I promise you I will never hurt you again. I know I don’t deserve a second chance but you are so kind hearted. If you could just find it in your heart to forgive me? I am so sorry ________. I don’t have word anymore.” He looked at you for an answer. You didn’t respond.
“Would you have said the same thing, if you didn’t find out the truth?” you finally said.
He didn’t know what to say. You had left him speechless. You were right. He had hurt you a lot. You could see the miserable look on his face. You wanted to hug him but you kept back.
“I understand if you don’t want to be with me. A guy like me doesn’t deserve you,” he said placing his hand on yours. “Just know that I will do anything for your forgiveness.”
He got and without looking back left the room. Your heart was telling you to stop him because deep down you still loved him. He was everything to you. You couldn’t just let go of him. The truth was, you would never be able to move on knowing that he still loved you.
You ran after him. “Oppa wait,” you called from behind. He looked at you with longing eyes.
“Please don’t leave me!”
Before you knew, Yongguk wrapped you around his arms hugging you in a tight embrace. He kissed you repeatedly on your face.
“I promise you, you won’t regret this,” he whispered.
‘You didn’t know if the decision that you had made was right or not but you felt alive again.’
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I was going to write something much simpler than this initially but I wanted to make it more intense so I wrote this instead o__O
I hope this is close to what you wanted anon!