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Gravity [Yongguk] Submission

Okeey before posting it, I write this thinking on a song, so you can hear it here 

Enjoy~~~

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You were playing the well-known melody that was always stuck in your head. You started singing the lyrics as you felt your heart breaking; your eyes were burning, letting you know that you were about to cry…all the memories that were stuck in your head started playing one by one, again and again in your head.

-flashback-

You were in the living room waiting for Yongguk to arrive from practice, you even made dinner for two, because you missed him that much. You were just counting the minutes for him to arrive,  when he finally made his appearance in front door. You reached him as fast as you could.

“Oppa! How was practice today? Did you have fun? You must be tired. I made dinner, so you can change and we can have dinner together!” you said, smiling as he walked by you, not paying attention to anything you just said. His face was so emotionless that you felt a little worried.

 “Oppa? Is something wrong?” you asked, walking a little faster until you reached him again. When you were about to touch his face, he pushed your hand off. His face showed how annoyed he was…annoyed by you.

“Can you just shut up for one minute?!” he shouted out with an angry tone.

“W-what?” you stuttered, shocked by his sudden anger.

“I just came home. All I want is a little peace, but you just keep appearing and making annoying sounds, I can’t stand it anymore!” He punched the wall behind you, scaring the hell out of you. Your eyes were about to give up and let the tears fall.

“I-I don’t get what you are saying…” Your voice was shaking and tears were starting to fall.

“OH, COME ON! DON’T START WITH THAT! See! That is what I hate the most about you, you always cry!”

Now you were mad. What did he just say? You thought.

“WHAT? So you hate me? Then why are you with me? Why don’t you just break up with me?  I AM TRYING TO MAKE THIS WORK, but every time that something goes bad with the guys, you always come and start freaking the hell out and screaming. Just tell me already that you don’t love me anymore!” you fumed. You were crying, you felt hurt, offended and mad.

Since 4 months ago, that was your routine, you never got to see him, but every time he came home, he would start screaming at you and break up with you. Then 2 weeks later he would come back. You always let him do whatever he pleased, but you were having enough, he was just playing with you.

“I DON’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE!” he shouted as he walked to the front door, ready to leave.

“Are you serious? WHERE ARE YOU GOING?”  Now you were the one who was screaming.

“YES! I AM SERIOUS! I DON’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE, I CAN’T STAND THIS ANYMORE, AND I AM GOING TO THE DORM WITH THE GUYS!” he yelled, taking his keys, ready to leave.

Just then, crying, you pushed yourself between the door and him.

“If you leave now…I won’t be here anymore, so be honest Yongguk… You don’t feel anything for me anymore?” your voice broke at the end, and you looked him right in the eyes, praying for him to stay.

“Move out of the way, _____,” he said, trying to move you out of the doorway, his face now appearing exhausted. The sadness in his eyes killed you.

“I am serious, Yongguk. If you leave now…” he pushed you out of the way, “this is the end…FOREVER…” you shouted the last word as he walked out of the house, closing the door behind him.

Your body gave up and you fell on your knees. That was the end, and he knew it. You started crying even harder when you realized it. You needed to take your things out of the place; you needed to move on. You wouldn’t be there forever. Your relationship with Yongguk was stuck and was sick, and you knew that.

You were still in front of the door, waiting for Yongguk to come back, but you realized that he wouldn’t, not for now. Getting up, you walked to your room. You glanced up at your clock; it marked 3 AM. You walked to your computer, and started looking in the pages, looking for the thing that proved that it was the end of it all.

-end of flashback-

You ended playing the song and cleaned your eyes, trying to stop your tears. Cleaning your hands on your pants, you got up off of the piano in the middle of the living room. You walked in front of the camera that was recording your song and stopped recording. You walked to the kitchen table, took your pen and started scribbling on a piece of paper. You left your little letter on the piano as you grabbed your backpack and your suitcase. You shut the lights off as you walked to the front door, looking one last time at the clock on the wall. It was 9 in the morning. You held your plane ticket in one hand and your suitcase in the other as you walked off the apartment.

I’ve always wondered why people make promises that they won’t be able to keep…until this moment I never knew the answer…

Things change, sometimes so quickly you don’t even notice it. I don’t know, happiness is, like, something you have to look after, be vigilant about…. The happiness that I felt at the start of this adventure…is no longer there, and I know that you feel the same…

So just let the memories stay and let them be our precious memories… People say that a memory… is something you reconstruct depending on small fragments of recollections in your mind. They say that to remember is the same as seeing an illusion… Innumerable small choices led me onto the road I’m on now. When I was right, and when I was wrong…

I was always me. You, him, anyone, everyone…We’re all right now…It’s all right now.

The sad times, the happy times, all of them are precious memories…So I pray. Please, let these forever be precious memories for you as well.

I was happy, very happy, truly happy

                          So thank you and good bye…

posted 6 years ago with 20 notes

Second Chance [Yongguk]

Requested by anon Naiya

“You really didn’t have to help me unpack. You have so many other things to do,” you said to Yongguk.

“No I’ll be fine. The least I can do is help you with this,” he came towards you and held you by your waist. “I am sorry for not being around as much.”

“Have I ever complained?” you said with a comforting smile, putting your arms around his neck. He leaned in and kissed you on the lips.

Your phone suddenly buzzed.

“Perfect timings,” Yongguk sighed.

“Who is it?” he asked seeing you smile at the text.

You giggled. “Oh it’s just Yu han.”

The two of you continued to unpack. It had been almost 3 hours and both of you needed to rest.

“Hey, _______ I didn’t know the two of you were this close friends.” Yongguk walked towards you handing you a bunch of pictures.

You looked at them. They were pictures of you and Yu han. He was attempting to kiss you on the cheek and you were making face. There was another one of you two hugging and another one with you laying on top of him.

You smiled as you looked at them. “We’ve been friends since middle school what would you expect?” you said as you put them away. “Now come on, I’ll make you some coco. It’s really chilly outside.”

You and Yongguk had been going out for 5 months now. He wasn’t one of those people who started a relationship with friendship. He came up to you one day and blabbered all his feelings. You hadn’t even known him for that long but you liked his straight forwardness, so you said yes. His looks were just a bonus ;)

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You were throwing a party for graduating out of university. It was a big day but you were upset because Yongguk was going to be a little late. That is not how you had expected your party to be like. Nevertheless Yu han was there to give you company.

“Who are those people in the corner?” you asked Yu Han.

“They are a year younger.”

“I don’t remember inviting them to the party.”

“It’s a graduation party. I can bet you, you don’t know half the people in here.”

“Yeah, but I don’t like the way they are staring at us and whispering,” you replied getting up. “I’m going to the ladies room, k.”

You texted Yongguk asking him where he was. As soon as you stepped out of the restroom, somebody grabbed you from behind and dragged you into a small room. You couldn’t even yell for help because your mouth was covered. You used all your force to push him back and turned around. It was the same guy who had been staring at you and Yu Han. He lunged towards you and yanked your shirt off. You were shocked. You didn’t even have time to stop him. You screamed for help but he covered your mouth again. “Shut up,” he whispered as he tightened his grip on your hand.

The door flung open and Yu Han sprinted towards the both of you. He had heard you scream. He pulled the guy’s collar and pushed him to the side. Before he could hit him the guy ran out of the room.

“Yu Han stop,” you said while sobbing.

“No, I need to..,” he said turning.

“Please Yu Han,” you pleaded while trying to cover up your body.

He sighed and looked around for your shirt. It was in the corner of the room. He picked it up for you but before you could take it from him Yongguk entered the room. You wanted to go hug him and bury you face in his chest and cry but before you could do that you realized how misleading the situation was.

“Oppa, you whispered but he looked away. You didn’t know if he was angry or disappointed.

“I’ll leave the two of you alone,” Yu Han said and slowly left the room. You could see that he wanted to say something but he thought it best to leave the matter to you.

You quickly wore your shirt. Yongguk closed the door behind him and walked towards you. He was angry.

“So this is what you call friendship?” he asked grabbing hold of your arms.

“Oppa let me explain!”

“I can’t believe this. I thought you were better than this,” he said pushing you away.

“No this is not.. Just let me explain okay?”

“What are you going to explain? That you were having sex with your friend behind my back? You didn’t let me touch you. You wanted us to wait. Is this what it was for?… So you could cheat on me?”

You were shocked at the cutting words he was using.

He came towards you and pulled your shirt from the shoulder with force.

 “Aaaaaa,” you screamed in pain. You were crying again. “He grabbed your hand and pulled you towards him, sliding his rough hands on your bare body.

You don’t have to do this Yongguk. You know you’ll regret it,” you said struggling to pull away.

.He stopped ,“You’re right! I don’t!” Tears were forming in the corner of his eyes.

“I may not have said this but I really loved you. I fell in love with you the minute I saw you. If you weren’t happy why didn’t you just say it. I would have quietly walked out of your life. But this? I did not deserve this.”

“Yongguk you know I love you and only you.”

“It’s over _______,” his voice was barely audible. He looked away and wiped his tears.

Your heart sank. You were losing the one you loved so much. Five months might not have been a long time but they were long enough for you to fall madly in love with him. He was the one, and you knew it. But today seeing him slip out of your hands like this was not what you had expected. You were disappointed too. He should have trusted you no matter what he saw. If he really loved you he would have at least listened but he didn’t. You asked yourself if it was really worth staying for. It wasn’t. You knew you had to leave. You fixed the ripped part of your shirt and got up.

“I thought you trusted me!” you said as you closed the door behind you.

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“Just go away okay,” Yongguk yelled as he saw Yu Han walking towards him. Yu Han was dragging a someone along with him.

“Tell him what you did,” Yu Han said while smacking the guy.

“I’m sorry,” the guy said while crying.

“What’s going on?” Yongguk asked.

“I’m sorry for hurting your girl friend,” the guy said between sobs.

Yongguk didn’t need to hear anything else. It all started making sense. He was devastated. He wished he had listened to you. This is what you’d been trying to tell him.

“Oh My God what have I done?” he said smacking his forehead with his palm. He couldn’t contain his anger and punched the guy.

“Stop! I’ll take care of him. You need to go find ____ right now.” Yu han suggested.

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Yongguk used the spare keys under the mat to enter your apartment. You were sleeping, curled up in the bed. He sat beside you and lifted your wrist softly giving you a kiss your bruise. He could see the deep mark on your shoulder. He hated himself for doing that to you. He ran his fingers on it. A tear fell from his eyes on to your arm. He quickly wiped it and got up to leave.

You sat up. “What are you doing here?” you whispered.

Yongguk stared at you with blank eyes. He began saying something but stopped. He rubbed his eyes, preventing more tears from forming. He wanted you, more than anything in this world.

“I’m sorry,” that’s all he could come up with. The guilt was killing him.

You were disappointed and looked away. He sat beside you and held your hand but you pulled away.

“Yu Han and that guy told me everything.” He paused and took a deep breath. “What I have done cannot be forgiven. I wasn’t there for you when you needed me and when I came I didn’t trust you. I didn’t listen to you when you tried to explain and … and I hurt you. But I am so, so sorry about this. I hate myself so much for what I have done.” He buried his face in his hands. “But I can’t live without you. I was wrong when I said I didn’t love you anymore because I still do. I want you back in my life. I promise you I will never hurt you again. I know I don’t deserve a second chance but you are so kind hearted. If you could just find it in your heart to forgive me? I am so sorry ________. I don’t have word anymore.” He looked at you for an answer. You didn’t respond.

“Would you have said the same thing, if you didn’t find out the truth?” you finally said.

He didn’t know what to say. You had left him speechless. You were right. He had hurt you a lot. You could see the miserable look on his face. You wanted to hug him but you kept back.

“I understand if you don’t want to be with me. A guy like me doesn’t deserve you,” he said placing his hand on yours. “Just know that I will do anything for your forgiveness.”

He got and without looking back left the room. Your heart was telling you to stop him because deep down you still loved him. He was everything to you. You couldn’t just let go of him. The truth was, you would never be able to move on knowing that he still loved you.

You ran after him. “Oppa wait,” you called from behind.  He looked at you with longing eyes.

“Please don’t leave me!”

Before you knew, Yongguk wrapped you around his arms hugging you in a tight embrace. He kissed you repeatedly on your face.

“I promise you, you won’t regret this,” he whispered.

‘You didn’t know if the decision that you had made was right or not but you felt alive again.’

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I was going to write something much simpler than this initially but I wanted to make it more intense so I wrote this instead o__O

I hope this is close to what you wanted anon!

posted 6 years ago with 47 notes